Chosen Girl
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- Jul 3, 2007
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I usually don't ask these things from people. I always think I am burdening them with my problems.
I know the devil is attacking extra hard. My friend and I are not getting along. We are actually roommates and I personally feel like leaving and never returning. We got into this HUGE fight via e-mail at work. I was already having a bad morning about a few things that bugged me. Instead of holding it in... I e-mailed her and told her how I felt. I didn't do it in a bad way. I just wanted to get things off my chest and clear things up. Like always, she had to respond and throw something at me. The funny thing is.. everything she threw at me... she does too and I said something back.
After that she said some hurtful things. I have done nothing but be there for her. When she needed to talk... I listened... even when she was in the wrong. If she was hungry... I buy or give her food. If she needed something... I would give it to her.
I can't be trusted? She is the one who talks behind others backs! Someitmes I laugh but man... I feel guilty afterward. God please forgive me. She tries to make everyone's business hers... "I was there... so it's my business."
I just simply told her how I felt... and she had to turn it into something HUGE. I couldn't help it.... I just started to ball in front of all my co workers while writing her the last e-mail I wrote her. I just said that "I hate this. We are falling apart. I am hurt. I hate this."
I know this is all the devil... but that does not stop nme from ignoring her when I came home and boy... did I ever. You see... we have encounters. This is where a group of people (in our case... it's youth) come together and encounter God. They come face to face with forgiveness, their sins, and other situations. There is a MAJOR spiritual change in these kids and God uses us to speak and pray for them. Some accept God into their hearts. They stop doing the things of the world and start following God. IT'S AMAZING.
We both are to speak on very important subjects.
When your in this type of ministry... the devil attacks hard. He is fight for these kids lives. I know we must fight harder but I am so hurt... I want to be stubborn.
Please forgive me GOD!
So, can you pray for me? Pray for my friend and I? I know when you come together in unity... things happen.
God mend my heart. Heal my wounds. Help me be a better person. If someone offends me... let it roll off and not stick. I want to walk in your light. I want to follow your will. I need you my loving and forgiving God. Forgive me of any sin I have committed. I thank you so much!!
I know the devil is attacking extra hard. My friend and I are not getting along. We are actually roommates and I personally feel like leaving and never returning. We got into this HUGE fight via e-mail at work. I was already having a bad morning about a few things that bugged me. Instead of holding it in... I e-mailed her and told her how I felt. I didn't do it in a bad way. I just wanted to get things off my chest and clear things up. Like always, she had to respond and throw something at me. The funny thing is.. everything she threw at me... she does too and I said something back.
After that she said some hurtful things. I have done nothing but be there for her. When she needed to talk... I listened... even when she was in the wrong. If she was hungry... I buy or give her food. If she needed something... I would give it to her.
I can't be trusted? She is the one who talks behind others backs! Someitmes I laugh but man... I feel guilty afterward. God please forgive me. She tries to make everyone's business hers... "I was there... so it's my business."
I just simply told her how I felt... and she had to turn it into something HUGE. I couldn't help it.... I just started to ball in front of all my co workers while writing her the last e-mail I wrote her. I just said that "I hate this. We are falling apart. I am hurt. I hate this."
I know this is all the devil... but that does not stop nme from ignoring her when I came home and boy... did I ever. You see... we have encounters. This is where a group of people (in our case... it's youth) come together and encounter God. They come face to face with forgiveness, their sins, and other situations. There is a MAJOR spiritual change in these kids and God uses us to speak and pray for them. Some accept God into their hearts. They stop doing the things of the world and start following God. IT'S AMAZING.
We both are to speak on very important subjects.
When your in this type of ministry... the devil attacks hard. He is fight for these kids lives. I know we must fight harder but I am so hurt... I want to be stubborn.
Please forgive me GOD!
So, can you pray for me? Pray for my friend and I? I know when you come together in unity... things happen.
God mend my heart. Heal my wounds. Help me be a better person. If someone offends me... let it roll off and not stick. I want to walk in your light. I want to follow your will. I need you my loving and forgiving God. Forgive me of any sin I have committed. I thank you so much!!
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