Dear Friends,
Need your prayers tonight. I am pretty sick tonight. I should have taken the prodding and gone to the doctor, or at least called, Fri.
I have to let it go till Mon., unless I have to call the ambulance again. I was taken by ambulance back two weeks ago Monday, ambulance ride # 17. It the paper work said, foot mass Sub therapeutic INR. Which I had similar in my left knee a couple of months ago. Tonight my right knee is beginning to swell, so if either two feet (yes I still have two) or my knee start throbbing or swelling any more I will call the Ambulance.
Now, not only are both feet swollen and infected, where at my doctor trip to the hospital the Thurs. AFTER that Mon. where he prescribed Antibiotics which I have taken faithfully but have not seemed to help.
Tonight, I threw up all over myself. No idea why, what does that have to do with anything, I don't know. All over my legs, power chair, floor, even though I was grabbing towels to catch it. I have taken a shower and feel a bit better. The towels are in the shower in a garbage can soaking. All I have to clean now is the footrest on my power chair. And I quite don’t know how.
I am trying desperately to be alone and independent. And have, with exception of 4-5 years, in the last 13 years. When all this started. I was in nursing home for a month then Assisted Living about four months (then I ran away from the Assisted Living) and had my son take me to my daughter Linda.
She was raising teen agars, which was a little crazy. I sure love em. Linda, never said, but she was wearing out. I could see it. So, even though I am welcome, I’m holding off and YES hiding a few things, so they don’t come here and grab me. My kids.
I am a Cumadin patient and also a Diabetic. And these signs are warnings, to some extent and the many heart conditions I have. So everything that happens could be serious.
And I, please Lord, I do not want to go back, you know where. Unless you need me, if there is another Jean, She was my joy (and the angels too) and reason for being there. How precious. You have been faithful Jesus, ALL these years. You have taken miraculous care of me. How wonderful to walk with you. And hide in the secret of you Presence. But rides were not fun. I fear them Lord. And I can’t quite erase the memories.
In his Holy Name
Barbara
Need your prayers tonight. I am pretty sick tonight. I should have taken the prodding and gone to the doctor, or at least called, Fri.
I have to let it go till Mon., unless I have to call the ambulance again. I was taken by ambulance back two weeks ago Monday, ambulance ride # 17. It the paper work said, foot mass Sub therapeutic INR. Which I had similar in my left knee a couple of months ago. Tonight my right knee is beginning to swell, so if either two feet (yes I still have two) or my knee start throbbing or swelling any more I will call the Ambulance.
Now, not only are both feet swollen and infected, where at my doctor trip to the hospital the Thurs. AFTER that Mon. where he prescribed Antibiotics which I have taken faithfully but have not seemed to help.
Tonight, I threw up all over myself. No idea why, what does that have to do with anything, I don't know. All over my legs, power chair, floor, even though I was grabbing towels to catch it. I have taken a shower and feel a bit better. The towels are in the shower in a garbage can soaking. All I have to clean now is the footrest on my power chair. And I quite don’t know how.
I am trying desperately to be alone and independent. And have, with exception of 4-5 years, in the last 13 years. When all this started. I was in nursing home for a month then Assisted Living about four months (then I ran away from the Assisted Living) and had my son take me to my daughter Linda.
She was raising teen agars, which was a little crazy. I sure love em. Linda, never said, but she was wearing out. I could see it. So, even though I am welcome, I’m holding off and YES hiding a few things, so they don’t come here and grab me. My kids.
I am a Cumadin patient and also a Diabetic. And these signs are warnings, to some extent and the many heart conditions I have. So everything that happens could be serious.
And I, please Lord, I do not want to go back, you know where. Unless you need me, if there is another Jean, She was my joy (and the angels too) and reason for being there. How precious. You have been faithful Jesus, ALL these years. You have taken miraculous care of me. How wonderful to walk with you. And hide in the secret of you Presence. But rides were not fun. I fear them Lord. And I can’t quite erase the memories.
In his Holy Name
Barbara