perhaps try to change that in your heart to, praying to the Lord for help or even, praying to the Lord.
The Lord doesn't want you to be desperate about believing Him. Believing brings peace with joy and if we find ourselves outside of that peace and joy we do well to start taking our thoughts captive and only allowing those which are of God to remain and have their home in our thinking.
I see you have started a prayer thread which is good, so i won;t turn this Introduction thread into a big discussion.
I did want to welcome you, though, with a few words of encouragement.
Hello Brothers and Sisters. I humbly ask for your assistance in prayer. I had took several medical test to rule out a certain illness. The initial results were good (with God's mercy). Next week ill be getting the result of my final test. Im praying that its also has a good result. A not so...