I’m so sorry to hear that, Michelle. Please don’t be hard on yourself. Life can be stressful, and intense feelings can be nearly overwhelming at times. Putting an end to your life is not the solution for your problems. Please get some help without any delay. Have you tried contacting the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline? They operate toll-free, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Just call 1-800-273-TALK (8255). I know it’s not easy, but stay strong and live your God-given life. Sending hugs & prayers your way!