You should have known me before march 1977, you would have hated with a full passion, back then i would go upside your head! And lot more i would do, in which it is not lawful to talk of such things on this channel! And the women would drop at my feet. Both old and young! the church women, and the pagans.
I knew i was a sinners, and proud of it. i was messed up and didn't know it. like Apostle Paul, I was Chief of all sinners! And I loved them women, and they love me!
I used to have to hide from them, They was fine! and I would make them smile. And I had a good Job. Nice Muscle car, Motorcycle, and Horses! I was smooth, they would say. You are smooth, and I could Ballroom dance. Own my own Tux. I was a "Sinner' and enjoyed it.
But until I heard something calling my name, it seems it was in a far off land, like a distance drummer. Way off and i had a keen ear, And I notice I was changing, and begin to question myself, why am I doing these things, No one knew that i was changing but me on the inside, Women wonder why, I would not take them to bed, men notice i was not hanging out with them no more, I sold my Motorcycle, I was no church member, going to no one's church, I found myself Praying the 23 Psalms at work before my shift started.everyday when i got to work in the evening. Something was changing me. And finally it happen at work while i was smoking "Columbia GOLD" had the Joint in my Hand, And Told Jesus if give me something better than this, I will serve you! And BAM! I Saw Jesus on the Cross, Blood running down His face, and from His Forehead where the thorns was Piercing His brow,, the scars on His face, His eyes was tearing blood, and the sadness upon His face and He called me by name! And told me with HIS Arms STRETCH OUT, hands nailed to the cross right there on the Cross, Chris i died for you! It Broke my Heart, right there, and I told him, NO Lord, not me, I am a sinful man, how can you die for a man like me , a "Holy GOD"! Then my Heart broke open, it cracked and That HOLY OIL, Pour into my wound, from the top of my head, clear out through my Soul! I start walking among over 200 people "High" filled with the "HOLY Ghost" and from top of my Lungs I start Preaching JESUS! right there! They thought i had lost my, They found my Daddy who was a "Journeyman" Skilled, Tradesmen, your son have lost His mind, he is walking around Talking about JESUS! The CEO's and The Superintendents" saw me, and told my daddy to leave me alone, For that boy, is a ":Child of GOD", and He got it! I "Preach All day" in that corporation. My fire never went out! Got home that night, My wife thought i had lost my mind, , I was on fire that day the next, Went to my Karate,Judo, and Jujitsu school, spar with about 8 guys hurt 3 of them, stop took off my Karate gloves, bowed to my Sensei and told him i quit, Jesus do not want me hurting people, went to the locking room, showered. My Instructor look at me, Puzzle, i said, I fighting for Jesus now. Shook his hand and hug him, and said by, after 4-5 years of training ,smile and walked out!
You see I understand those who are "calvinist". I understand the 5 points of Calvinists. I was not taught it! I am a walking proof, I have not gave no body my hand, I did not chose Him, he chose me! I got the "Holy Ghost" when i didn't even know what the" Holy Ghost" was. And finally when I read the Bible, i had already heard those very words that is written in the, Bible before i read it in there. The main one , "come out from among them" that was that "distance voice I heard way off in a distance, In Calvinist Terminology it is called "Irresistible Grace"! "
No man can come to the Son unless The Father Draws him" It blown me away when I found out it was a name for what i had already experience in my conversion journey, Words that made sense to me that I understood concerning my "pilgrimage". So in essence I have words that describes my salvation story, that makes sense to me, before the Foundations of the COSMOS, And I am not in search, neither am I, talking about what it takes to be saved,, or stuck in cycle of year after year, trying to justify "my church" and my own actions and efforts in contributing to the salvation of my soul.
PS. for many have already heard my other Testimony before this event that happen, When Angels have came to my aid, and comforted me in my distress! Laying in the street, dying, after been ran over by a "automobile" flesh torn from my body, rolled up like a scroll. my clothes strip form my body. Lying Naked in the street! I know how i got here today! And i do not have to prove my Salvation to Nobody! I do not have to prove to nobody what "Spirit" dwells in me!
Wife telling me, You are not the man i married, Just because i have change! and Jesus is The Christ, the Son of The Living GOD! If only she knew what kind of Sinner she married! But she Loved that Sinner, snap of the finger she would Jump! Nod of the head, she would drop to her knees.
"Humans love darkness rather than light" LOL
and concerning Blossoming, i am winding down, retired now. You should have seen me in my prime, i have to admit pride was flowing in my veins. I am old now, and the "Measure". "
(Paul said):
"Even if I wanted to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will credit me with more than he sees in me or hears from me,
or because of these surpassingly great revelations. So to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me."
Job 2:6
"Very well," said the LORD to Satan. "He is in your hands, but you must spare his life."
Many Pastors and Ministers and early childhood friends has said to me, I would like to have what you have, But the things you have been threw to get there I don't want it. Some have said to me, if i went threw some of the stuff you went threw i would have blowed my head off. And others have said, we have watch you through the years, the things you have went through and come out, Have given us the strength to go through. a quote by one, if he went through, I can go through too. My Brother who is a Pastor, told my mother "Chris" can take anything! I been lied on, talked about, called everything but a child of GOD. and a lot more, Betrayed, by those i have help in secret, and they don't even know it. it was me working on their behave in the shadows. And they was helping the enemy who was working against them and me. on many occasions this have happen, And i have said not a word. No one has to tell me what a true "child of GOD' has to go through, Orchestrated by his Father. [
really, it is something, He brings you through}
I gave out a long time ago. and died!
Shalom.
