It's 2am and I am lost. The trials of the last few weeks are meant to teach me something but what I don't know. I only know that things seem to keep getting harder.
Just over three weeks ago my daughter living in RI let my wife and I know that she needed our help as a former family friend who had become obsessed with our granddaughter had began to act strange asking for my daughter to give her my granddaughter because this former friend thought she could give my granddaughter a better life. My daughter is in now way nor is her husband a bad parent, this so called friend just thought she had the means to give my granddaughter a better life then a young struggling married couple (daughter is 19 and herhusband is 21). We informed our daughter to have the former friend stay away and to look at getting a restraining order due to the nature of the text messages the former friend was sending which included a threat on my granddaughters life if my daughter wouldn't give her up. The police were called, reviewed all the text messages and obtained warrants for the former friend and her boy friend based on the threats.
We decided my wife should go stay with my duaghter for a bit for moral support. My wife wanted me to go as well but that really wasn't finacially fesiable. So since we are both on limited incomes due to disabilities we approached our Pastor asking for help to get the wife up to my daughters (it was a few days from the 1st when we would get paid) and he provided the money needed to get her there and we would pay him back as we could. The next day we get a call from the storage company where we still had household and personal items stored back where our daughter lived (we recently moved NC) informing us there had been a flood at their facility and our unit had been damaged. Therefore we need to go there to see what was damaged, what could be salvaged and to meet with thier insurance people (we also had been paying for insurance). So now it looked like we both needed to return to RI as quick as possible. Still being a few days from the first we approached a couple we are friends with in church asking for a loan until we got back inorder to get to RI.
We made it to RI and were happy to hear that the former friend and her boyfriend had supposedly fled out west prior to our arrival, and that the police were still pursuing the matter and hoping to catch them based on the warrants for they're arrest. The wife and I then turned our attention to the storage unit salvaging what we could. After spending a few days with our daughter and granddaughter we returned to NC with our duaghter and granddaughter accompaning us (it was decided they should come with us for a month while things settled back down in RI) which was an unexpected blessing.
Our trip back to NC was the third trial inas many weeks. Pulling a rented trailer containing the last of our belongings in RI a 16 hr trip turned into a 26hr trip with our car breaking downin VA. Fixing it temporarly only to have it act up again upon arriving in NC, a call for help was made to another church member who without hestitation drove 1 1/2 hrs to meet us and pull the rented trailer with his truck so we could make it home with our car.
So now we're home, our daughter and granddaughter our with us and although this endeavour wiped us out financially, we were togther, those we owed money to were understanding an willing to allow us to pay them back over time even with money being tight I knew we would be ok as God would meet our needs. So for the past couple of weeks to make ends meet we've gone to the pawn shop and even the local food bank to get by. We still have a roof over our head, the utilities are still on and we have each other, life is good.
Now we're down to 2 dipers left for our granddaughter, plenty of canned fruits, vegetables and milk but no meats and no money for gas to get my daughter and granddaughter to the airport 40 miles away when they leave next week (thankfully her husband is getting thier tickets) and its still a week before the wife and I get paid. I've repeatedly told my wife and daughter we would be ok all this week, that God will provide somehow as we made our trips to the pawnshop and food bank. Now our back is against the wall and I dont know what to do. We can't ask our church or our friends that go there for help the've done so much already and we have no family we can turn to.
Somehow I feel this is my fault, I've been praying to God for help, believing he will help but things haven't gotten better. Is it because I can't see what he wants me to learn from this? Is it something else I have or haven't done? I don't know anymore, so please pray for me, pray for my family that God may intercede, that he may show me what I need to do, because this point I am powerless over this and only God can help.
Just over three weeks ago my daughter living in RI let my wife and I know that she needed our help as a former family friend who had become obsessed with our granddaughter had began to act strange asking for my daughter to give her my granddaughter because this former friend thought she could give my granddaughter a better life. My daughter is in now way nor is her husband a bad parent, this so called friend just thought she had the means to give my granddaughter a better life then a young struggling married couple (daughter is 19 and herhusband is 21). We informed our daughter to have the former friend stay away and to look at getting a restraining order due to the nature of the text messages the former friend was sending which included a threat on my granddaughters life if my daughter wouldn't give her up. The police were called, reviewed all the text messages and obtained warrants for the former friend and her boy friend based on the threats.
We decided my wife should go stay with my duaghter for a bit for moral support. My wife wanted me to go as well but that really wasn't finacially fesiable. So since we are both on limited incomes due to disabilities we approached our Pastor asking for help to get the wife up to my daughters (it was a few days from the 1st when we would get paid) and he provided the money needed to get her there and we would pay him back as we could. The next day we get a call from the storage company where we still had household and personal items stored back where our daughter lived (we recently moved NC) informing us there had been a flood at their facility and our unit had been damaged. Therefore we need to go there to see what was damaged, what could be salvaged and to meet with thier insurance people (we also had been paying for insurance). So now it looked like we both needed to return to RI as quick as possible. Still being a few days from the first we approached a couple we are friends with in church asking for a loan until we got back inorder to get to RI.
We made it to RI and were happy to hear that the former friend and her boyfriend had supposedly fled out west prior to our arrival, and that the police were still pursuing the matter and hoping to catch them based on the warrants for they're arrest. The wife and I then turned our attention to the storage unit salvaging what we could. After spending a few days with our daughter and granddaughter we returned to NC with our duaghter and granddaughter accompaning us (it was decided they should come with us for a month while things settled back down in RI) which was an unexpected blessing.
Our trip back to NC was the third trial inas many weeks. Pulling a rented trailer containing the last of our belongings in RI a 16 hr trip turned into a 26hr trip with our car breaking downin VA. Fixing it temporarly only to have it act up again upon arriving in NC, a call for help was made to another church member who without hestitation drove 1 1/2 hrs to meet us and pull the rented trailer with his truck so we could make it home with our car.
So now we're home, our daughter and granddaughter our with us and although this endeavour wiped us out financially, we were togther, those we owed money to were understanding an willing to allow us to pay them back over time even with money being tight I knew we would be ok as God would meet our needs. So for the past couple of weeks to make ends meet we've gone to the pawn shop and even the local food bank to get by. We still have a roof over our head, the utilities are still on and we have each other, life is good.
Now we're down to 2 dipers left for our granddaughter, plenty of canned fruits, vegetables and milk but no meats and no money for gas to get my daughter and granddaughter to the airport 40 miles away when they leave next week (thankfully her husband is getting thier tickets) and its still a week before the wife and I get paid. I've repeatedly told my wife and daughter we would be ok all this week, that God will provide somehow as we made our trips to the pawnshop and food bank. Now our back is against the wall and I dont know what to do. We can't ask our church or our friends that go there for help the've done so much already and we have no family we can turn to.
Somehow I feel this is my fault, I've been praying to God for help, believing he will help but things haven't gotten better. Is it because I can't see what he wants me to learn from this? Is it something else I have or haven't done? I don't know anymore, so please pray for me, pray for my family that God may intercede, that he may show me what I need to do, because this point I am powerless over this and only God can help.
