Jonah2005bt
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Some People Say I Had No Reason To Runaway From Home
You see, I was a constant runaway when I was a teenager.
And I wasn't your average runaway child, for some people would say that I had no reason to runaway from home.
My stepmother wasn't the best, but still it's not like she beat me up. There were times that she would use mental abuse on me that may have caused me embarrassment & to feel shame.
The only time she used any physical abuse on me was when she took her cane & beaten me over the head with it, because she didn't want to except the true fact that I at 13 years old was raped by her 26 year old son.
But that was the one & only time that she did that.
What hurt me the most was the fact that my dad did nothing about it. This is how I became a {confused} runaway teenager.
Where is the love that a family is supposed to have, where is the bond that is to keep us close at heart, causing us to protect one another.
Now I said earlier, "some people would say that I had no reason to runaway from home."
Ah, but I did!
But I must admit, today looking back at all my troubles & comparing them to others I really didn't have any reason to run away.
MEANING - It was only one particular day when she had beat me over the head with her cane, I wasn't physically abused constantly like some children are to day & I was not being sexually abused in any way, except for that one day that I was raped by my stepbrother, but many children ARE CONSTANTLY ABUSED that way.
Many times my pride was hurt, so I felt like I had to get away - but, I did not have to runaway. If I was smart I would have realized that regardless of the imperfectness of my family - I still had a home that was SAFE & more perfect then many others out there who suffered a lot worse.
What I saw as a runaway, was the dark side of life, there was no happiness there, no joy of any kind. All I saw was selfish & abusive people. People that only cared about their own personal needs & only cared about you, if you do what would please them {their sinful & sometimes violent ways}, & if you did as they say. And most of the time it was for disgusting things, selling drugs, prostitution & ex...
IT WAS VERY SCARY OUT THERE!
I've seen young teenage children hooked on drugs such as heroin, mescaline & alcohol & who knows what else. Pimps that would run these children's little lives, only to mess their minds up more. Just think if this was happening to one of your children. How sad & critical this matter is. The saddest part of this cold awakening is the fact that though {to some people}these children may have been old enough to know better - the fact still remains that some of them were still; gullible & still very immature & taken advantage of at a very young age - the ages of 13 -16. Grant you, yes some children have a smarter out look on life, but then again some children have a better home, with better families then others. And then there are still some that may have suffered abusiveness many times at home & still remained at home. Just because one child is a little bit more or a lot more smarter than the other does not give us the right to condemn them because one child made a grave or foolish mistake. Instead of condemning them we should be reaching out to them.
I'm not just relating to the adults, but also to all you teenagers who think that they're so smart, that you wouldn't do such things.
Reach out to those you think are so stupid, Be a friend.
You don't have to do the things they do to be a friend. Just someone with kind words - someone they can look to, someone they can relate to or with.
Don't call them names to their face or behind their backs - in case they may over hear you & think of your words as lies.
And please, don't be sarcastic when you do reach out to them. Don't blame them harshly for their falses, for everyone makes their own foolish mistakes.
It was horrifying what I saw when I was a runaway. If anyone out there thinks or even knows that they're a lot smarter then they that are suffer
Then pleases put your intelligence to the test, help them to see the light. You might save a life!
Though it might seem as though they don't want you to, believe me way down deep inside of themselves, they do want you to share with them what you already know, most important they need you, too.
And just think; You'll be doing The Almighty God's WILL, too !
For The Almighty God was there for me, & I am alive to tell about it. Though my runaway life was nothing to brag about. I still have a lot to say about it, in HOPE in convincing all of you runaways or at least some of you out there, that no matter how bad things may be, or just seem to be at home, there is always a better way then running away.
And if it's violence that you are running away from, always seek prayer first, then go to the police, report what going on, they should be able to help you.
That's what thet're there for! Then have them take you to someone you know that won't hurt you; your grandmother or granddad, aunt or uncle.
Take some time with yourself - think hard - life out side can be crueler than you could ever imagine. Talk to someone you feel you can trust - if you feel their is no-one, then seek counseling, everything you tell them will be put down on record & confidential - {Top Secret !}. Running away will just add on to your nightmares.
And the most important thing to do is PRAY. I have witnessed that this really does work & definitely does work. HIS ways are to LOVE & to FORGIVE
those who want to be loved & forgiven. HIS ways are to protect us providing we show HIM we love HIM back, by following HIS ways, by listening to HIS Son & our Savior, Jesus Christ.
I know that showing you the scriptures isn't enough for you to except what I am saying. But I will tell you this much, from my own experiences in worshipping HIM, HE has made my life more happier. And any of the problems that may occur in my life now, HE has at least made then bearable.
I do not suffer from fear or hate anymore like I used to. There is more then hope in my heart now. There is life. HE must have forgiven me, for HE is still within my heart & constantly watching over me today. And The Almighty God & Jesus Christ will forgive you & help you,too.
PS.. To those who do not know for sure how to Pray, then start your prayers off like this;
Almighty God - Our Father who art in Heaven hallowed be thy name; in Christ Jesus name I pray; {The add your own personal words to the prayer}
Ending in the name Christ Jesus with just a simple Amen. Remember too, to always give HIM thanks for the good things in life first.
This shows HIM that not only are you thankfull, but it shows gratitude.
You see, I was a constant runaway when I was a teenager.
And I wasn't your average runaway child, for some people would say that I had no reason to runaway from home.
My stepmother wasn't the best, but still it's not like she beat me up. There were times that she would use mental abuse on me that may have caused me embarrassment & to feel shame.
The only time she used any physical abuse on me was when she took her cane & beaten me over the head with it, because she didn't want to except the true fact that I at 13 years old was raped by her 26 year old son.
But that was the one & only time that she did that.
What hurt me the most was the fact that my dad did nothing about it. This is how I became a {confused} runaway teenager.
Where is the love that a family is supposed to have, where is the bond that is to keep us close at heart, causing us to protect one another.
Now I said earlier, "some people would say that I had no reason to runaway from home."
Ah, but I did!
But I must admit, today looking back at all my troubles & comparing them to others I really didn't have any reason to run away.
MEANING - It was only one particular day when she had beat me over the head with her cane, I wasn't physically abused constantly like some children are to day & I was not being sexually abused in any way, except for that one day that I was raped by my stepbrother, but many children ARE CONSTANTLY ABUSED that way.
Many times my pride was hurt, so I felt like I had to get away - but, I did not have to runaway. If I was smart I would have realized that regardless of the imperfectness of my family - I still had a home that was SAFE & more perfect then many others out there who suffered a lot worse.
What I saw as a runaway, was the dark side of life, there was no happiness there, no joy of any kind. All I saw was selfish & abusive people. People that only cared about their own personal needs & only cared about you, if you do what would please them {their sinful & sometimes violent ways}, & if you did as they say. And most of the time it was for disgusting things, selling drugs, prostitution & ex...
IT WAS VERY SCARY OUT THERE!
I've seen young teenage children hooked on drugs such as heroin, mescaline & alcohol & who knows what else. Pimps that would run these children's little lives, only to mess their minds up more. Just think if this was happening to one of your children. How sad & critical this matter is. The saddest part of this cold awakening is the fact that though {to some people}these children may have been old enough to know better - the fact still remains that some of them were still; gullible & still very immature & taken advantage of at a very young age - the ages of 13 -16. Grant you, yes some children have a smarter out look on life, but then again some children have a better home, with better families then others. And then there are still some that may have suffered abusiveness many times at home & still remained at home. Just because one child is a little bit more or a lot more smarter than the other does not give us the right to condemn them because one child made a grave or foolish mistake. Instead of condemning them we should be reaching out to them.
I'm not just relating to the adults, but also to all you teenagers who think that they're so smart, that you wouldn't do such things.
Reach out to those you think are so stupid, Be a friend.
You don't have to do the things they do to be a friend. Just someone with kind words - someone they can look to, someone they can relate to or with.
Don't call them names to their face or behind their backs - in case they may over hear you & think of your words as lies.
And please, don't be sarcastic when you do reach out to them. Don't blame them harshly for their falses, for everyone makes their own foolish mistakes.
It was horrifying what I saw when I was a runaway. If anyone out there thinks or even knows that they're a lot smarter then they that are suffer
Then pleases put your intelligence to the test, help them to see the light. You might save a life!
Though it might seem as though they don't want you to, believe me way down deep inside of themselves, they do want you to share with them what you already know, most important they need you, too.
And just think; You'll be doing The Almighty God's WILL, too !
For The Almighty God was there for me, & I am alive to tell about it. Though my runaway life was nothing to brag about. I still have a lot to say about it, in HOPE in convincing all of you runaways or at least some of you out there, that no matter how bad things may be, or just seem to be at home, there is always a better way then running away.
And if it's violence that you are running away from, always seek prayer first, then go to the police, report what going on, they should be able to help you.
That's what thet're there for! Then have them take you to someone you know that won't hurt you; your grandmother or granddad, aunt or uncle.
Take some time with yourself - think hard - life out side can be crueler than you could ever imagine. Talk to someone you feel you can trust - if you feel their is no-one, then seek counseling, everything you tell them will be put down on record & confidential - {Top Secret !}. Running away will just add on to your nightmares.
And the most important thing to do is PRAY. I have witnessed that this really does work & definitely does work. HIS ways are to LOVE & to FORGIVE
those who want to be loved & forgiven. HIS ways are to protect us providing we show HIM we love HIM back, by following HIS ways, by listening to HIS Son & our Savior, Jesus Christ.
I know that showing you the scriptures isn't enough for you to except what I am saying. But I will tell you this much, from my own experiences in worshipping HIM, HE has made my life more happier. And any of the problems that may occur in my life now, HE has at least made then bearable.
I do not suffer from fear or hate anymore like I used to. There is more then hope in my heart now. There is life. HE must have forgiven me, for HE is still within my heart & constantly watching over me today. And The Almighty God & Jesus Christ will forgive you & help you,too.
PS.. To those who do not know for sure how to Pray, then start your prayers off like this;
Almighty God - Our Father who art in Heaven hallowed be thy name; in Christ Jesus name I pray; {The add your own personal words to the prayer}
Ending in the name Christ Jesus with just a simple Amen. Remember too, to always give HIM thanks for the good things in life first.
This shows HIM that not only are you thankfull, but it shows gratitude.
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