Ashamed to admit

[Property Of God]

I posted before and said my dad needs a liver transplant asap, my uncle was rejected as a doner as he has heptitis B, aunte is diabetic, sister isunder age and I'm under weight, brother has a different blood type, muslims can't donate to Christians.

I lost my faith in God, I'm so ashmed to say it, but I just feel I don't really have to pray anymore, ashamed to say I don't feel the slighest urge to read the bible, go to work, go out or even talk on the phone, somehow I'm trying to accept the possibility that my dad may pass away sooner or later.

It kills me because I had so much with God and He invested too much in me, but I can't help getting angry and not understanding, and the more angry I get, the more sad I feel inside, He's my lord and I love Him, how can I act this way?

I just feel so lost and so ashamed.
Please, I need your prayers.

 

[Boanerges]

Nermeen my friend, you need to get some good Pastoral counseling. The anger and confusion you are feeling is quite normal in this type pf situation. The number one strategy satan uses is to try and seperate beleivers from the one and only One who can help them. Do not fall for this. Get help from your Pastor and local church. Remember that God certainly loves you and will not reject you.
You are in my prayers,
your brother in Christ, Larry.

 

[the preacher]

stand in gods strength

dont put yourself down god loves you so do i. repent turn to god and let him help you with what your facing. maybe youve abandoned god and turned your back but guess what he is standing right behind you turn around let him wipe away your tears and put a new song in your mouth a song of victory. he will take away your clothes and give you a robe called victory he will cover you and cleanse you with the precious blood of jesus. look up he is looking down at you smiling and saying he is proud of you he loves you he died for you. its the year of the lords favour .
61:1 The spirit of the sovereign Lord is upon me,
because the Lord has chosen me.
He has commissioned me to encourage the poor,
to heal the brokenhearted,
to decree the release of captives,
and the freeing of prisoners,
61:2 to announce the year when the Lord will show his favor,
the day when our God will seek vengeance,
to comfort all those who mourn,
61:3 to provide those who mourn in Zion,
by giving them a crown of beauty , instead of ashes,
oil symbolizing joy, instead of mourning,
a garment symbolizing praise,instead of discouragement.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
trees planted by the Lord to reveal his splendor.

he came to release you from the bondage of sin and death, he came to heal your crushed heart to release and set you free from physical and spiritual problems that you may face. let him provide peace and comfort for you. i stand at the door and knock if you hear me calling and open the door ill eat with you and you with me . when you have a guest at the front door you must open it for them to come in. when your facing problems you must open the door and let jesus in to your problems so he can fix it dont let him keep knocking ask him in today. he said john 16v33 jesus said in me you will have peace in this world you will face trouble take heart i have overcome the world. and luke 1v37 for nothing is impossible with god.he is the lord who heals the unhealable, he delivers the undeliverable.

you may have turned from god and hisword you maybe discouraged and lost your faith, and think your dad might not live long, what happens when your in the army and one of the soldiers is shot does the other soldier leave him for dead or does he let the enemy take him captive no he doesnt he leaves no one behind he will pick him up and carry him safely to the base, did you watch forest gump he carried all the soldiers to safety. im forest gump i am that soldier because the devil is our enemy and he might have you discouraged and has a foothold but he has none on me, im full of strength ill pick you up and take you to safety. ill be strong in god and in his mighty power.now the devil is in trouble because he can no longer hit you with his girly firey darts because i stand infront of you with gods sheild of faith stopping all of his darts penetrating you and i stand with gods full armour,if a dart misses my sheild dont worry it wont penetrate my breastplate of rightousnous, he might try get around me to get to you but ill be to fast for him because im fitted with special shoes im fitted with readiness that comes from gospel of peace, ill put on my helmet of salvation to tease him saying im saved forevermore with god in an everlasting life but you devil into the fire of lake prepared for you and your demons then i must buckle my belt of truth around my waist so it holds my suit together so my pants dont fall and trip over it and give the devil an opening to attack me. last of all when he sends me his darts saying your dad wont be healed why isnt god helping you ill attach it to the sword of the spirit as a question and send him back answers saying, im covered in the blood of jesus and i triumph over you, if god is for me who can stand against us.ye he who is in me is greater than you who are of the world, i will not fear of bad news because my heart is steadfast trusting in the lord, my heart is secure i will not fear because in the end i will triumph over my enemies . then ill send god up prayers, supplications and pray for all of my brothers and sisters with all different types of prayers and when he has ran away and you are strong enougth to stand ill put on gods armour on you ephesians 6v 18

i pray lord that you can help bring revival and restoration upon nermeen, retore, renew,replenish, strengthen her, make her whole and full and bring her to the rivers and springs of abundance, let her worries burdens, problems and care be casted upon you lord and please leave her your peace give her your peace and let her heart not be troubled or afraid.keep her and bless her shine your face towards her be gracious, turn your face to her and give her peace your name is a fortified tower lord let nermeen run to you to take shelter, refuge and cover.sustain her and let her not be shaken.provide for all her physical and spiritual needs. dont forget her as your word says father see i have engraved you in the palm of my hands. i also pray her father receives either2 things,that today or as soon as possible her father receives a liver transplant or a devine supernatural intervention a full and complete healing, i pray lord he receives healing to his liver in jesus name so you can receive glory and honour. i pray that from your kingdom the substance of healing is departed and it arrives now and without delays upon the liver of nermeens dad. thank you for the deliverance because deliverance comes from you. luke11:9 “So I tell you: Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find knock, and the door will be opened for you. 11:10 For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. 11:11 What father among you, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead of a fish? 11:12 Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? 11:13 If you then, although you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!” amen in the name of jesus.
godbless you and when things are not going good look at your hands imagine gods hands you are engraved on them. i love you take care have a good nights sleep and dont let the bed bugs bite.
thankyou god jesus and the holyspirit.

 

[Coconut]

Nermeen my friend, you need to get some good Pastoral counseling. The anger and confusion you are feeling is quite normal in this type pf situation. The number one strategy satan uses is to try and seperate beleivers from the one and only One who can help them. Do not fall for this. Get help from your Pastor and local church. Remember that God certainly loves you and will not reject you.
You are in my prayers,
your brother in Christ, Larry.

Amen.

Nermeen, our Shepherd cares for you so much, He wont even ask you to walk when He know you cannot...He will carry you on His shoulders ...let Him carry you through this Sister.

Luk 15:4 "What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the open country, and go after the one that is lost, until he finds it?
Luk 15:5 And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing.
Luk 15:6 And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, 'Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.'
Luk 15:7 Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.

 

[wendy03]

Dear Nermeen- I am so sad to read your post but also I understand. I will pray for you sister. The Lord wont let you down. I agree with the above posts- you need good pastoral counseling.
Even if you dont feel like it, please pick up your bible! This may be the Lords test to see if you will abide in His word! He loves you and so do all of us and He will lift you back again if you will let Him!! Try to be calm and sort your thoughts a little and just go to God and pray. He knows your heart already and He knows what you need. He is waiting for you to come to Him sister!! Please hang on and dont let go because He has not let go of you even if it seems as though He has. Remember- just because it seems He is distant and quiet, He is always at work! You cant go by sight or by feelings sister- you know you have to go by faith. We serve a mighty and faithful God and He will forgive you and understands your hurt and anger. He can take hurt and anger- and He will also mend your broken heart and spirit.
I will pray for you and your dad and the rest of your family as well. Please let us know of your progress.
Much love to you,
Wendy

 

[Gracealone]

Will be praying for you Nermeen.....

I would like to share with you, that you are not alone in this, and God keeps his promises to never leave's nor forsake us.
We may go through a bad time, and God know's that, for he goes through it with us, I know!

At the age of thirteen my Mom abandoned myself,and my younger twin sisters.
Came home one day and she was gone, no word of why, or anything.

I went looking for her with a family, but they abducted me, thought they could make money off me so put me in a Tavern to sing....yes, at 13!
But a Christian lady got word,and turned them in, so that led to me finding my Mom again. but the same Summer, my Uncle was either murdered, or committed suicide also.
It had been to much for me so I quit school, and went to work.
That led to trauma, and a near breakdown, so ran away.
Tried to go back home, but Mom sent me away again, and that led to my turning my back on God.
After she had sent me back to the situation I was trying to protect myself from, she then wrote and accused me of terrible things I had no knowledge of even.
I remember reading her words, and felt a knife like pain in my heart, and that was when I blamed God.
I said in my heart,If that is what God does for you,I want no part of him.
My Mom was my representitive of my Lord.....and the pain was to much for me.
I was 14 now, and soon to be raped.
I married the man who raped me thinking God would be mad at me, and lived another 10 years in a rape situation, and mental abuse, but then God came to me again, in Germany, to remind me of the day he spoke to me and saved my life.
I was so sick I couldnt wake up, but during that time he took me back in memory of the day he made himself known to me, and said to me, "That was real! You need to come back to God."
Three times he spoke to my heart, saying the same thing, You need to come back to God.
When I agreed, Yes! I need to return to my Lord, the fog lifted and I started my journey back to the only one who truly loved me.

What I am saying in this is God knows all about your trouble, and the cares of your heart, but he does allow us our choices. I was to young to understand any of the things I was going through, but God did, and he was faithful to keep me even though I was unfaithful to him.

You dont want to leave the one who can see you through these hardships, but cling to him even closer.
He will answer your hearts cry, and give you Grace, and strength to walk though this time of trouble.
IN my ignorance I made choices I am still paying consequences from.
Dont ever turn your back on the one who loves you .
Cry out to him, be honest about how you feel, he understands, and will make a way for you .
I know for He did for me.
God hasn't forsaken you, all of us go through these kind of things.
Man is born to trouble as the sparks fly upward.
These trials are common to mankind, but for those who cling to Jesus, he has promised grace to overcome.
He promised, so have faith and keep trusting .

 

[judgement]

i pray this helps you

hi i know how you feel i lost my dad 4 months ago to lung cancer. i have been following JESUS for 6 years and i had no idea what was coming my way. but a storm came at me and i could do nothing in my power to stop my dad from dying. what made matters worse was he was not saved and he would not accept the way to salvation through the bible but he created a GOD in his own mind that he liked and that he worshipped but could not save him. i am still young in the faith and i had never lost someone i loved and was so close to, seeing him the way he was was painfull and for 2 years i have been telling him the truth about salvation and he did not want to hear it. so hear iam my dad is going to die and worse than that he is going to die in his sins it was almost to much for me to take. but GOD showing his mercy opened up my dads heart to hear the gosple of repentance and faith for forgiveness of his sins, PRAISE YOU JESUS for your love and kindness. i got to spend the last month talking about the gospel and heaven and when he came home for his last 2 days to die in his home the smiles and the peace he had and showed those nurses was priceless, iam crying as iam writing this, we love you sister and JESUS does to, turn to him put all your faith and trust in him he can make a storm pass us with no harm if we just let him. even if my dad would have died in his sins it would hurt but i would have thanked him for the last month because he gave me some time with my dad which was a blessing to me and i would thank my lord and PRAISE him and love him no matter what. may GOD BLESS YOU and i will pray for you and your family

 

[Gracealone]

My heart rejoices with you! How Wonderful!
I too had an older sister who came to the Lord, just before she died.
We , my younger twin sisters,and I had tried to talk to her for years, and she wouldn't even acknowledge that we had spoken to her.
Just before she passed I wrote what was to be my last letter to her, giving her the simple plan of salvation, from Chuck Smiths church in Costa mesa, she called just before she died, and told us She would see us in Heaven, and that she knew it would be Better then.
Simple words of faith, from one who only had a few words left.
Like the thief on the cross......Remember me when you enter your Kingdom.
What a loving, gracious God we have, Praise his name forever!

 

[all4jesus17]

I know how you feel sister! Please don't lose hope and don't lose faith. My dad was diagnosed with liver cancer 2 years ago and I didnt know what to do either. I didnt know what you were supposed to do or feel like in situations like that. I know God's will is greater than ours, but I didnt want to lose him. I was like you, angry, sad, but because I know God and his love, i had a strand of hope. So sister, you need to hold on to that strand, i can see you know and love the lord, and sometimes we arnt gonna have the highest of faith and a great smile on our face. It's in those times when we have to be real with God, and even though it's hard, just say,"God i'm giveing it all to you." We cant do it on our own sister. Christ is with you and he is close to the broken hearted. Dont give up, Beleive . I'm praying for you and your Dad. GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I!

 

[Property Of God]

Thank you all, all of your prayers have been heard, although my dad's condition stays the same, I've changed, I wish I could reach out to everyone of you and thank him/her personaly, and hug each one of you, you guys have helped more than you can ever imagine. I know God will save me, I trust Him even though it kills me inside, I trust my heavenly Father, He's Father!

and for anyone of you who has been hurt, I want you to read what good friend of mine told me, it effected me so much, wish it could help you:

"I guess life is a lot about faith. Jesus cared a lot about it when he walked the earth. one time he said that he was amazed at the faith of the centurion. it always surprises me to read that because it makes me think of how difficult it would be to amaze God. he's pretty much seen everything. so apparently God cares a lot about it."


May you all be able to amaze Him
I love you from my heart.
God bless.