heart breaking
My son had to go with his Dad yesterday. It turned out to be everything I dreaded. My poor son screamed and tried to pull away from his dad. Meanwhile he's trying to talk to me about bills. He quickly went through the mail I gave him and than gave me a bill (credit card) that he thinks is in my name only. He said he's not paying it until I release a hold on a joint stock account. I tried to tell him ok, don't pay it, your name is on the account also and your credit will also be ruined. He started tellin me he has no money. I told him you have income, I don't. At this point Christopher was really yanking and pulling. Even though we were keeping our voices down. I told him I think he senses the vibes lets stop talking. I kept trying to calm him down and tried to convince him he was going to have fun with daddy. He was so scared he cried and clung to me and begged to please not make him go. My heart just broke (what ever pieces were left). To hear my son so desperate and scared. I tried to walk him to the car and hug him, at this point his father was just trying to block him from me. I didn't resist much I figured Christopher is going through enough I just waived at him and told to not be scared. As soon as they left our son called me and kept crying to please pick him up. He cried like I've never heard him do so. He sobbed and screamed. I asked his dad how can he sit and watch his son be in so much torment. He obviously did not want to be with him. He kept saying "I don't want to stay with daddy, I don't like staying with daddy, I want to go with mommy. I like living with mommy". His dad told me to sign something saying he could have him other hours not covered on the order. I told him I considered his request blackmail. To hear our son in so much torment and still be thinking about himself is just unbelievable. Of course he said I was being proud and thinking about myself. Ok, I guess I could just go on and on. Please, please, please, keep my son in prayer. I keep pleading to God to please give his little heart and mind peace. To somehow comfort him and for him to know that mommy is not abandoning him.