Hi anyone who is reading this. I am from British Columbia Canada. I live at the south tip of a beautiful island and I absolutely love it here! I have been away at school for 4 years so it is really nice to finally be back home (as of last september). I am a teacher. This year I work as a Learning Assistance teacher and I help kids with Learning Disabilities, but I really hope to one day get a job as an elementary teacher. I am married to a truley wonderful man. He puts up with a lot because I am a big pain in the butt! But we have a lot of fun together...we are best friends. I have always believed in God and I went to church as a child. I was baptised as a baby in the united church and later did my first communion/confimation in the catholic church. I went to the Christian University (called Trinity Western) for a year and I saw how totally different Christianity could be than what I saw as a child. Wow I was in shock. I saw students singing, clapping, dancing, and really really passionate. They new everything about Christianity...but it really showed how I didn't know much. It was a year of struggles for me. I had some really good Christian friends who dragged me to church once in a while and tried to wake me up for daily chappel, but something in me resisted every step of the way. After that year I could no longer afford to go there so I went to another school (public) and finished post secondary education. My husband and I don't go to church (except for holidays with my family), but we both believe in God. We took an Alpha course last year which was interesting and we learned a lot. I am here to learn more. It is hard because I feel all these feelings at are wrong when I come here sometimes. I start to question it all, I look at it as a cult...but I dont want to think like that. My mind is so mathematical I always need proofs and so it is hard sometimes. It is hard because I understand the first step has to be a leap of faith and I dont know how you get the faith to start with! I have asked God into my heart many times. Each timme I hope to feel something but I never did. But I think theroetically I must be saved because I did what you are supposed to do right? I don't know! Anyhow I love it here and I think it's a great website. I like chatting with people while I am at work (helps pass the time when there are no kids in my room) and the conversations are always interesting! I spend a lot of time sitting and listening Anyhow my hand is getting tired so I will post this hope to talk to you soon!