I have a friend who sent this email out to his friends, who is stepping into his chemo cycle #5 shortly. In this email, he said this:
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A friend sent me a verse that was my anchor today.
"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again." ~Psalm 71: 20-21
It’s true!
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...and I am humbled.
He writes further, and says:
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What must God really, really be like for us to worship Him… with our whole hearts and to love others in the midst of suffering? No matter the circumstances or level of pain there's no exemption for worship and love. That's incredible to me as I splash and romp in the most shallow end of suffering's pool. In my discomfort I feel so justly entitled to be godless… without God, abandoned to pain, a small story, needless heartache and grief, misdirected disappointment/anger, abhorrent agreements regarding God's character and heart, a surprising in a wallowing angst, a pseudo-"Me-against the world" righteousness, a settling for unredemptive pain.
It's not my gallant battling, or noble enduring or stedfast faith he longs for from me. As admirable and needed as those qualities are, what God longs for and invites me into is an intimacy with Him, a relationship with Him that is such that tied to stake, one match from being torched, I sing like a free bird to a song worshipping my The Mighty One, My Anchor and Intimate, Grace and Beauty, The One True and Living God.
I long, long, pant for, yearn and desire to be a man I am not yet (and is so evident in this cancer/chemo journey). I know God, I love Him mightily and in my suffering am still aware of how very much more there is for me to enjoy of Him.
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So, I post here, as it is too good to leave hidden. 'nuf said
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A friend sent me a verse that was my anchor today.
"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again." ~Psalm 71: 20-21
It’s true!
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...and I am humbled.
He writes further, and says:
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What must God really, really be like for us to worship Him… with our whole hearts and to love others in the midst of suffering? No matter the circumstances or level of pain there's no exemption for worship and love. That's incredible to me as I splash and romp in the most shallow end of suffering's pool. In my discomfort I feel so justly entitled to be godless… without God, abandoned to pain, a small story, needless heartache and grief, misdirected disappointment/anger, abhorrent agreements regarding God's character and heart, a surprising in a wallowing angst, a pseudo-"Me-against the world" righteousness, a settling for unredemptive pain.
It's not my gallant battling, or noble enduring or stedfast faith he longs for from me. As admirable and needed as those qualities are, what God longs for and invites me into is an intimacy with Him, a relationship with Him that is such that tied to stake, one match from being torched, I sing like a free bird to a song worshipping my The Mighty One, My Anchor and Intimate, Grace and Beauty, The One True and Living God.
I long, long, pant for, yearn and desire to be a man I am not yet (and is so evident in this cancer/chemo journey). I know God, I love Him mightily and in my suffering am still aware of how very much more there is for me to enjoy of Him.
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So, I post here, as it is too good to leave hidden. 'nuf said
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