Hi all,
I have been away for quite a while, but I am back to give anyone that might be interested an update to my original post on blasphemous thoughts, and to try and comfort some of the people that I see here and elsewhere that are struggling with this.
It has been approximately 15 months since the thoughts first started with me, and I have learned a lot of things along the way. First and foremost, we have no idea how much God loves us, how much He longs to save us, to forgive us, to heal us, to show us His plenteous mercy, and to hold us tightly in His arms and never let us go like we're the most precious things in the universe to Him.
All of that is true.
I eventually learned through this trial I was and to some extent are still in, that we give the devil far too much attention and ascribe far too much power to him, when all that should be given to The Captain of the Hosts, the Almighty Jesus Christ. He is the One who, with just the brightness of His coming alone, can and will destroy His enemies. Not to mention, He has already defeated the devil at the cross and we have full victory in Him.
The thoughts are very tortuous to us, and cause us much anxiety, distress and fear, so I am not meaning to minimize what people suffering with blasphemous thoughts are going through. Because I have been there, and I wish it upon no one, and I ache for the people that are presently going though what I went through. BUT, having said that, it is not a gloomy story, because as the bible says in 1 John 5:4
4 For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith.
So we, by faith, have victory over the world, including the devil. He attacks our minds, but cannot touch our souls. Our bodies are just temporary tents for the real us, and that is all the enemy is allowed to touch. So we by faith trust in our Trustworthy Lord to deliver us from all that seek to harm us. And it is no the strongest faith when it is easiest to have faith, but when it is hardest to. So, as the Apostle Paul said, we glory in tribulations, and I thank God that He has given me this great trial, one which He has promised to not only see me through, but to bless me for it, by my keeping faith in Him even when it may seem hopeless to do so.
The blasphemous thoughts that attack God's people are a trick of the devil into trying to make us think there is something can separate us from the Lord, when of course, there is nothing that can. My advise to all my fellow brothers and sisters that are suffering with this affliction, is to always cry out to the Lord. No matter how condemned you feel, the Lord is mighty to save and
delights in mercy. NO EXCEPTIONS. As others have stated, all who call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved, and He will in no wise cast anyone out that comes to Him. PERIOD. There are no exceptions; call upon Him and say, "I feel condemned Lord, but I trust in you and call upon your mercy". And He will give it you, because that is His character to do so.
Not to mention, He doesn't hold us accountable for unwanted thoughts in the first place! So take heart, brethren! If you are suffering attacks of satan, you are suffering on account of your being Christ's child. And what did Jesus say we should do when we are reviled and mistreated and persecuted on account of Him?
REJOICE !! Rejoice that God has allotted us the privilege to suffer for His sake. Great is your reward for keeping the faith no matter what.
If you're feeling that your heart is condemning you :
[h=3]1 John 3:20
For if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and knows all things.[/h]We don't trust our thoughts or feelings, we must simply trust God. He knows all things. Do you love Him? He knows that. I can't count how many times I told God early on in my struggle that I don't mean the thoughts and I love Him. Like He didn't know that, like He would go, "oh, thanks for that info". Because at the start I was gripped by fear and torment, which is the enemy's goal, but by God's grace (which is sufficient for us) I starting leaning on God's perfect love which casts out all fear.
1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath
torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
It took me a long time to get to where I am now, from where I was !!! Blasphemous thoughts intruding your mind against your will is a startling and horrible thing to go through, so it's easy to succumb to the fear and all that. But the more we trust God, the more we find deliverance. The thoughts have not come to my mind, except very sparsely, for many months now. I did nothing to effect this, it was all Jesus. I keep my eyes on Him the best I can when the waves of the storm are all but drowning me, and He makes sure that the worst they can do is spook me a bit, but they cannot harm me.
Maybe I am rambling on too much, but I hope someone reading this understands what I am getting at.
miraclemandi, and anyone who wants to can pm me. We fight with spiritual weapons, and the war sometimes gets nasty, but God is our stronghold, our fortress, our deliverer, our high tower and our Rock that cannot be moved. Hallelujah! Praise the Lord Most High!
So just to wrap this up, always look to and at Jesus, not at the devil and his bow and little flaming arrows. There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. So run to your Abba Father and He will shelter you and protect you like nobody's business. He did for me, and who am I compared to any of my brothers and sisters here? On last piece of scripture that I like to think of as a spiritual warfare battle verse :
Hebrews 4:14-16 14Seeing then that
we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens,
Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession. 15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was
in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. 16Let us therefore
come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
If you desire forgiveness, then forgiveness is yours. Accept forgiveness for your sins if you think you have sinned. To do otherwise would be an affront to the limitless grace and mercy of God.
What a foul trick of the devil, to get us to believe that we are "too bad" for God! The devil has no power over us to make us damned. And he desperately wants to keep that fact from us. I will say one more time, call unto the Lord and He will come running to you. Your trial might not end as quickly as you'd like, but you have His promise that He will not let it overcome you. Jesus does not lie, so take Him at His word! God bless and keep all of you, I hope this has helped.
