desperate prayer need miracle, lack of trust

[jchsap83]

Hey to all,

I really don't know how to trust Jesus. how do i trust that things are going to be OK. my mom still hounds me about marriage and she thinks in her will i be married by late 2010. I dont know How to trust GOD that my mom will permit me to marry a christian women and on top of that her not understanding the christian faith. my family is tryin to set me up as i head to india. obviously im gonna say no to any hindu girl. I dont have the heart to tell my mom that her will aint gonna happen and that im gonna marry a christian girl wether she likes it or not. I have to much FEAR that I might lose my mom and parts of family. I know i have to make a huge sacrifice and I'm to FEARful to let go. It feels like death inside knowing you have to leave your loved ones. like it says in mark8:34. I feel lost in this world. I feel I will never get what i want in life. like it when it says in the bible to ask and you shall recieve how often does that come true. you might ask god what you want but youll never always get it unless its GODs will. you almost feel like giving up your dreams cause there are no dreams. God may have a plan for me. I feel like I dont have a plan anymore if its only GODs plan. being christian is so hard sometimes. i feel like i have to leave everything behind me. I feel Jesus is so far away. I dont know how to trust GOD. if anyone knows how please tell me. my faith is like next to nothing. spiritually i dont have it in me anymore. i need a miracle to get back in tune with Jesus.

your bro in christ,
Amit Patel

 

[Coconut]

Hello Amit, I read all your messages...

I see you know 'about' Jesus Christ, and you have even accepted Him as your Savior, and you try to spread the knowledge of Him everywhere you go, praise God!

However, it seems you do not know God on a personal level, that your life, since you have learned about Him, has been fraught with a lot of anxiety and desperation because you dont know Him in a personal way. It is like you are standing at a distance from God, in reverence and fear from what you`ve already learned of Him, but you have never experienced His love for you (which casts out all fear)

The problem is, as you say, you do not trust Him, and you do not trust Him, because you do not have a relationship with Him built on the foundation of trust.

Go back to the first day you heard about God. You believed enough to pray He would be your Saviour. What do you think happened then?
God said YES, you will be my son! There is the beginning of relationship, and the first brick in the foundation of trust between you and God. He said on the day you call, I will answer. If you can believe He accepted you, will you now believe He has turned into a pagan statue, who only answers you with stony silence? The God who you gave your life to, also says He has a plan for you. Since you have believed He has accepted you, will you now believe He intends to leave you walk alone?

May I suggest you do something for yourself? Can you go find a place to be completely alone with God for awhile? Will you sit in that place, and pour out your heart to Him (everything that troubles you, all your doubt, worry, struggles) And when you have poured out your heart, will you sit there in the stillness and just listen for awhile? I dont say you will hear the audible voice of God, but still yourself awhile, and let the Spirit of God speak to your spirit.

When you leave that place, will you choose to trust God in spite of what you think and see and feel about what is happening around you. (that is faith) It is not blind faith. God has given His children many promises in the Scriptures, but we must recognize His ways are not our ways, and His timing is not ours. If you had a son, you would recognize that even the hard things your child must endure are for his good, and even the discipline you give him is because you love him. You can trust your Heavenly Father my Brother.

Blessings