I'm new and trying to find my way

[Chris7171020]

Hello, I'm new on this site. So I grew up in church and definitely lost my way during my college years. Starting partying too much and even starting using drugs and alcohol.
I've never let it destroy me, seeing how I graduated and found a good job. I am also a newlywed. There is just an emptiness inside me still and I think it's the fact that I haven't been loyal to Christ these past few years. I even questioned his existence. I deal with chronic pain and still feel the overwhelming Guilt from things I've done in the past. Please pray for me and guide me to really humble myself and fall in love with Jesus again.

 

[amadeus2]

I am praying for you brother, but understand that if you have moved very far away from Him the way back probably will not be an easy one.

I fled from the Lord once thinking I could just be a good guy living as if there were no God. It didn't take long for me to realize I could not do that. It took longer, much longer to come back. The chastisement [I call it chastisement because of where I was and where and who He is.] I suffered when He finally acknowledged my cry, my plea to let me return, was terrible, but in the end it was worth it. I continue to give God the glory daily for what He has done for me even though it's been about 14 years ago now.

For guidance I look in particular to this verse, the words of Jesus:

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Matt 6:33

Remember to alway do first things first. The verse I quoted gives two firsts and then gives you what the result will be.

Give God the glory my friend, for in being here and asking for help you have already take a first step toward Him.

 

[Fragrant Grace]

Greetings @Chris7171020

Welcome to Talk Jesus's

The Lord loves you. It doesn't matter what you have done, if you are His there is no condemnation.
The devil will try to make you doubt....but he is a liar and has no place in your life.

Seek the Lords will in your life, commit your way to Him....keep praising, be prayerful, be thankful.
He wI'll never let you down

Now unto Him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy, To the only wise God our Saviour,be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.
Jude 1:24-25