Rest in Jesus, Sister 2005
Thank you very much for letting me know what is going on with you about your dream. It is brave of you to openly share these things. You have accepted Jesus as your Savior, so stay strong in knowing you have salvation. We are new creations in Him.
Even long time Christians have to call upon GOD to help get rid of the tougher areas that remain from the "old man." It can seem bigger than you, but nothing is bigger than the power of Jesus' love. Our Lord wants you to have His peace and rest in Him. God does not show you anything except what He wants to work out for your good. (Philippians 1:6)
The fear is a tactic of the devil. Don't dwell on worries about evil. Our Lord is at work to grow you in Christ. It may feel very difficult, but be certain He is holding you to Him. Keep the name of Jesus in your mind, and think of the perfect grace and beautiful blessings of God. The battle is the Lord's and He will make you victorious.
(1 Corinthians 15:57)
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Philippians 4:8
...whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.
Keeping you in prayer~
To Christ