Hello - I'm new. I was just wondering if anyone can give me any advice/reassurance? I'm a christian but haven't been going to church for nearly three years now - I'd like to think this hasn't played a part in slipping in my faith but I would be lying, so I know I should start going to church. But I'm scared. I live in a small town and there is only really one option of church to go to. The problem is I used to go to that church, and felt very much at home there, but when I got engaged to my now husband I sort of fell out with the pastor - well, we didn't exactly fall out, except he didn't think I should marry my husband as he isn't a christian. I understand everyone is entitled to their views on this and that's fine. But the pastor, I thought, was more than just a pastor to me - I used to go on holiday with his family and stuff. Nothing has ever been said since. Since I stopped going to the church I have bumped into him and his family (as I said it's a small town) several times and we've chatted kind of as if nothing has happened but just chit chat. I really would like to go back to the church (my husband has offered to start coming too) but am so scared I will get hurt, or rejected, or made to feel inadequate or unwelcome. I have a few friends who still go there but none of them really know what happened. I'm also scared that if my husband comes too then he might get put off because of the history. But recently when I pray about it I get the real sense that I should go back, but I just can't find the confidence to do it (I'm not hugely confident anyway). Does anyone have any advice? I would be vey grateful! Thanks.