Hi everyone, this is my first message on this board, my name is Davy (19 years old), i know i registered as Jack because at that time i was kinda scared to really show who i am but i thought ..im new to religion so i shouldnt lie.
I allways have believed in one god though , but i never really wanted to be involved in a society like christianity, when i was about 13 years old everybody started bullying me at school and it was about the time i was 16 years old i decided to be stronger and not subcome to the failures of others ..long story short, i kinda had a grudge against god and blamed him for all that had happened to me and also my parents (without going too deep into history, my parents didnt have it easy) and nowadays my parents cant work because they both have artritis so life is hard for them but ..lets skip to my story, i listen to alot of rock and metal (allthough its considered evil music) i listen to bands that are not even close to satanic, but still there is ofcourse alot of people pointing their finger at metal for being a bunch of satan worshippers blablabla, ofcourse there are a small group of those people in the metal scene, but no group at all is flawless (dont wanna offend anybody but there are also small groups in religion that take it too far ..cause nobody is perfect) and lets face it, as long as we are humans we have our flaws ( thats why we turn to religion, to kinda balance it)
so i had my first religious experience when i was about 18, i just felt really pure etc etc, i had that same experience 2 times but it never lasted, this is the third time i had it and now i know i am ready to let christ in my life and really become a better person (allthough i havent sinned THAT much). im kind off ashamed to say this but i stopped playing with my dingdong right now i have this feeling that love is above all ..and it feels really good. i stopped drinking alcohol, to have a guess of how much alcohol i had the last three months id say about 60 liters of rum and whiskey so thats kinda bad because before that i didnt drink AT ALL, so that just shows how weak someone can be...i also stopped watching porn, ofcourse when you are younger you want to experience what its like to have a sexual experience, but i am sooooooo sick of the loveless sex , im sick and tired of it ...by the way ..i am still a virgin and i want to wait till im married.
Im feeling really good right now, better than ever to be honest. The real reason btw that i got into religion was because of Christian Metal/rock ...so that shows that rock and metal is not allways how people interpet it. im sorry if i forgot to say anything but i will tell you when i get to that point...
I allready said the prayer to let jesus in your life but i dont know if i did it correctly, if i talk with a quiet voice (because im not really a loud person) will my prayer be heard ? If yes ...could u give me the exact prayer to let christ in your life because i wanna do it right ..only thing left for me is to buy a bible and pray to god for this feeling to last my entire life. oh btw ...is it neccesary to go to church ? i mean ..i would love to meet other christians but im working on developing myself right now because i am still very shy. so could i wait a few months or whatever? so i can get enough courage to set foot in a church?
Anyway thanks so much for reading this, and sorry if i made this message to long.
God bless, and i pray for better times for everyone ..cause the world is really starting to become a hellhole ( it was allready but people are getting worse nowadays).
Much love and respect,
Davy.
PS: im sorry if my english is not perfect
im from the netherlands
I allways have believed in one god though , but i never really wanted to be involved in a society like christianity, when i was about 13 years old everybody started bullying me at school and it was about the time i was 16 years old i decided to be stronger and not subcome to the failures of others ..long story short, i kinda had a grudge against god and blamed him for all that had happened to me and also my parents (without going too deep into history, my parents didnt have it easy) and nowadays my parents cant work because they both have artritis so life is hard for them but ..lets skip to my story, i listen to alot of rock and metal (allthough its considered evil music) i listen to bands that are not even close to satanic, but still there is ofcourse alot of people pointing their finger at metal for being a bunch of satan worshippers blablabla, ofcourse there are a small group of those people in the metal scene, but no group at all is flawless (dont wanna offend anybody but there are also small groups in religion that take it too far ..cause nobody is perfect) and lets face it, as long as we are humans we have our flaws ( thats why we turn to religion, to kinda balance it)
so i had my first religious experience when i was about 18, i just felt really pure etc etc, i had that same experience 2 times but it never lasted, this is the third time i had it and now i know i am ready to let christ in my life and really become a better person (allthough i havent sinned THAT much). im kind off ashamed to say this but i stopped playing with my dingdong right now i have this feeling that love is above all ..and it feels really good. i stopped drinking alcohol, to have a guess of how much alcohol i had the last three months id say about 60 liters of rum and whiskey so thats kinda bad because before that i didnt drink AT ALL, so that just shows how weak someone can be...i also stopped watching porn, ofcourse when you are younger you want to experience what its like to have a sexual experience, but i am sooooooo sick of the loveless sex , im sick and tired of it ...by the way ..i am still a virgin and i want to wait till im married.
Im feeling really good right now, better than ever to be honest. The real reason btw that i got into religion was because of Christian Metal/rock ...so that shows that rock and metal is not allways how people interpet it. im sorry if i forgot to say anything but i will tell you when i get to that point...
I allready said the prayer to let jesus in your life but i dont know if i did it correctly, if i talk with a quiet voice (because im not really a loud person) will my prayer be heard ? If yes ...could u give me the exact prayer to let christ in your life because i wanna do it right ..only thing left for me is to buy a bible and pray to god for this feeling to last my entire life. oh btw ...is it neccesary to go to church ? i mean ..i would love to meet other christians but im working on developing myself right now because i am still very shy. so could i wait a few months or whatever? so i can get enough courage to set foot in a church?
Anyway thanks so much for reading this, and sorry if i made this message to long.
God bless, and i pray for better times for everyone ..cause the world is really starting to become a hellhole ( it was allready but people are getting worse nowadays).
Much love and respect,
Davy.
PS: im sorry if my english is not perfect
im from the netherlands
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