Lead a very bad life, broke commandments and been very selfish. I’m so ashamed of myself. I have a physical illness and things keep happening to stop me from getting a diagnosis. I had a vision 8 months ago, it was apparently coming from god saying that I would get an illness and nobody would feel or see it but me and it’s happened. I am tormented, I’m praying to God and Jesus every day but I’m still experiencing evil happenings such as seeing and hearing the number of the beast everywhere I go. Every time I ask god I’m my thoughts a question I get the answer where I look wether it be a car reg e.g YE5, a shop or road name etc. The question I ask him is “am I going to hell”? I want to accept Jesus as my saviour and love god but feel I’ve done to much for him to listen and I’ve angered him by going to doctors and hospital appointments to get treatment. Every time I’ve been to my appointments the number of the beast have come up. I feel like god doesn’t want me to get medical treatment and trust in him for healing. I’ve been diagnosed with 3 physical things that all lead to an underlying condition but can’t seem to get the answers due to stumbling blocks stopping me from getting the right diagnosis. There have been far too many coincidences for me not to be tormented. I’ve read duetronomy 28 and feel like I’m cursed. I’m trying my best to please god and Jesus but feel I’m too late. I want god and Jesus’ forgiveness but I can’t stop thinking I’ve crossed the line. I used get horrible thoughts about Jesus sometimes and hate myself for it. The thoughts weren’t coming from me. I want to be forgiven and trying my best to repent. I’ve prayed to god so many times, I feel so lost and tortured. I feel that I shouldn’t seek medical advice because it’s lack of faith in god and because I keep trying to get the right medical care. I went to doctors earlier and when I got in my car the temp was 6 degrees with 66 miles left for fuel. My daughter came back with her homework and told me got 666 and writing a paper on the pit (coalmining). These are just 2 examples of things I’m coming across multiple times a day. I feel I’m been tortured I don’t want This, I want to be forgiven. I love god and Jesus and hate myself for what sins I’ve committed in my life. I started going back to church a few months ago after this vision and nothing seems to be helping x I fear the lord and am trying to change. I’m sick of failing him x please help x
Jesus came into the world to save sinners from their sins as well as give them eternal life so do feel free to call on Him to be saved. Mercy is NOT getting what we deserved whereas grace is GETTING what we do not deserve and both are found in the hope we have in Jesus Christ.
1 Timothy 1:14 And the grace of our Lord was exceeding abundant with faith and love which is in Christ Jesus. 15 This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief. 16 Howbeit for this cause I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might shew forth all longsuffering, for a pattern to them which should hereafter believe on him to life everlasting.
Romans 10:8 But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart: that is, the word of faith, which we preach; 9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 11 For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. 12 For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. 13 For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
When you are saved, Jesus Christ will live in you and He will be greater than anything in the world that He will either stop those visions or help you live with them by reminding you that you are His forever.
1 John 3:3 And every man that hath this hope in him purifieth himself, even as he is pure. ....8 He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil.
Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. 13 Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do. 14 Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession. 15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Mark 9:21 And he asked his father, How long is it ago since this came unto him? And he said, Of a child. 22 And ofttimes it hath cast him into the fire, and into the waters, to destroy him: but if thou canst do any thing, have compassion on us, and help us. 23 Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth. 24 And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief. 25 When Jesus saw that the people came running together, he rebuked the foul spirit, saying unto him, Thou dumb and deaf spirit, I charge thee, come out of him, and enter no more into him. 26 And the spirit cried, and rent him sore, and came out of him: and he was as one dead; insomuch that many said, He is dead. 27 But Jesus took him by the hand, and lifted him up; and he arose.
1 Peter 5:6 Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: 7 Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. 8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: 9 Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. 10 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you. 11 To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.
1 Corinthians 6:19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? 20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.
2 Corinthians 13:5 Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?
1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
2 Timothy 4:18 And the Lord shall deliver me from every evil work, and will preserve me unto his heavenly kingdom: to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
Incidentally, the mark of the beast is the sole means by which sinners will be forced to have in their hands or in their foreheads in order buy and sell by in the coming new world order which will take place after the pre great trib rapture. Europe is using a biochip right now for buying and selling BUT it is not the only means to buy and sell by. It is when it becomes the only way any one can survive to buy & sell by is when it becomes the actual mark of the beast where the consequence for taking that mark is the lake of fire.
So you do not have anything to worry about regarding the mark of the beast. Just believe in the Lord Jesus Christ & that God has raised Him from the dead, and you are saved as promised, Now that you have been reconciled with God thru Jesus Christ, YOU can live that reconciled relationship with God thru Jesus Christ by trusting Him as in you & with you always as your Friend and Good Shepherd to help you to abide in Him and to walk with Him forever.
