Missing you still

[PernellRodocker]

I thought of you today,
In a most unusual way.

I thought I was over the pain,
So that only the good remained.

The memories of losing you,
Crept up on me. What could I do?

Should I stop watching movies of old?
Their plots, some dumb and some just so cold.

But, when I see a family in mourn…
I remember when my heart was torn.

So, when I see the sun go down,
Or take a ride around the town,

You are in my thoughts and heart,
From the loss I can’t depart.

When oh when will this pain subside,
When will the happiness abide?

I want to cherish the memories of you,
But, the pain, loss and hurt, still, will never do…

So, I seek the solitude as my tears do flow,
Another day goes by, and in my heart I know…

Though I may never be free from the pain,
Some how, some way, there will be joy again.

So I fall to my knees and I sob in prayer,
I ask for relief, and I find some while there.

My heart weak with sorrow, my breath is so faint,
Memories I’ve, captured, an artist with paint.

So deep is the pain, the hurt I can’t bear,
I look to the sky and wish I were there…

With you…

By: Pernell R. Rodocker 3/10/02