My life seems to be a mess

[Stylez4Christ]

Well, right now I am going though allot of things because I know that I am in a big under attack by Satan, a some small depression, failing just by sinning . But as for right now typing why’ll tears running down from my eyes, because its been to much for me for the past year since day one that I’ve start becoming a Christian even some parts of my past. I can’t stand how I look and something’s that I do also, sometimes I look at myself in the merrier and I see myself not too normal such as some sort of acne and been having it for 6 or 7 years now and cant stand having it and growing hair out of my neck which is very strange for me to look at, I had to pluck them out because I don‘t think it normal but it is not controllable , I can’t stand it…

I have to hide allot of myself, I guest I don’t like how I look but I just hate that feeling and it is really distract me into allot of things even with my relationship with God. I been afraid that people treat me different in there attitude even that it dose happen but in the future, I guest I cant fit in with them. But I still look different because of my ears because I born with a defect and plus I’m deaf to, I do sometimes feel like in church and in school like if I am neglected by friend and people who I spent time with even there jokes or if they making fun of me sometimes in some of other days. I am still in tears because of my pain even in my past. I be feeling that people in my church might look at me as if I am doing good even If I am but not really that good that I may smile and laugh but I really never cried in church to show other or telling anyone about what I go through and I never told my pastor about my problems before that I go through hard times. The only time I cry in pain is when no one is at home or I cry myself to bed, even people are home at that point but that when I have my time by myself when no one isb around, I know it dose sound sad but it is because I don‘t really feel comfortable to cry front of people. I hate some of the things in my life that I am in right now, and I am close to being 18 on the 18th of this mouth but all the years I go through and also going through in my family even as a person who is the only one who is Christian. Whatever I go through now I might of kill myself to committed a suicide if I was never accept Christ into my life and no way I am not going to no hell, and right now I don’t think I feel if I am ready because sometimes I can’t tell if I am sinning or not and going through the confusions. There more about me but I guest this is enough but I am sorry that this is very negative but I really do need help from you and prayer…:boy_hug:

 

[mounty]

Hunny

I have you in my prayers and i will keep you there,

reguarding some of things you have mentioned ,if you would like to talk in more detail please free to pm me,

Keep your eyes set firmly on Jesus ,i understand how hard it is as trust me i am well known for struggling ,Im here if you need me hunny

God Bless and Much Love xxxxxxxx

 

[stephen]

Hey Stylez

Whats all this about? You don't like the look of yourself? I have just taken a look at your profile picture and you look Great. An attractive young man.

I hear what you say about your deafness Stylez, and I realise that this can make you feel like not wanting to go out....and feeling downhearted. But I am sure that you are a wonderful young man. And I am also sure that your church appreciates you, and loves you. Your Pastor loves you....remember that.

Everyone gets downhearted some days. I will be praying for you.

God Bless You........Amen

 

[rizen1]

Usted es muy hermoso !!

Brother, you are a child of God, I find you very attractive, a true creation of God, just beautiful inside out.

When ever you get those thoughts, look up to your creator.
Dont ever let your battles define who you are, you are royalty.


Father I praise you for my brother in Christ, I thank you for his life and purpose. Remove the negativity and fill him with your Holy presence.
Fill his heart with praise. Help him in everything he face , give him victory so he can walk in freedom.

I thank you, for all you're doing, let your will be done.
Amen.

 

[pixie]

Stylez

Hey there. I am praying for you right now. It sure is tough when the evil one attacks. The prayers here we pray at TalkJesus go right up to Yawheh and He answers them through Lord Jesus Christ. You are always so nice stylez, the Lord will look after your concerns.
Dear Jesus my Brother and Friend, please protect styles from satan an lift all of of depression from him. Please help him to care for himself and feel good about the way he looks. Please Jesus shine down Your Glory on Stylez and help him continue his journey to Your Father's Kingdom.
Hope you feel better soon. Loveixie:girl_hug::butterfly

 

[4Given]

I'll be praying for you bro,God will help you through anything life throws at you.Be strong you have Jesus on your side!!God Bless

 

[Stylez4Christ]

Well today I was doing okay. There was a point today at church where I was a bit neglected and I never felt so as bad for my own self at church before, enough for me to really cry my eyes out but I hold it really hard so I don’t show it to no one, the reason for this is because my pastor was on the pulpit and telling everyone to give each other a hug say something about love and I’ve seem like the only that didn’t had that hug and no love, I felt hurt by it and wanted to walk out of church which I never did before but I was really hurts by it but its worsen when you hold it. I just don’t know right now. I only had two hugs end of service and being in the altar took some hurts off of me…

 

[stephen]

Well today I was doing okay. There was a point today at church where I was a bit neglected and I never felt so as bad for my own self at church before, enough for me to really cry my eyes out but I hold it really hard so I don’t show it to no one, the reason for this is because my pastor was on the pulpit and telling everyone to give each other a hug say something about love and I’ve seem like the only that didn’t had that hug and no love, I felt hurt by it and wanted to walk out of church which I never did before but I was really hurts by it but its worsen when you hold it. I just don’t know right now. I only had two hugs end of service and being in the altar took some hurts off of me…

I too would feel like walking out of church if such happened to me. But why did this happen?

You need to share this with the Pastor Stylez

God Bless

 

[Stylez4Christ]

I too would feel like walking out of church if such happened to me. But why did this happen?

You need to share this with the Pastor Stylez

God Bless

Well, I am kind of shy to tell my Pastor about that but he did came up to me and pat on my head wheen service was over and when I was leaving he'd said, "I'll see you around" I guest he said , but that is one way he show me love and that little 4 year old girl gave me a hug and that teenage girl and that did help it to uplifted me up a little pit more and plus I was one of the 3 people in the altar during middle of service that they be singing happy birthday, but kind of don‘t really think they do it on me more because I did not had that most of people smiling at me as my pastor armor bear had or or what ever that’s call, I think the little girl also, it was like I did not had that much support from peoplle even they sing happy birthday together. My birthday is this Thursday and I am turning 18

I seen a girl cry and she had a hug but I know I must be worse because I know her for one year now and it hurts more on the inside because I wanted that hug because that Saturday, man me having a nervous breakdown was wrong because I cry over everything of school, church, friend, sin, home, myself and how I look, but what really made me cry is that I would really kill myself if I never knew Jesus and its good that I am typing and all and not everybody made it to be 18 years old and some suffers depression to committed a suicide. But thankfully I am much more better today then it is yesterday or the day before but I believed somethings got to me today...

 

[rizen1]

Here's a big hug:girl_hug: filled with love.

Psalm 107:19-20
You were in serious trouble, but you prayed to the Lord, and He rescued you. By the power of His word, He healed you and saved you from destruction. You should praise the Lord for his love and for the wonderful things he does for all of us.

Nahum 1:7
The Lord is good. He protects those who trust Him in times of trouble.

Psalm 138:7
I am surrounded by trouble, but you protect me against my angry enemies. With your own powerful arm you keep me safe.

Psalm 46:1
God is our mighty fortress, always ready to help in times of trouble

Job 5:19
God will protect you from harm, no matter how often trouble may strike.

John 14:27
I give you peace, the kind of peace that only I can give. It isn't like the peace that this world can give. So don't be worried or be afraid.

 

[ladylovesJesus]

Father I pray that You would bring deliverance to stylez from the past and heal the memories of the past too. I pray that he would know the peace that passes all undestanding and keep his eyes on You. I pray that You would surround him with Your love in Jesus' name amen.