I will pray for you. Try not to be so hard on yourself. We've all been in your shoes at one time or another.
Maybe we don't share the same hardships, nonetheless we've all had them.
And some of us will continue with them. [John 16:33]
You must keep your faith! Not just in knowing that Christ Jesus is real, and that He died for our sins, but also keeping faith in His word as well.
Even though there does seem to be so many things in these days that would cause one to worry, even to the point that fear would kreep into one's life, we must always remember GOD'S words & the words of our Beloved Savior Jesus Christ where it is writen;
While Jesus was still speaking, behold, a bright cloud overshadowed them; and suddenly a voice came out of the cloud, saying, "This is My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased. Hear Him!'' [Matthew 17:5]
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. " [Matthew 6:34 also read Matthew 6:25-34]
"These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.'' [John 16:33]
"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. " [John 14:27]
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. [James 1:5]
`Oh, that they had such a heart in them that they would fear Me and always keep all My commandments, that it might be well with them and with their children forever! [Deuteronomy 5:29]