Hi. My name is Bridget. I have struggled my entire life in my relationship with God. I wish I could sit here today and say I have what most of you obviously have. One day I will, but I can not honestly say it today. I have not had an easy life but I have not had the hardest life either, so I can not complain. I have recently rededicated my life to the Lord, but I have this immense fear that I will once again fail and that fear is holding me back from being the best Christian that I can be. I am trying to hand that fear over but for some reason I can't let go of it. I have fear that I will be judged here for my mistakes and that fear is holding me back in this forum even. Over the past few weeks, I have gone from church to church trying to find a church home and have yet to find one where I feel comfortable and while I feel that God is guiding me to each one, I don't feel that God is asking me to stay at any one of them for more than a day and I don't understand. I feel lost and it is confusing to me because I have never felt so lost while being right with God before.