First Welcome to Talk Jesus
@roguesoul,
Always glad to welcome even a wandering soul or should I say especially one who seems to have lost their way to this online community of Christian Believers!
Can only go by what you've shared so far, but gosh, just mentioning churches in a general sense could mean just about anything. Plus, as you will find out here for the most part, from those who communicate with you here. They'll tell you it's really not about the church, but the message that one finds told about Jesus Christ and the life you live in Him.
So, not knowing what churches you have gone to, or even if they were Christian based. It's difficult to tell that it's really Jesus Christ that you are seeking and not just some building/denomination that tells you what they believe, you should believe. If you don't have that truly life changing experience, where no matter what anyone else says. It won't change what you believe which for me is that Jesus Christ died on the Cross for my sins, and was raised on the third day. Because without that, for sure experience between you and Him when you surrender all occurs. It can be most difficult in this world today.
Darkness and depression are all around. The world isn't getting better and people seem to be getting colder to the touch. Everything in life seems to be going down, down, down......Yet, if you believe that Jesus Christ truly died for you, and you have become familiar with the Word of God. Than you have so many promises of a tomorrow and in many ways a today to hold on to! You know that it is these truths and not the illusions of grandeur that this world presents as being needed, are what you hold on to.
Truth be told. The Gospel hasn't changed since over 2,000 years ago when He died on the Cross and rose again. Neither has mankind. Oh, technology has increased, but man without Jesus Christ in their lives has stayed the same.
Oh, I could go on and on, but I believe I've given you an inkling of who you need in your life. If it is Him, and an increased understanding of what His Word has for you to grow in. You've come to the right place
There are many of my Brothers & Sisters in Christ Jesus here, who are more than willing to fellowship, grow in His Word, and pray with you.
With that being said. Be WELCOME TO TALK JESUS!
With the Love of Christ Jesus.
Nick
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