In March, 2009, my husband and I quit 20+ year smoking habits. On April 1, I had all my upper teeth extracted. In mid-May, I started feeling poorly and began sleeping 12 to 14 hours a day and added 30 pounds to my already heavy frame. My husband began suffering from a urinary and prostate disorder which he still hasn‘t sought medical treatment for because he‘s afraid and does not trust doctors at all. On June 6, my husband and I celebrated our 22nd anniversary. In late June, early July, I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism, depression, restless leg syndrome and arthritis. Doc said normal thyroid numbers are 3.0, but I read off the charts at 220.1. I became bedridden because my lower-body muscles had lost 85% functionality. In late July I discovered my husband had been having an affair. I call it an affair, but he doesn't believe it was. He had been having 10 to 20 minute phone conversations every night after 9 pm with another woman. There was never any physical contact. (His job keeps him away during the week and home on weekends. He gets laid off every winter.) Through August, September, October and November I struggled with my physical and mental health issues and dealt with my marital issues. In early to mid December, my husband was laid off from work. Two days after Christmas, we got news that a close friend had been struck by a car and killed instantly. One day later, my husband had all of his upper teeth extracted. He’s now healing.
2009 was, to say the least, the most trying year of my life. I feel like I’ve been lifted up out of my comfortable life and dropped down in a very strange place. I feel so lost. Meanwhile, my husband and children remain back there where I use to be. I really don’t know how to describe it.
Please, help me. Join me in prayer. Pray for my family. Pray for our finances which have suffered from my neglect and all the additional medical expenses. Pray I am able to forgive my husband and learn to trust him again. Pray that we are able to live according to God’s will and let go of our own efforts to control things or fix things. Pray for a healing, both in my heart and my family. I am broken and I am afraid.
2009 was, to say the least, the most trying year of my life. I feel like I’ve been lifted up out of my comfortable life and dropped down in a very strange place. I feel so lost. Meanwhile, my husband and children remain back there where I use to be. I really don’t know how to describe it.
Please, help me. Join me in prayer. Pray for my family. Pray for our finances which have suffered from my neglect and all the additional medical expenses. Pray I am able to forgive my husband and learn to trust him again. Pray that we are able to live according to God’s will and let go of our own efforts to control things or fix things. Pray for a healing, both in my heart and my family. I am broken and I am afraid.
