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One of these days...
Apparently there seems to be some issues between the moderators against moderators, members against members and mods against members, vice versa. All glory to GOD in Jesus Christ for this site in the first place.
I have been stressing out lately trying to solve the issues. I'm dealing with thick headed prideful people who refuse to humble themsleves, causing more division, gossip, building up their own pride and their own personal "will", or policy (rules) on the forum.
My business has lost about 10% of the client base during my recent move over to a new company/partner and this is adding more stress. I need to buy a laptop which is costing me nearly $4k and adding more stress. Why do I need this $4k laptop? For one thing, IBM is sky high expensive, technology is not cheap when you need the right stuff and security is 100% vital to me. I have to travel to Iowa GOD knows when but sometime the next two weeks to meet the new partners (company) I'm dealing with. Operating my business seconds and minutes and hours in between my free time (the time being away from the computer and doing other things such as the business meeting itself). I have to (out of responsibility, love and jealousy) watch over my site here - the beautiful gift from GOD - Talk Jesus.
All these things pile up on top of each other like joyful thrash (mix of bad and good). You understand? You understand the frustration when those (here on the site) gossip about you, disrespect you and other members, disrespect GOD's commandments first and firemost most importantly? Shame and more shame.
My typical day (perhaps this will explain to you the necessity and desperation of my prayer request)
- business work
- Talk Jesus moderation
- respond to complaints from customers
- respond to fuss between members on Talk Jesus
- loss of customers
- loss of members (aka brother or sister in Christ) because of X and X reasons
- more of the above, mixed and mashed together like armageddon in a rubber room
- truth revealed because I dug it out and found lies and gossip between members
- responding to patheticlly moronic customers who want their red carpet laid down for them thinking that is what they pay monthly fee for my services rendered to them
- slapping the devil constantly in Jesus' name to remind him he can eat fire off my rear-end (anger yes)
- driving to the gym at about 100mph to get there 20miles fast, adrenalized like a monster thanks to the useless nonsense I dealt with just before I left my home office
- fighting with my mind and the never ending sickening thoughts of violance, destruction, hate, and repetitions of these things. Thoughts so real I almost forget they never happened, and that I only thought of them, by my flesh's default nature.
- friends who are lazy, careless, selfish, judgmental, disgraceful, hateful, etc.
- more of the above mixed and mashed
- more of the above mixed and mashed
- more of the above mixed and mashed
Do you want to gossip about me or anyone else more on my property who GOD sent this gift to, to share with you?
Do you want to complain more every day because so and so shared a view you did not like?
Do you want to "bow out" because you couldn't resolve a simple issue?
Do you want to lash out in live chat in front of others whom you do not know if they are saved yet and get this sad impression from so called Christians?
Do you want to lie to me and force me to ban you and make myself known to be accused of being the "ban" and prideful - all because I did was right to filter out the gibberish from the forum?
How I am healthy is only by the One who made me in the first place. How I have not yet been thrown behind bars for losing my sanity on someone(s) by now is beyond me again. My face is stressed out, lines, frowned, droopy eyes 24/7. It has been literally tattooed onto me. People look at me like I am ready to demolish them on the spot for no apparent reason. That's the kind of look I have believe it or not. Stress.
I've gone about 75% deaf, this adds more stress. Since about 20 years ago the same. I get looks for the way I talk (mumble) and more stress. More temptations to destruct people and fleshfully find my way out for good. After all, did you expect something else, a different resolution to a man's problem who is 25yrs old, stressed out left and right, weightlifter on x and x thermogenics that got me hyper? Did you expect me to be perfectly humble unto GOD all the time when I'm sucker punched by the above hellhole that should not be - but is by such sad naive fools who cannot be peaceful with each other?
Just maybe you will drop your selfish "crap" and get on with Christ in His expected manner. Can you do this for GOD?
Thank you for your prayers.
Apparently there seems to be some issues between the moderators against moderators, members against members and mods against members, vice versa. All glory to GOD in Jesus Christ for this site in the first place.
I have been stressing out lately trying to solve the issues. I'm dealing with thick headed prideful people who refuse to humble themsleves, causing more division, gossip, building up their own pride and their own personal "will", or policy (rules) on the forum.
My business has lost about 10% of the client base during my recent move over to a new company/partner and this is adding more stress. I need to buy a laptop which is costing me nearly $4k and adding more stress. Why do I need this $4k laptop? For one thing, IBM is sky high expensive, technology is not cheap when you need the right stuff and security is 100% vital to me. I have to travel to Iowa GOD knows when but sometime the next two weeks to meet the new partners (company) I'm dealing with. Operating my business seconds and minutes and hours in between my free time (the time being away from the computer and doing other things such as the business meeting itself). I have to (out of responsibility, love and jealousy) watch over my site here - the beautiful gift from GOD - Talk Jesus.
All these things pile up on top of each other like joyful thrash (mix of bad and good). You understand? You understand the frustration when those (here on the site) gossip about you, disrespect you and other members, disrespect GOD's commandments first and firemost most importantly? Shame and more shame.
My typical day (perhaps this will explain to you the necessity and desperation of my prayer request)
- business work
- Talk Jesus moderation
- respond to complaints from customers
- respond to fuss between members on Talk Jesus
- loss of customers
- loss of members (aka brother or sister in Christ) because of X and X reasons
- more of the above, mixed and mashed together like armageddon in a rubber room
- truth revealed because I dug it out and found lies and gossip between members
- responding to patheticlly moronic customers who want their red carpet laid down for them thinking that is what they pay monthly fee for my services rendered to them
- slapping the devil constantly in Jesus' name to remind him he can eat fire off my rear-end (anger yes)
- driving to the gym at about 100mph to get there 20miles fast, adrenalized like a monster thanks to the useless nonsense I dealt with just before I left my home office
- fighting with my mind and the never ending sickening thoughts of violance, destruction, hate, and repetitions of these things. Thoughts so real I almost forget they never happened, and that I only thought of them, by my flesh's default nature.
- friends who are lazy, careless, selfish, judgmental, disgraceful, hateful, etc.
- more of the above mixed and mashed
- more of the above mixed and mashed
- more of the above mixed and mashed
Do you want to gossip about me or anyone else more on my property who GOD sent this gift to, to share with you?
Do you want to complain more every day because so and so shared a view you did not like?
Do you want to "bow out" because you couldn't resolve a simple issue?
Do you want to lash out in live chat in front of others whom you do not know if they are saved yet and get this sad impression from so called Christians?
Do you want to lie to me and force me to ban you and make myself known to be accused of being the "ban" and prideful - all because I did was right to filter out the gibberish from the forum?
How I am healthy is only by the One who made me in the first place. How I have not yet been thrown behind bars for losing my sanity on someone(s) by now is beyond me again. My face is stressed out, lines, frowned, droopy eyes 24/7. It has been literally tattooed onto me. People look at me like I am ready to demolish them on the spot for no apparent reason. That's the kind of look I have believe it or not. Stress.
I've gone about 75% deaf, this adds more stress. Since about 20 years ago the same. I get looks for the way I talk (mumble) and more stress. More temptations to destruct people and fleshfully find my way out for good. After all, did you expect something else, a different resolution to a man's problem who is 25yrs old, stressed out left and right, weightlifter on x and x thermogenics that got me hyper? Did you expect me to be perfectly humble unto GOD all the time when I'm sucker punched by the above hellhole that should not be - but is by such sad naive fools who cannot be peaceful with each other?
Just maybe you will drop your selfish "crap" and get on with Christ in His expected manner. Can you do this for GOD?
Thank you for your prayers.
