Can you imagine what it is to live alone?
I don't mean live in your house or apt alone, I mean live completely alone in life without the companionship, support or comfort of friends and family.
Can you imagine what it is to not be someone's mother, father, sister, brother, uncle, aunt, cousin, niece, nephew, extended family member or friend?
Can you imagine what it is to solely depend on the internet for interacting with others, going days sometimes weeks without seeing another individual or receiving a personal phone call, someone to just say hi, how are you?
Can you imagine having absolutely NO ONE to turn to in a time of crisis and despair?
Can you really imagine helping individuals during their time of need, only to have them shun you, not return phone calls, or hurry you off the phone?
Well this is my daily existence, and has been for many many years. I'm used to it, it really doesn't bother me too much, but times like now, when I'm facing the hardest time of my life, I need someone.
Before you say Jesus, I already know I have Jesus. Had it not been for Jesus, I don't think I would have continued on as I have, accepting and making the best of my life despite the lack of support; for I know there is always hope in Him.
But no man is an island, yet I find myself as if on an island where there's nothing but a vast view of nothingness ahead.
I found this forum this morning, because I was in search of answers to a dreaded question I care not to mention. I've since re-thought the process, and decided that maybe there is still a way out of my dilemma. But this morning, was a place in my mind I'd never been and it was very scary, yet at the same time peaceful.
The enemy has a way of playing tricks on your mind in isolation. He will make you believe you're worthless, and of no account. He'd convinced me of that before I found this forum this morning.
I really don't know what I'm going to do to overcome this situation, maybe that's where God wants me, to stop trying to figure it out and let Him do His job. For this is truly a Job for God.
In any event, I solicit your prayers of intercession as I move further into this season of uncertainty, and sheer helplessness, fully knowing I can depend on Jesus, but it's always nice to have a HUMAN tell you it's going to be alright, even if they don't really know the outcome.
Please pray for my peace, well-being, and sanity.
God bless
praiZe
I don't mean live in your house or apt alone, I mean live completely alone in life without the companionship, support or comfort of friends and family.
Can you imagine what it is to not be someone's mother, father, sister, brother, uncle, aunt, cousin, niece, nephew, extended family member or friend?
Can you imagine what it is to solely depend on the internet for interacting with others, going days sometimes weeks without seeing another individual or receiving a personal phone call, someone to just say hi, how are you?
Can you imagine having absolutely NO ONE to turn to in a time of crisis and despair?
Can you really imagine helping individuals during their time of need, only to have them shun you, not return phone calls, or hurry you off the phone?
Well this is my daily existence, and has been for many many years. I'm used to it, it really doesn't bother me too much, but times like now, when I'm facing the hardest time of my life, I need someone.
Before you say Jesus, I already know I have Jesus. Had it not been for Jesus, I don't think I would have continued on as I have, accepting and making the best of my life despite the lack of support; for I know there is always hope in Him.
But no man is an island, yet I find myself as if on an island where there's nothing but a vast view of nothingness ahead.
I found this forum this morning, because I was in search of answers to a dreaded question I care not to mention. I've since re-thought the process, and decided that maybe there is still a way out of my dilemma. But this morning, was a place in my mind I'd never been and it was very scary, yet at the same time peaceful.
The enemy has a way of playing tricks on your mind in isolation. He will make you believe you're worthless, and of no account. He'd convinced me of that before I found this forum this morning.
I really don't know what I'm going to do to overcome this situation, maybe that's where God wants me, to stop trying to figure it out and let Him do His job. For this is truly a Job for God.
In any event, I solicit your prayers of intercession as I move further into this season of uncertainty, and sheer helplessness, fully knowing I can depend on Jesus, but it's always nice to have a HUMAN tell you it's going to be alright, even if they don't really know the outcome.
Please pray for my peace, well-being, and sanity.
God bless
praiZe
