keep praying please
thank you so far for praying, please keep lifting my husband and myself up in prayer.
Ok I feel the need to tell you what is going on in my life. I will just confess now, my husband now knows of my infidelity from a few years ago. It is something I have carried around all this time. I know the Lord forgives me, and I have grown very much in Him since then.
I am very repentent of what I did, and I have experienced the vastness of God and His grace, mercy, forgiveness, His abounding love. I have been humbled through this experience, I have seen how Holy and sovereign God is, how we are to repent of our sin and fall on our knees before Him. We cannot get away with our sin. We cannot hide. I am not the same person as I was back then and it has been a long journey for me, but now the journey has just begun for my husband, who is crushed and in alot of pain, it is fresh to him. You may ask why confess such a horrible thing, well it was the Lord's timing for me to tell. God made it clear to me that I would have to tell my husband one day, and I asked God to let me know very clearly when that time would be.
I hurt so much, because my hubby is hurting, the pain is very raw in my husband. I love him desperately, and I wish I could change things, but I cannot. Only the Lord can heal the pain, and comfort my husband.
Though we both need prayer, Please pray for my husband specifically, my husband is saved, his walk with the Lord is not very strong, but it is there. We do not have any friends as such, we are new to the area, and there is no one close he can talk to.
I did seek counsel from the lady from our church. I needed help and the Lord gave her to me. God used this lady to minister to me in a wonderful way. She said that herself and her husband who is an elder at our church would be there for us both if we needed them. I am aware that my husband and I have a long road ahead, and I may have to withstand some possible reactions from my husband, anger, distance, etc....
So far I have seen only the Grace of God in my husband, he says he forgives me and has been cordial towards me, he expressed the pain he was in and how stunned he is. His response towards me is more than I could have ever expected.

to all of you for your kindness and prayers.
Calluna