Twistie
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I've got this major problem asking n accepting help I cringe at even the thought of it n idk why
I've always been a giver one who would take care of who eva needed n did the best I could to get n give what they needed it's like I was drained to do it even when I was on the streets with my baby n those I was helping could of helped me just didn't see the need too this was in one of my darkest moments that was just the beginning of many more to come but that's a whole other story
But like I said I've always gave n did for others n I regret not one single solitary moment I got to spend with them my A jo she was a special person in my life then my aunt pat the love she showed me was unreal nothing like another had my nanny man n my grandma I love them also dearly to this day
What I am not understanding is why is it so hard for me to take help especially when it is desperately needed just little kind gestures are very hard for me to accept
I've prayed n pondered n I still don't know
What I do know is YH told me who did I think I was n I was like huh?
He said to me He said when u can do for others how does it make u feel?
I said it a nice feeling Abba with joy
He then said to me then why would u deny another to feel that
I had to shake my head
Was I sleeping or awake idk at this point any more but I surely got what He meant lol that's for sure
But why is it so dark hard
TWISTIE
I've always been a giver one who would take care of who eva needed n did the best I could to get n give what they needed it's like I was drained to do it even when I was on the streets with my baby n those I was helping could of helped me just didn't see the need too this was in one of my darkest moments that was just the beginning of many more to come but that's a whole other story
But like I said I've always gave n did for others n I regret not one single solitary moment I got to spend with them my A jo she was a special person in my life then my aunt pat the love she showed me was unreal nothing like another had my nanny man n my grandma I love them also dearly to this day
What I am not understanding is why is it so hard for me to take help especially when it is desperately needed just little kind gestures are very hard for me to accept
I've prayed n pondered n I still don't know
What I do know is YH told me who did I think I was n I was like huh?
He said to me He said when u can do for others how does it make u feel?
I said it a nice feeling Abba with joy
He then said to me then why would u deny another to feel that
I had to shake my head
Was I sleeping or awake idk at this point any more but I surely got what He meant lol that's for sure
But why is it so dark hard
TWISTIE
