love from above
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- Nov 30, 2010
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This is my first thread on here, actually first thread ever. I found this website while I was looking for answers to questions that I have. Maybe you guys can help me out. I considered myself a Christian pretty much all of my life. A year ago I rededicated my life to Christ, got Baptized and recieved the Holy Spirit. I was doing great up until about 6 months ago. I was chillin on my recliner just reading the bible and praying when all of a sudden a thought entered my mind. It was like I could physically feel it pop into my mind, and for no reason what-so-ever. I had never had this thought and never thought I would. I believe it was the devil or one of his demons. The thought was a question, Does God or Jesus really exist? And it has stuck with me ever since. I mean, its common sense that He does, but it is like there is a void a depression that I cannot get rid of. I don't feel like a Christian, I feel like if I died or Jesus came back, I wouldn't make it into Heaven. I absolutely hate it. I've prayed constantly to Jesus that He would rid it of me, commanded it to leave me in the Name of Jesus, but it still haunts me. Ever since this happened, I have stuggled with many other things. I just need some help from someone who is stong in their faith because I want a faith like that! I want nothing more than to give Jesus my all, but something is holding me back. Its that stinkin thought/void. Sorry this is so long since it is my first post. Thanks!