Sue J Love
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Hebrews 4:14-16 BSB
“14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we profess. 15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who was tempted in every way that we are, yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”
Recap: In Hebrews 3-4 we are warned against falling back into sin and into disobedience to our Lord, thus falling away from our fellowship with Jesus Christ. And we are warned against hardening our hearts and rebelling against the commands of our Savior, and then remaining there for a long time. And we are encouraged to listen to the voice of the Lord, to put sin to death in our lives, and to walk (in conduct, in practice) in obedience to our Lord and to his commands if we want salvation and eternal life with God.
My Testimony
I believed in Jesus at age 7 and I followed the Lord with my life. I was involved in Christian ministry most of my life, walking with the Lord, obeying his commands, and following his leading, although I was not perfect. But then I had a difficult pregnancy with my last child which resulted in me needing to have a hysterectomy mid-1981. And then my hormones went crazy after that. And I began to experience early menopause symptoms. So I was at a stage in my life where I was very emotionally vulnerable.
At the same time, I was going through a healing process with regard to the sexual and physical and emotional abuse I had suffered at the hands of my father. So I cried a lot!! All those memories, most of which I had forgotten, were beginning to surface, and I was giving them over to the Lord, praying them through one by one. And I had few people supporting me through this process, and some who were against me. And I was caring for my four small children at the same time. But I was relying on the Lord to get me through.
Seven Years Passed
Seven years passed and we were now living in another town in a different state where the people were not friendly to outsiders. If you were not “one of them” you were not wanted. And many of us “outsiders” received the same treatment. And the menopausal symptoms were increasing, but I was considered too young to be going through that, so I was written off by most doctors. So, I was lonely and afflicted, in need of good friends and Christian fellowship, and my husband was travelling a lot with his job. I was hurting!
Now, as both my husband and I have shared before, without me knowing it, I had married a man who was addicted to sexual sin, which is where he remained, but where he says he is now gaining victory. I pray that he is! And rather than my husband supporting me in this time, and helping me through it, he took advantage of my weakness, instead, and he pushed me into joining in with him in his sin. I still had a choice. I could have said no. So I am at fault for allowing that to happen and for me to sin with my husband.
Another Seven Years Passed
My sins against the Lord continued on and off for a period of about seven years with breaks in between where I would get back on track in following the Lord and then something would happen that would lead me back into sin, usually having to do with my husband. And my husband and I have both confessed this publicly, and he is presently writing his story on an internet site called “Substack,” so what I am sharing is no secret. This has been out in the open for the past 8 years. But this was a real severe battle for me.
The last year of returning to this sin had a break of seven years prior to that. So it was like six years on, seven years off, and then one more year added on to a total of seven years battling with this sin. And that year was in 2000, the year both of my parents died, which was an emotionally difficult year for me. And then I got very serious about confronting this sin and conquering it in the power of God. And he showed me I was not forgiving Jesus for not rescuing me from my father, and so I forgave him, and he delivered me.
And Then..
The year was 2004. My husband and I were training to be church planters. I was going for my consecration and he was going for his ordination on the promise that he was no longer living in sexual sin, which turned out not to be true. But the Lord had a different plan for me. He had a calling for my life which was his calling even before I was formed in the womb of my mother, even with him knowing all the battles I would face throughout my life, even with him knowing that I would struggle with sexual sin for a period of seven years. But his plan was to use me to be his voice to the people of the world.
Could he have struck me dead and sent me to hell when I turned my back on him to follow my husband in sexual sin? Yes! He could have! But he had a plan and a purpose for my life. Because of his grace and mercy I am where I am today, doing what I am doing, writing down what the Lord is teaching me from my times spent with him daily in his word, and then placing these writings on the internet for a herald to “Run With It,” the name of my blog. And I closed that door shut on my past life, never to be reopened. Amen!
A Believer’s Prayer
An Original Work / July 31, 2012
Christ’s Free Servant, Sue J Love
With my whole heart, Lord, I pray
To be Yours, and Yours always.
Lead me in Your truth today.
May I love You, and obey.
Lead me in Your righteousness.
When I sin, may I confess;
Bow before You when I pray;
Live for You and You always.
Love You, Jesus, You’re my friend.
Life with You will never end.
You are with me through each day,
Giving love and peace always.
You will ne’er abandon me.
From my sin You set me free.
You died on that cruel tree,
So I’d live eternally.
Soon You’re coming back for me;
From this world to set me free;
Live with You eternally.
Oh, what joy that brings to me.
I will walk with You in white;
A pure bride, I’ve been made right
By the blood of Jesus Christ;
Pardoned by His sacrifice.
My Testimony
An Original Work / July 6, 2026
Christ’s Free Servant, Sue J Love
P.S. I have my husband’s approval to share this with you today.
“14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to what we profess. 15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who was tempted in every way that we are, yet was without sin. 16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”
Recap: In Hebrews 3-4 we are warned against falling back into sin and into disobedience to our Lord, thus falling away from our fellowship with Jesus Christ. And we are warned against hardening our hearts and rebelling against the commands of our Savior, and then remaining there for a long time. And we are encouraged to listen to the voice of the Lord, to put sin to death in our lives, and to walk (in conduct, in practice) in obedience to our Lord and to his commands if we want salvation and eternal life with God.
My Testimony
I believed in Jesus at age 7 and I followed the Lord with my life. I was involved in Christian ministry most of my life, walking with the Lord, obeying his commands, and following his leading, although I was not perfect. But then I had a difficult pregnancy with my last child which resulted in me needing to have a hysterectomy mid-1981. And then my hormones went crazy after that. And I began to experience early menopause symptoms. So I was at a stage in my life where I was very emotionally vulnerable.
At the same time, I was going through a healing process with regard to the sexual and physical and emotional abuse I had suffered at the hands of my father. So I cried a lot!! All those memories, most of which I had forgotten, were beginning to surface, and I was giving them over to the Lord, praying them through one by one. And I had few people supporting me through this process, and some who were against me. And I was caring for my four small children at the same time. But I was relying on the Lord to get me through.
Seven Years Passed
Seven years passed and we were now living in another town in a different state where the people were not friendly to outsiders. If you were not “one of them” you were not wanted. And many of us “outsiders” received the same treatment. And the menopausal symptoms were increasing, but I was considered too young to be going through that, so I was written off by most doctors. So, I was lonely and afflicted, in need of good friends and Christian fellowship, and my husband was travelling a lot with his job. I was hurting!
Now, as both my husband and I have shared before, without me knowing it, I had married a man who was addicted to sexual sin, which is where he remained, but where he says he is now gaining victory. I pray that he is! And rather than my husband supporting me in this time, and helping me through it, he took advantage of my weakness, instead, and he pushed me into joining in with him in his sin. I still had a choice. I could have said no. So I am at fault for allowing that to happen and for me to sin with my husband.
Another Seven Years Passed
My sins against the Lord continued on and off for a period of about seven years with breaks in between where I would get back on track in following the Lord and then something would happen that would lead me back into sin, usually having to do with my husband. And my husband and I have both confessed this publicly, and he is presently writing his story on an internet site called “Substack,” so what I am sharing is no secret. This has been out in the open for the past 8 years. But this was a real severe battle for me.
The last year of returning to this sin had a break of seven years prior to that. So it was like six years on, seven years off, and then one more year added on to a total of seven years battling with this sin. And that year was in 2000, the year both of my parents died, which was an emotionally difficult year for me. And then I got very serious about confronting this sin and conquering it in the power of God. And he showed me I was not forgiving Jesus for not rescuing me from my father, and so I forgave him, and he delivered me.
And Then..
The year was 2004. My husband and I were training to be church planters. I was going for my consecration and he was going for his ordination on the promise that he was no longer living in sexual sin, which turned out not to be true. But the Lord had a different plan for me. He had a calling for my life which was his calling even before I was formed in the womb of my mother, even with him knowing all the battles I would face throughout my life, even with him knowing that I would struggle with sexual sin for a period of seven years. But his plan was to use me to be his voice to the people of the world.
Could he have struck me dead and sent me to hell when I turned my back on him to follow my husband in sexual sin? Yes! He could have! But he had a plan and a purpose for my life. Because of his grace and mercy I am where I am today, doing what I am doing, writing down what the Lord is teaching me from my times spent with him daily in his word, and then placing these writings on the internet for a herald to “Run With It,” the name of my blog. And I closed that door shut on my past life, never to be reopened. Amen!
A Believer’s Prayer
An Original Work / July 31, 2012
Christ’s Free Servant, Sue J Love
With my whole heart, Lord, I pray
To be Yours, and Yours always.
Lead me in Your truth today.
May I love You, and obey.
Lead me in Your righteousness.
When I sin, may I confess;
Bow before You when I pray;
Live for You and You always.
Love You, Jesus, You’re my friend.
Life with You will never end.
You are with me through each day,
Giving love and peace always.
You will ne’er abandon me.
From my sin You set me free.
You died on that cruel tree,
So I’d live eternally.
Soon You’re coming back for me;
From this world to set me free;
Live with You eternally.
Oh, what joy that brings to me.
I will walk with You in white;
A pure bride, I’ve been made right
By the blood of Jesus Christ;
Pardoned by His sacrifice.
My Testimony
An Original Work / July 6, 2026
Christ’s Free Servant, Sue J Love
P.S. I have my husband’s approval to share this with you today.
