hey. . .
i tried sending you a pm . . .that didnt work, I dont know if you really want to talk about all private details here in the forum, so im kinda confused what or what not to ask or say . . .
I feel with you, I believe your hurting and your desperate, its important for you not to be alone and have someone who listens to you in this time as well as your husband hopefully has someone to talk to considering his feelings towards you . . .
Maybe you write me a pm if you wanna talk further. . .all I can suggest is: Be secure in your Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. . .thats the only One you can trust in this whole world