So sorry to be back again. I have been told that it is OK to ask for more prayer, so I hope that it is still alright. Yesterday evening, I experienced a very traumatic event for me and I have been left feeling totally traumatised by it. It brought back many painful memories of being a child and of being vulnerable as a young child. I seem to have cried for the past (almost) 24 hours. I am crying for the memories that it has evoked from my own childhood as well as for the family involved in the event and particularly the 4 year old girl. So now I am trying to deal with this on top of everything else. At times today, I have thought: "I wish that I was dead!" - even though I am not actively suicidal. My pain level is high today - which is not so surprising as I had very little sleep last night and tiredness always makes it difficult to cope with the pain.