Tatianatashie,
That's unfortunate you had to go through all that. Those types of experiences in one's life could really do some damage within someone and could definitely have an effect on how you respond to things. The disappointment you have that there was nothing you could do about it, could have allowed for forms of resentment, unforgiveness, and bitterness to work into one's heart...which would also be part of the culprits of anger and rage too. Even though we have grown up in own lives, sometimes there are things we have not dealt with completely within ourselves from those experiences. I believe the Lord's wanting you to address these things within your heart because He doesn't want you to be tempted into handling any other situations wrongly in the future...as this can lead to hurting you more than what you've already experienced. In addition, it will effect your relationship with Him...your growth to be all you were called to be from the beginning, by and through Him. The Lord wants to help heal you, teach you about how to overcome these temptations and tactics, and bring a better way of life into what you have encountered so that you may live as He destined you to (a new life in Christ). (Jer. 17:10; Psalm 139:1; Isa. 61:1; Luke 4:18; Psalm 147:3; Ezek. 36:26; 2 Cor. 5:17; 2 Cor. 1:22-23).
j_sp