Seeing as all replies are made by we the living it is impossible to determine how we will react at the time of our departure.
Being beyond my threescore and ten going on five years I have endured a multitude of fears. Yes, including death. The things I witness here are my attempt to tell you that God will stand faithful to his word and his love for you and you are turning your back on his complete provision. Not knowing you I must assume that you are first of all saved, born again and also baptized in his wonderful Holy Spirit. If you lack these then you must seek both. Amen.
Fear has torment indeed. I walked into a hospital emergency ward where my beautiful 15 year old daughter lie dead on a gurney. This was shock not fear yet I feared living without her for the rest of my days. I'd never see her graduate, go to college or get to walk her down the aisle at her future marriage. But she was saved, baptized in the Holy Spirit and I know where she is and nothing evil can ever touch her again.
Real life and it's afflictions, trials, hardships, sorrows, disappointments, failures, sicknesses and deaths of loved ones is far greater than dying. As one said "dying is easy, it's living that's hard".
Brother John says there is no fear in love but perfect love casts out all fear. He that fears has not been perfected in love. Most of us have not been perfected in love. Fears of all kinds of things come against us and we throw ourselves at the feet of Jesus crying "Lord save me"!
Satan knows each of us very well. Not as well as our living savior and heavenly Father though, God be praised. But he knows where to hit you, what things you fear most and sends firey darts in those areas.
As brother Paul wrote, be sober, vigilant, aware, alert, on guard for our adversary goes about AS a roaring lion seeking WHOM he may devour. Once many years ago the Holy Spirit gave me short but insightful dream. In this, dream I was watching tall, blondish sage grass. Out from me twenty yards or so there was movement. Lying in that tall sage grass was a large male lion. He was facing me with his mouth partially open, eyes intensely staring at my every move. As cats habitually do, his tail was lazily switching back and forth. He was awaiting opportunity to attack. He will seize every opportunity to kill or to steal or to destroy.
Fear is a spirit and does not proceed from God for God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power and of love and a sound mind.
If we are saved and filled, baptized with the Holy Spirit, then we have the anointing we need to fend off fears. Of course, we must continually stay built up by prayer in the spirit, prayer with the understanding, praise, worship and study of the Scriptures.
We will then have the anointing, the faith to shake off fear just as Paul shook the viper that struck him back into the fire.
Sudden fear is one of the adversary's tools that is used quite often as stated in the word:
Proverbs 3:25 KJVS
Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh.
When I was first saved, over forty years ago, I knew nothing of God. Jesus came for me outside of any church or denomination. No man came, only the Holy Spirit. He made me into a new creation and I had to read the Bible to find out what had happened to me. Then Jesus later baptized me in the Holy Spirit and again, like those in Thessonolica, had to search the Bible to see what had happened to me.
Acts 17:11 KJVS
These were more noble than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness of mind, and searched the scriptures daily, whether those things were so.
I had been having terrible chest pains. I didn't know that the adversary, I'll limit the use of his name here, was the one speaking to the great fears that came upon me in the wee hours of the morning. My heart would throb and ache as I lay in bed while fearing death. Heart pains at 3am can be scary. Very scary.
But at a church service one night a prophet asked two men who had been having heart trouble to come forward for healing. Me and an older friend came forward and were anointed and prayed for. Pains still came the next day as I climbed stairs at work. I ran up those stairs telling the liar that I was healed by the stripes of Jesus and was covered with his blood and his anointing and if he could get through that he had my permission to kill me. He did not take the offer. Faith chooses God's words over the liar's lies.
That was over 40 years, ago and I'm still alive. There have been many assaults in that time but faith must stand strong. Who do you believe?
I went to the emergency room Christmas eve at five am: not being able to breathe well. I was admitted after CT scans detected stuff in my lungs which I believe is pneumonia. One doctor said it was cancer, lymphoma and seem surprised watching my face when I didn't break into tears. It was if she hoped for a breakdown. But I had PERFECT PEACE. I went home Christmas day afternoon. This was a faith fight as it's frightening when you can't breathe and your breaths sound raspy and bubbly.
There have been other attacks since then but fighting the good fight of faith I fix my eyes on Jesus and his eternal word.
You must not yield to a spirit of fear. If you do it can come to rule over you. Your life won't be abundant at all. You will be robbed.
Though you have been afflicted you must not allow fear to become a master.
You must, as our old time pastor urged us, "RUN TOWARD THE ROAR"!
I was 33 when Jesus came for me. God said he wanted Jesus to begin living in me at the same age his life was sacrificed for all of ours.
I was fearful of many many things after being born again and had no church, no teacher to help me. I was very afraid of the dark as a child and as a man and had panic (spirit of fear in action) attacks. My family wasn't Christian so no help came from them. Some other family members delved into familiar spirits and that cursed thing was visited upon me. They were ignorant of spiritual things. God's people perish for lack of knowlege.
One night while praying outside, the Holy Spirit said "river bottom" as we live on a small mountain above a stream. I was horrified at the notion but in obedience began to walk the descending trail down to the dark forested River bottom.
As I walked I could "feel", discern, fear coming against me from a certain direction like a spiritual wind. As it did I would walk toward it rebuking fear in Jesus name. Every devil shudders at the mention of JESUS!
Every time I discerned the wind of fear I would walk directly toward it using Jesus name, blood and commanding it to BE gone. I stood there under those tall dark trees until no fears came from any direction. I walked back up the ridge to a place 100 feet above the river and looked out over the mountains. As I did the Lord spoke "son all of this is mine and it's all yours and you have nothing to fear".
You must not allow fear to dominate you but let the balm of his perfect love permeate every part of your being. Fear will not have a place to attach itself if you remain with your eyes fixed on him. The word, the blood, the cross, the anointing of the Holy Spirit will flush the false lion from the tall grass and send him away.
I pray you do what is required to not allow your life to be lived in fear which is not God's will for you. Amen
And I believe that I also have the spirit of God within me.