Thank you for your prayers.
Its unfortunate to say this, but at this time I am proceeding with the divorce that she filed back in August for several reasons that I will not disclose here. However, I feel that the Lord has confirmed to me this is the right move and that He will provide a godly wife in the future for me. My responsibility is to truly trust in Him and surrender everything to Him including my wife, my marriage, my life, my desires, my will, everything. I trust that whomever the Lord has in store for me in the future, that she will actually be a help-meet for me who actually partakes in this Talk Jesus ministry. A woman who desires to minister to others, with me. Unfortunately my wife has never partook in this ministry.
I see the whole picture now from the past 2 years and I clearly see what is wrong. I can only fix what's wrong with me, not my wife. That is not my job. However, everyone has a free will to choose to change or not. For me, this marriage is broken and is not working out. A marriage cannot survive when both spouses do not choose to humble themselves before the Lord and work on themselves internally instead of trying to change the other spouse. Both have to work together to make the marriage work. Marriage is a two way street.
His will be done. Life goes on.