Lights cut off need prayers badly

[whitedove38583]

It has been a while since i been here and several things have happened since. recently i started volunteering in my comunity which was a joy and still is when i have the time to do so. So why am i here and what prayers do i need? Well i need several and will try and make this as short as i can.

A while back i had attempted my life and when i did so it messed up my heart because i had a heart attack but God did not want me to die apperently is why i am still here. so i started helping others and volunteering in my comunity, 3 years ago my brother his wife and 4 kids became homeless so i gave them my mobile home that i had purchased for myself and stayed in this tiny camper, well i had also signed for him to get his lights on and up until now he had paid it every month, everytime. well he got laid off a few weeks ago and was not able to pay it, i just found out it was added onto my bill so now i am looking at a total of $493.12 that may not sound like much money but to me that is way more then i can pay. my check is $674 per month out of that comes a land/mortage payment of $225 per month. my husband has COPD and is on oxygen therapy his oxygen rental is $350 per month for some reason the state decided to cut him off saying they did not have enough money thus we had to start paying for his machine ourselfs. this state of tennessee really cut a lot of needy people off and not just us either, my husbands best friend in school had heart disease was cut off and he recently passed away i assume because he could not get his meds.. anyhow my brother who lives right next door to me has no lights, they were cut off 2 days before thanksgiving and he has 4 small kids. i did manage to run him an extinsion cord so he could at least plug up a light and fridge. i did not have anything to eat for thanksgiving and christmas looks to just be another day to me as well with maybe a loaf of bread or something like that.

i need prayers because i am about to lose my faith. everything is hitting me right now so **** hard. i was so desperate that i put a ad on wishuponahero forum to ask for help with the light bill, and this camper fixed. the roof is failing in, it leaks badly. i can't fix it i dont have the money. i had asked that extereme home makeover and even went as far as putting a cross on the outside of the envelope to get their attention but then the may flood hit tennessee and they choose to help a private school instead. i even just would like a nice used mobile nothing fancy, but i know it wont happen, i am getting more and more depressed, losing my faith in everything to the point where i just dont believe in God anymore or even if he is real he is only for the rich people and not the poor.

i have helped others and volunteered and now i dont have anything left to give. the stress i feel is just overwelming and its not good with my heart as i am on heart meds and all. i have just lost all hope so i ask prayers that i may be able to get my light bill paid and it not cut off and or a used mobile home. VEC ( VOLUNTEER ELECTRIC ) says they will cut me off if its not paid by the 10 of december. i really do need prayers because this christmas i will be in the cold, dark, hungry, and hurting.. please keep me in your prayers for the strength to get thru this? thanks.

Susan

 

[Brighthouse]

Dear Susan! After praying about this last night for quite a while,I am led to tell you a few things that I hope will both lift you up,and encourage you! Some judge others by what they read,some judge others by what they see,Jesus judges us by what we do!

For it is by what we do,that we confirm our own faith to him! The enemy would have us stop what we are doing,because he wishes to steal and rob us daily!( john 10:10) But the Lord in me would tell you something as well. Do NOT!! Lose your first love!!( rev 2:4-5)

No one understands how tough things can be,until they walk for a while in our own shoes! But through this my dear sister Susan!! we usually have need of something we once forgot! The need to endure!!( Hebrews 10:36) For what purpose you may ask?? Have I not endured enough already??

Well I would sure say you have Susan, but I do not know your heart like the Lord does! Have you ever seen gold purification? One day a friend of mine invited me to his gold shop to watch this! It was very cool! He got some gold melted it down,and at first!! It became BLOOD RED!!

And then it changed and changed! Then the man took an instrument, passed it over the gold which drew out a substance that was foreign to the gold. He did this several times until every part was taken away.Then at last he put it over again and said LOOK!!

There my dear sister we saw both our faces in the gold!! It was really cool! The trail of your Faith is much more precious then gold which perisheth!( 1 Peter 1:7) When God so purifies you through trails,misunderstanding,persecution, suffering and being wrongfully judged,Jesus has given you the key;rejoice in that day! Sister Susan.

As we are tested in the fire,the Master is cleaning away all that cannot bring out his image,cleaning away all the dross from your life,all the evil,until he sees HIS face reflected in your life.

Lord we rejoice in our trails and sufferings as YOU refine our faith so that our life may reflect you! amen! May this comfort you sister Susan,and may the Lord provide a quick way of escape for you!!(1Cor 10:13) And may you find peace in knowing his Word!!( john 14:27!) blessing to you! I know I have,I am so thankful for Jesus,and his Word which has set us all!! FREE!!( john 8:31-32)

 

[AbbysAunt]

Hello Susan,

You are in my prayers and I will lifting you up to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I am so sorry you are going through such a rough time right now. It's when we are at our lowest and weakest that our enemy satan strikes and puts doubt in our hearts and minds about our Lord and Savior. Things like " Oh if God cared why isn't He doing something" or " If God loved you so much why is this circumstance happening" The truth is satan knows God loves you Susan and he hates that and wants to use what you are going through now as way to get you to doubt that and doubt that God can and will provide for you.

When we are at the lowest point we can be. When things seem like they will never get better and like there is no way...that is when Jesus makes a way. When our faith is tested to the utmost and we aren't sure if we even have any left that is when we need to cling to Him the most. Remember when Peter took His eyes off of Jesus for just that split second and He began to sink...that is how it is with us...when our faith starts to waver we need to keep our focus on our Lord and Savior Jesus never taking our eyes from Him and keeping ourselves in His word and listening to His voice of truth. Renew your heart and faith in Him...He will be your strength when you are weak, when others say it can't be done Jesus says I will do it and He can make the impossible possible.

Ps.55:22 Cast your burden on the Lord, and He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.

Isa.40:28-31 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Everlasting God, The Lord, The creator of the ends of the earth, never faints or is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary and the young men shall utterly fall, but those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

Joshua1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.


Lord Jesus,
We come humbly before you now with praise in our hearts and on our lips for you. We Thank you for your saving grace and mercy. We thank you that you are the same yesterday, today and forever and will never change or be moved and we thank you for those blessings we have and for those yet to come which we have not recieved but believe and know that through you they will come to pass. We lift up our sister susan to you and ask that her faith, strength and courage be renewed as only You can Renew and we ask that satan and his lies be silenced and heard no more but instead she be filled with Your truth, peace, and comfort. We come before you knowing that when others say its impossible that with you it is possible and when others say there is nothing
else we can do that you Lord can and will do. We ask that your mighty loving, healing hand be upon this situation that lingers in susan's and her family's lives and ask that your will be done for her and her family. That you would provide her financially so the bills can be paid, so that her husband and she get the medical help they both need and that food be put on the table for her and for her and for her whole family. Lord right now when things seem the darkest and there is no hope shine your light of Truth into their lives giving them hope and letting them know continually that you see, are there and will meet their needs. Help them to never give up Hope Lord, but Hold on to you knowing that you are their strength when they are weak, they you will sustain them. Fill them with courage and a renewed faith that they have never known before. We pray this prayer in Your mighty and power Name. Amen and Amen and now may the God who sustains us shine His face upon you susan and your family. May His blessings fall upon you like never before and May you be filled with His love, peace, comfort and joy now and always.

 

[whitedove38583]

thank you both for your prayers and for those who dont post but yet pray for me in silence, i really do appreceiate it. Things are just not going well for me at all. Yesterday dec 1 st it was one of those days where you just wished to stay in bed.

I had to renew my insurance for my 1990 van, so i start out at about 830 yesterday and noticed my steering wheel was hard to stir so when i pulled in to get the gas i raised the hood and the **** alternator belt had come off. it runs on my alternator and power steering, so i stay there at the station for over 1 hour asking everyonme that gets there if they got a 9.16 wrench, apperantly no body does:shock: so i then attempt to drive it on another 12 miles to my nephews house, it takes him 2 hours and he gets it put on. its now after 12 noon, so i drive down to pay the insurance and apperanmtly their **** internet has gone down, so i have to drive to the bank deposit the money then go home and pay it, well as i pull out my sterring starts getting hard to steer again then it starts sqeeking, well i get to the bank deposit the 50 dollars and head toward home, pop the **** belt breaks, so i then have to turn around drive to oreilly auto parts pay 20 dollars for the belt then 20 dollars for them to put it on. i get told from the guy there that my tensioner is shot, so i ask him how much one cost, freeking $120 dollars. i tell him i cant pay it right now so he tightens it up and tells me not sure how much longer it will last because i have a 1990 van and it being so old the part has to be ordered and all, well i made it home.

so i then get online here because i had went to a site and had asked if anyone knew where i could get some help on my light bill. friends or rather i thought they were my friends but i read things like i am a scammer, i have been doing this for years etc. i have never ever asked for help with my light bill. i have always paid it and it would still have been paid if brother had not gotten laid off. they are blaming me for signing for my brother. he got laid off, not his choice or his fault. then they call me lazy and all. heck i have personaly tried to get a job for 5 years not only in this town but in surounding towns i have not been able to get a job and have an app in every factory,. fast food joint, and even a few in the goverment departments because i did go back to school twice, once for medical billing specialist and then for police sciences. i have resumes online at career builder, indeed,.com, monster jobs and the local career center and they are calling me lazy and not trying and things.

i cant take this anymore. i am under so much stress right now. i did not post anything there because if i do they will turn it around and say i am in the wrong and all. i mean all i did was ask about if they knew of any place i could get help with a light bill and they already have it into a hot topic, making fun of me, calling me all kinds of names like calling me a lazy a.. and to get up off my butt and work.. dangit i have been trying. i cant force them to hire me, i wish i could then maybe i could be working. and they are even talking like calling DHS on me because of an elderly person on oxygen here, trying to say i am mean and everything. i dont need that right now. i am into tears so much right now i cant hardly see to type and then they say i am making them feel sorry for me, i dont want anyone to feel sorry for me, just pray for me and love me you know. be a friend to me you know, but i guess i dont have any friends like i thought. why is it that this world is so cold. i know the bible says everything works out for those who love him or something like that and i know he has protected me on many times. one time we had a holiday dinner at church. my car would not start. i even had called and asked the minister for a ride to church that night, he simply said he couldnt that he had to get ready for a mission trip he was taking in feburary and this was like last of november, anyhow i did not get to go. i did not have anything to eat here that day and knowing they were eating ham and turkey and all really hurt. to this day i will never forget that because the next day i went outside and tried my car and it fired right up, didnt really understand that but that wed. night i drove to church and no one was there so after about 1 hour i drove to a friends house and she said everyone got poisened that night.:shock: well it was then that i understood why my car would not start. the lord was keeping me from going so i know he cares for me. part of reason i no longer go to church anymore..

anyhow just wanted to update everyone here because i am under a lot of stress that i really dont need right now. thank you for those who have prayed and continue to pray for me. i know things will get better and i know there are people worse off then me. I am going to try and give all my worries and cares to God.

 

[christina82]

Dear Sister,
In Kentucky there are government programs called LIHEAP (low income heating assistance program) to help low income families pay their utility bills in the winter. One applies for this help through local CAPS (community action programs). I would suggest that you contact your local food stamp office and inquire with them whether or not TN has a similar program and what the qualifications are. If you would rather not call the FS office, I am sure a local church could give you the information; that is how i got the info about KY for this response. Sorry, I don't know any one in TN that would have that type of info.

I am praying for you! The Lord knows our needs and provides for us, even when we can't see the light at the end of the tunnel he is always guiding us toward it.

Chris

 

[duckybill]

It has been a while since i been here and several things have happened since. recently i started volunteering in my comunity which was a joy and still is when i have the time to do so. So why am i here and what prayers do i need? Well i need several and will try and make this as short as i can.

A while back i had attempted my life and when i did so it messed up my heart because i had a heart attack but God did not want me to die apperently is why i am still here. so i started helping others and volunteering in my comunity, 3 years ago my brother his wife and 4 kids became homeless so i gave them my mobile home that i had purchased for myself and stayed in this tiny camper, well i had also signed for him to get his lights on and up until now he had paid it every month, everytime. well he got laid off a few weeks ago and was not able to pay it, i just found out it was added onto my bill so now i am looking at a total of $493.12 that may not sound like much money but to me that is way more then i can pay. my check is $674 per month out of that comes a land/mortage payment of $225 per month. my husband has COPD and is on oxygen therapy his oxygen rental is $350 per month for some reason the state decided to cut him off saying they did not have enough money thus we had to start paying for his machine ourselfs. this state of tennessee really cut a lot of needy people off and not just us either, my husbands best friend in school had heart disease was cut off and he recently passed away i assume because he could not get his meds.. anyhow my brother who lives right next door to me has no lights, they were cut off 2 days before thanksgiving and he has 4 small kids. i did manage to run him an extinsion cord so he could at least plug up a light and fridge. i did not have anything to eat for thanksgiving and christmas looks to just be another day to me as well with maybe a loaf of bread or something like that.

i need prayers because i am about to lose my faith. everything is hitting me right now so **** hard. i was so desperate that i put a ad on wishuponahero forum to ask for help with the light bill, and this camper fixed. the roof is failing in, it leaks badly. i can't fix it i dont have the money. i had asked that extereme home makeover and even went as far as putting a cross on the outside of the envelope to get their attention but then the may flood hit tennessee and they choose to help a private school instead. i even just would like a nice used mobile nothing fancy, but i know it wont happen, i am getting more and more depressed, losing my faith in everything to the point where i just dont believe in God anymore or even if he is real he is only for the rich people and not the poor.

i have helped others and volunteered and now i dont have anything left to give. the stress i feel is just overwelming and its not good with my heart as i am on heart meds and all. i have just lost all hope so i ask prayers that i may be able to get my light bill paid and it not cut off and or a used mobile home. VEC ( VOLUNTEER ELECTRIC ) says they will cut me off if its not paid by the 10 of december. i really do need prayers because this christmas i will be in the cold, dark, hungry, and hurting.. please keep me in your prayers for the strength to get thru this? thanks.

Susan

Hi Susan. God is exactly what you need. He will take care of your every need if you turn to Him without reservation.

Matthew 6:33 (NKJV)
33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

 

[whitedove38583]

update,

I still need prayers for this please? i will be talking with a church wed. evening if they can help they can only help with $50 dollars. that still leaves me with $450 to get before the 10 of dec. which is this saturaday. when my lights get cut off i wont be able to log back on or receive phone calls as my phone is not battery but on electric and is the type that plugs in. not sure if i can post my number here or not but please keep me in your prayers cause i don't know what else i can do. Most the churches in our area and places like uchra and all are out of funds, a lot of people needing help. i may be in the dark with no heat for christmas but i can still pray and have a little hope. my faith has not left me yet so i am holding onto that as long as i can. i dont want to give up but if i lose my lights it will be hard not to do that. thanks for keeping me in your prayers as i may not get to get back on and tell you guys thanks. take care God Bless and hope you all have a great christmas!

Susan

 

[whitedove38583]

God hates me...

That is what it is.. I was gonna go get help for my light bill this evening but it did snow and not just a little bit either, so much that the hill i live on was iced over. i knew i could not go into the church to ask the deacons for help and so i called but the pastor tells me i have to be there tonight, which i could not go. so yea God does in fact hate me. Also i think God is for only the rich people in this world, if you got money everyone loves you and will bend over backwords just to help you but if you are a poor struggling woman trying to make a farm and sell produce and all yet i have not even been able to get the thing going, starting up this small farm business just cant even get ahead at all now i am about to lose my lights because i helped out someone else. yes its my fault i realize that. i gave out love and care and concern but now that i need it, it is not there oh well, i have to admit it and own up to the fact God does not love me, never did.. sorry if i offend anyone by that statement but i have had way too much trouble happen in my life and i diod go to church and i did remain faithful for a long time, even was able to help my dad who is 76 years old get saved anmd baptized as well as my 10 year old niece on the same day. that was a great thing to see but i give up.. God dont love me, never did. he obviously loves everyone else so take care and God Bless!

 

[Peace Seeker]

God hates me...

That is what it is.. I was gonna go get help for my light bill this evening but it did snow and not just a little bit either, so much that the hill i live on was iced over. i knew i could not go into the church to ask the deacons for help and so i called but the pastor tells me i have to be there tonight, which i could not go. so yea God does in fact hate me. Also i think God is for only the rich people in this world, if you got money everyone loves you and will bend over backwords just to help you but if you are a poor struggling woman trying to make a farm and sell produce and all yet i have not even been able to get the thing going, starting up this small farm business just cant even get ahead at all now i am about to lose my lights because i helped out someone else. yes its my fault i realize that. i gave out love and care and concern but now that i need it, it is not there oh well, i have to admit it and own up to the fact God does not love me, never did.. sorry if i offend anyone by that statement but i have had way too much trouble happen in my life and i diod go to church and i did remain faithful for a long time, even was able to help my dad who is 76 years old get saved anmd baptized as well as my 10 year old niece on the same day. that was a great thing to see but i give up.. God dont love me, never did. he obviously loves everyone else so take care and God Bless!

Dear whitedove,
I see that you are hurting, but please don't let that cloud your mind as to who God is. He DOES NOT HATE YOU. He loves you so much that He left the bliss of His eternal kingdom, where there was no sin or pain, to experience a brutal death for you. That is not hate, that is the ultimate love. God's love for us is above our understanding. Nothing can make God hate you or forsake you!

The devil wants you to believe his lies!! That you are unloved, that God doesn't care, etc. The devil is a thief, murderer and destroyer, and the father of lies. Don't listen to him! Listen instead to what the Apostle Paul said :

Romans 8:38-39 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.



Nothing can separate us from God's love!!! NOTHING!!! You must believe this and trust the One who is trustworthy. When the waves are crashing all around us, He is there rebuking the storms for us. We must also strive to have faith in the good and the bad times. And be thankful always. I know that's hard, but the Lord loves a thankful heart.


You are also wrong, sister, about God and rich people. God said it would be easier for a rich man to go through the eye of a needle than for him to get to Heaven!! God is not a respecter of persons, His love and grace are available for all people.

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, For theirs is the kingdom of heaven".
4Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted.

Lay Up Treasures in Heaven
19 "Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; 20but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Do Not Worry
25 "Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?
27Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
28"So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31"Therefore do not worry, saying, "What shall we eat?' or "What shall we drink?' or "What shall we wear?' 32For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

Keep Asking, Seeking, Knocking
7 "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 9Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? 11If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! 12Therefore, whatever you want men to do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.

Please do not give up hope, sister. Trust in the Lord who is able to do abundantly more than we ask or think.

You are in my prayers, whether you believe in them or not. All praise, honor and glory to our Lord Jesus Christ! He is merciful, loving and kind, and I am nothing without Him. He saved and healed a wretch like me, He can certainly do even more for you!!

 

[whitedove38583]

Why not say that? it is the truth God does hate me. I lose my lights today. And to say God does not hate anyone well what about the twins jacob and esau? Did God not say that he hated jacob but loved esau or was it he hated easu and loved jacob? i do remember him telling that in the bible, he hated him and he was not even born yet, so how do you know that he does not hate me? you have not walked in my shoes let me fill you in a bit of my life. this is after all a prayer and christian site..

when i was 15 years old, exactly 2 weeks from my 16th birthday my mom was for a long time sick, so on may 6 1988 she passed away, and on may 9, 1988 which was a mothers day, i was at the funeral and cemetary burying my mom on mothers day. i was 15, i had to quit school to take care of my disabilied dad and younger brother. i helped him get thru school and then later on i went back to school got my diploma, and even went into collage and got a deploma from taking police sciences because i really wanted to be an officer, then i feel in with the wrong type of boy. i trusted him but that was a mistake. his car had broken down one day and he had asked me to take him to get a car part and to drop off some writting paper to his buddy in a jail so i trusted him, took him to the jail, did not even look at what he had, well he had tried to slip in whisky and cigs to smoke to his friend. i was busted because i had taken him down there. now get this i had just received 3000 dollars from a SS backpay that was from my mom. well guess what, the police seized that money and my car, that was gonna get me a water well dug at my place but no it was taken.. i did not know much about the justice sysytem i was still studingand all and did not even know i could have gotten the pre trial division thingy, well on advice of my lawyer i plead guilty because i did bring him to the jail. i got a class c felony on my record and that knocked me out of the job i really wanted which was in law enforcement.. a few years later the city was investigated by the FBI about their corruption i guess someone had the nerve to stand up to them, well i tried getting my record espunged but guess what it is no where in their system nor their court records, they cant find it but i can go online and look myself up and its there on felony offender lookup. i have no way of getting it espunged and yes i have tried..



well things kept getting worse that i decided to end it and took an od with whisky, unfortantly it did not kill me but did mess up my heart so much that i now have tachycardia ( fast heart beat due to my od and heart attack ) plus i was in a nut house for 72 hours for my attempt, thus i have 3 strikes against me

1 - class C felony on my record

2 - heart attack, damaged heart

3 - been in a mental hospital for 72 hours due to my attempt



well i was at a fair one day, seen a church with a free sign up on bible studies so i sighned up, then proceeded to take every **** lesson they had and finally after 2 years the minister found my place and offered me a visit to church, well i took that visit and kind of stayed, really liked it. it was different as the church i had previously attended had basically did not care for me. before my attempt and way before i ever got involved with Bill ( the felon ) i was attending another church. i had felt loved in every way had a great job, a brand new 1996 dodge dakota club cab, payments were 502 a month, a 1993 jeep wrangler about 319 a month, a new trailer about 283 a month, was paying 300 a month ( winter time ) for the light bill and had plenty to eat and a great job, well that suddenly changed a co worker got hurt on the job and sewed the company i was let go and the company shut down. my employment check was not enough to cover anything and it went from my hand to the light company so i approached the church and asked for help. my mortgage lender was bank of america and if i could get 500 dollars paid in they would re fin my moble so i could keep it, well i asked the church, they told me no at the next meeting 2 days before thanksgiving in 1996 they pulled my mobile home away. i had to throw all my stuff outside, everything got ruint. i was living in my car, well i still kept my faith in God and i went to church. i soon seen that the church had given 500 dollars to another couple there that had just gotten a retirement settlement. they gave it to them who had just gotten a huge back pay and i lost my home. i never went back to that church ever again. from that month on thru christmas i slept in my car ( a 1977 station wagon ) and i kept warm by only a barrel, just after christmas a guy who went to church with me there came by to see me. he then seen what i was living in and he also left the church

but for some reason i decided to give those bible studies a chance and i was regularly attending the church, well that is until my car tore up and i could no longer attend. i was driving about 45 miles to church 1 way each service, they would not come and get me and i was still looking for a job those 3 strikes against didnt help. i was so wanting to go one night when they had their holiday dinner so i called the minister, he tells me i cant i got to get ready for a mission trip that i am taking in feb of the following year, well i did not have anything to eat but i found out later they all got poisioned that day.. so i have to hand it to God for keeping me safe that day. i never went back.

well i tried it again, started going regulary, took my 75 year old dad and my 10 year old niece, they both got baptized the same night, a very young one and a very old person, we attenmded regulay that is until dad took cancer, then i was spending all my time and what little gas to get him back and forth to the cancer doc and to his shots after the chemo, guess what? the church where dad was baptized not once came by to see dad at all. dad basically went thru those treatments all by himself, and they knew he had it, the minister even seen the huge knot on dads neck ( dad had larghe B cell lymphoma ) and this was last year, doc did a colonscopy on dad last april and dad has polyps that are just turning into cancer. so where is all the loving church people? Where is all of Gods people at?

I tell you this to me God does not love me.. And that is not even hath of what all has happened to me during my short 39 years i have been on this earth. i have been a victom of crime 2 times without justic, a mobile i had saved up money to buy and move to my 14 acre farm here got burnt by arson, all my photos of my mom and even tapes of her talking to me while we played board games got burnt up. the police did nothing, to this day still unsolved, but i did find out later it was my youngest brother who done, don't have the proof but my oldest brother told me he did it because he was unemployed and needed the scrape money i forgave him because i was going to church and the minister said i must forgive him, then on dec 1 2008 my oldest brothers wife killed him, she never was arrested they say not enough proof, well the following year she starves her own mother to death, still florida police did not convict her, she is still free.

Theres much more, you know i even had a friend from church tell me no one goes thru these hardships all the **** time, well i did and still do thus my only conclusion is God hates me...

i don't know if the mods will let this stay or not but it is a statement from me about my life and hardships i endure and still go thru, day after day. it is my testimony and perhaps mostly the reason i am losing my faith.. i know God does love, but i am one he don't love... guess he hated me before i was even born. anyhow sorry to bore you with my life but you really just don't know what all i been thru and continue to endure. I am in a lot of stress and it is not good for me to be in such stress but you really don't know 100% sure that he does love me...

 

[whitedove38583]

update...

just had to get on here and post an update for all that kept me in your prayers.

I have to say that the above statement i said about God hating me is false, way false because i was given a blessing like no other from a complete stranger. My lights are paid up and the guy who i know only by his first name of Randy, also gave me 100 dollars for food to help me out and told where i can get help with food at on wed, evenings. i never knew they were still that kind of loving and caring people, guess i was wrong because they are. I won't go into details about it all and will keep this short but i am, very thankful this christmas to still have lights on and to have some food in my fridge. And i worried a lot about it, i really did.. i don't have a tree or christmas presents but none of that really matters all that matters is that i got my lights still on and food and for that the guy who helped me out has been an angle to me. So i am taking this time to ask you to say a prayer for the family of Randy to continue to bless him and his family, because they helped out a complete stranger as myself and did not ask for anything in return, yet i offered to clean his house and things but he declined and it was a gift, and to me that was a true gift from God!

thank you for all the prayers!

 

[gdemoss]

Last edited by SpiritLedEd; 11-30-11 at 10:15 PM. Reason: Account number deleted. No soliciting money on this site.

So no one is allowed to ask an alms?

I seem to recall a certain someone who was laid at the gate of the temple to ask alms of the people. Peter didn't seem to see the need to censure him.

I'd suggest maybe a place for those who have need to lay in the gate of the temple so that they may be seen. There are only poor people in this world because there is sin. Anyone who wishes to just step over them and go into the temple to worship God can do so.

Whitedove, it warms my heart to hear that someone has reached out to you and fulfilled your needs, if only but for a moment. Remember this, my sister, God has chosen the poor of this world rich in faith to inherit the kingdom that he has promised to those that love him. Unfortunately in this sinful world in which we live there is so much scamming for money going on that the instant reaction many people have when they here about the destitute is "is this a scam?". Immediately the detectives start looking for the clues of a scam and begin to find them as they conjure up in their minds why you are really here and what you are really doing while not posting for cash. Do not blame them. We wrestle not with flesh and blood but with principalities and powers and rulers of darkness in high places.

There is a reason for your desperate situation. God is working in someones life if not many people over your situation. Randy had chosen to place his treasure in heaven rather than spend it here. I was provoked to think about all of the ungodliness that permeates our world daily and once again what we all have to look forward to if we are truly in Christ and will one day come and buy bread without money, and without the need for electricity because Jesus will be the only light necessary. If you lose your faith then Satan has won. If you can find the patience of Job to say "though he slay me I will trust him", then your reward will be great in Heaven and all of this will not even have mattered. Remember, it is written, seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all these things will be added unto you.

With Love in Christ,

Gary

 

[whitedove38583]

So no one is allowed to ask an alms?

I seem to recall a certain someone who was laid at the gate of the temple to ask alms of the people. Peter didn't seem to see the need to censure him.

I'd suggest maybe a place for those who have need to lay in the gate of the temple so that they may be seen. There are only poor people in this world because there is sin. Anyone who wishes to just step over them and go into the temple to worship God can do so.

Whitedove, it warms my heart to hear that someone has reached out to you and fulfilled your needs, if only but for a moment. Remember this, my sister, God has chosen the poor of this world rich in faith to inherit the kingdom that he has promised to those that love him. Unfortunately in this sinful world in which we live there is so much scamming for money going on that the instant reaction many people have when they here about the destitute is "is this a scam?". Immediately the detectives start looking for the clues of a scam and begin to find them as they conjure up in their minds why you are really here and what you are really doing while not posting for cash. Do not blame them. We wrestle not with flesh and blood but with principalities and powers and rulers of darkness in high places.

There is a reason for your desperate situation. God is working in someones life if not many people over your situation. Randy had chosen to place his treasure in heaven rather than spend it here. I was provoked to think about all of the ungodliness that permeates our world daily and once again what we all have to look forward to if we are truly in Christ and will one day come and buy bread without money, and without the need for electricity because Jesus will be the only light necessary. If you lose your faith then Satan has won. If you can find the patience of Job to say "though he slay me I will trust him", then your reward will be great in Heaven and all of this will not even have mattered. Remember, it is written, seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all these things will be added unto you.

With Love in Christ,

Gary

thank you gary.. I know there are a lot of scammers out there as i have seen the local police that i volunteer my time with on several calls. it seems they tend to pick up around this time of year. i had a guy one time send me a fradulant check for over 3000 thinking i would be dumb enough to cash it and then wire like 2000 to him :shock:, but what he did not know is that i took a course at the local police department then joined their alumini association, of course actualy finding them is hard to do and next to impossiable to convict them.. i was just down on my luck and about to give up my faith because it seems things always happen to me and the prayer was answered. It was not answered from online here but i had posted a ad on a local sale network and simply had asked if anyone knew any place i could get some help at with my lights, and randy responded to that ad and lives close by, seen my ad, replied, then helped. i think God let him to my ad. he helped me out with 300 and i intend to pay it forward and help someone else out when i get the chance to do so

and to whoever it was that said the account deleted and quoted no asking for money, for the record i was not asking for money but for prayers, and my prayers were answered. Sorry if i offended you or anyone else.

 

[Peace Seeker]

.. I know there are a lot of scammers out there

Speaking of which, why don't you tell everyone about your incredible psychic powers and contacts with the spirit world?

 

[whitedove38583]

Speaking of which, why don't you tell everyone about your incredible psychic powers and contacts with the spirit world?

well thank you for breaking my heart peace seeker. thank you for letting me know i am not worth it. i did not know that posting a prayer on a christian site was so wrong for me to do,

i am not a scammer but with what you quoted you think i am just that. a scammer does things to hurt people, i dont do things to hurt people. a scammer only wants money and i offered to clean this rands house to return the amount he helped me with and he refussed it.

so because i have a gift that makes me a scammer? i cant help i see things before they happen. God gave me the ability to see things and because i do i am a scammer? thank you for clearing that up for me, you want to know why i don't tell people on a christian site about it? because i have been called a evil person, a scammer, a idiot, crazy a person deamon possed etc I can not help the things i see. God gave me this ability and i dont understand why. i wish i did but i dont understand it. do you have any idea what it is to walk in my shoes and see things happen that turn out to really happen later on? do you know what kind of a feeling that gives a person? unless you have walked in my shoes you can not even begin to know. all you can think about is well assume that type of person is a scammer or worse. i never asked for this ability and i dont know why i got it only God knows why.

yes, i get myself in these situations because i love to much. i give out too much care and love and am too selfish because i put others needs before my own. when my brothers house burnt, i gave him my mobile and stayed in this tiny camper/house. i had signed for him to get his lights on and up until this month he had paid it up to date but when he was laid off they cut his off then put what he owed which was still in my name his amount of 298.12 to my 200 dollar light bill making it way to high for me to pay. i went into debt for him 2 times 1 time for him to buy a wood stove, another for him to buy a tranny for his truck. he told me he would give it back to me when he got his tax refund, he never did give it back to me and i asked him for to borrow 250 and he could not even loan me that, so i was stuck with 2 title loans because i was selfish and helped my brother and his wife and 4 small kids out and that makes me a bad person? right? because i was selfish and put his family and his needs before mine.. yes i got myself into the messes i am in. i did it because i cared and the bible says to help without expecting anything in return which i have did over and over again. so thank you for clearing up just how dumb and stupid i been! i never knew that helping others would hurt so much, i never thought posting a prayer online would be so wrong.

so yea i am stupid, a scammer? right? from your quote you think i am.. i did not know i could be hated so much over 1 prayer :shock:i am worthless, thanks for clearing that up. thanks for letting me know just how much i am hated. I am begining to think this Randy was just a set up. he didn't really care about me, nobody does nor ever did because i am stupid and worthless because i accepted his help and in doing so caused me to be seen as a scammer. i will just go take the 87 dollars i bought in food out of my fridge and put it in a few bags and set it in his parking lot with a message saying i was branded a scammer on a christian forum and i don't need that presser or stress. thank you for letting me know to just do without and take it back to the guy. He really didnt care, God really dint care, no body cares for me. i was so stupid to think anyone did. i am not worth it. i am not worth anything.

dont worry, i wont be around anymore. sorry i upset you, sorry i offended everyone here. i thought they was love here, my mistake, no one will ever love me ever.

 

[halva]

Speaking of which, why don't you tell everyone about your incredible psychic powers and contacts with the spirit world?

I don't understand why you posted this - it's not kind and it's not answering prayer or encouraging in faith or giving glory to God - please can you explain what your motive was?

 

[Peace Seeker]

I don't understand why you posted this - it's not kind and it's not answering prayer or encouraging in faith or giving glory to God - please can you explain what your motive was?

I posted this because I am not convinced she is being honest with everyone when she represents herself as a Christian. She is a self-proclaimed psychic and is dabbling in spiritual things she shouldn't be.

And I would be happy to back this assertion up when I have the time to !!

I don't have time to right now, as it is a very busy day for me today, but I will come back to this tonight when I have more time.

All I did was ask her about this so she can be honest to everyone here, and to herself, about where her true faith lies so she can be delivered from her sins by Jesus and make Him the Lord of her life.

Instead of answering my question she has again gone into her "poor me, pity me, God hates me" routine.

 

[gdemoss]

I posted this because I am not convinced she is being honest with everyone when she represents herself as a Christian. She is a self-proclaimed psychic and is dabbling in spiritual things she shouldn't be.

And I would be happy to back this assertion up when I have the time to !!

I don't have time to right now, as it is a very busy day for me today, but I will come back to this tonight when I have more time.

All I did was ask her about this so she can be honest to everyone here, and to herself, about where her true faith lies so she can be delivered from her sins by Jesus and make Him the Lord of her life.

Instead of answering my question she has again gone into her "poor me, pity me, God hates me" routine.

God is love. Can you teach me exactly how you are loving this woman?

 

[halva]

I posted this because I am not convinced she is being honest with everyone when she represents herself as a Christian. She is a self-proclaimed psychic and is dabbling in spiritual things she shouldn't be.

And I would be happy to back this assertion up when I have the time to !!

I don't have time to right now, as it is a very busy day for me today, but I will come back to this tonight when I have more time.

All I did was ask her about this so she can be honest to everyone here, and to herself, about where her true faith lies so she can be delivered from her sins by Jesus and make Him the Lord of her life.

Instead of answering my question she has again gone into her "poor me, pity me, God hates me" routine.

Thanks for your reply - i realised after I had written that I had probably written too hastily - but I really didn't understand why you had said that and thought that it had been encouraging and a good thing that white dove had posted praise for God in the shoutbox because God had answered prayers for help.

 

[halva]

Peace Seeker - I have been thinking again about what has happened, and it still does not seem right that posted what you did.