Good morning my troubled Brother Markus. I have been absent for quite a while due to two backward falls that broke my tail bone and disrupted rods & screws on my lower spine. Abba Father willing, His Spirit will help you and me find peace. First, can you purchase the book "Victory Over The Darkness" by Dr. Neil T. Anderson. You can get a copy at www.CBD.com and as you study it, you';; have questions. That's when our counsel will begin. As I have said before. Elohim (Hebrew word for Father, Son, & Holy Spirit) will guide you and me to a final victory over the powers of Satan who has beat on you for years.