I had been blaming GOD for almost every mishap in my life until recently. Things could only get worse, my father's detereorating condition, the pain the suffering was incomprehensible and then one night he passed away. And I was not there. I did not say goodbye. I thought I had been robbed of what was the most precious thing in my life. And GOD I felt had done nothing. I never really understood it nor accepted that he had been taken away. I always thought there were things that were left unsaid, undone. A harsh reality to have to live with.
Years went by the intense pain had subsided but there was always a feeling of remorse, a bitterness. I just could not let go.
We so often turn to people for comfort and support but there is always so much that man can give. And it is more often the case than not that one comes to a dead-end, becomes disenheartened and loses even more hope. Draws further and further away from GOD. It is like a recurring dream which often turns into a nightmare.
A few months ago I just happened to fall upon this site dear friends. It was a time in my life where all I felt was that I needed something, somebody to fill the great void in my life. I was simply drawn to it. I have been blessed to have made true friendships with brothers and sisters in Jesus who have acted as vessels in Christ to guide me towards asking for forgiveness accepting our friend and Saviour Jesus into my life.
It was only then that I was able to forgive myself, to let go of my dad. To be at peace.
Life is by no means easy or easier now, but there is one significant difference I do not walk alone. Jesus is my shadow walking by me, ahead of me, pathing the way or even behind me, supporting me when I once again feel weak or begin to falter. I have faith in HIM and thank HIM for just being there.
He is my ALL in ALL.
"Be on the guard, stand firm in faith, be men of courage, do everything in love"
Years went by the intense pain had subsided but there was always a feeling of remorse, a bitterness. I just could not let go.
We so often turn to people for comfort and support but there is always so much that man can give. And it is more often the case than not that one comes to a dead-end, becomes disenheartened and loses even more hope. Draws further and further away from GOD. It is like a recurring dream which often turns into a nightmare.
A few months ago I just happened to fall upon this site dear friends. It was a time in my life where all I felt was that I needed something, somebody to fill the great void in my life. I was simply drawn to it. I have been blessed to have made true friendships with brothers and sisters in Jesus who have acted as vessels in Christ to guide me towards asking for forgiveness accepting our friend and Saviour Jesus into my life.
It was only then that I was able to forgive myself, to let go of my dad. To be at peace.
Life is by no means easy or easier now, but there is one significant difference I do not walk alone. Jesus is my shadow walking by me, ahead of me, pathing the way or even behind me, supporting me when I once again feel weak or begin to falter. I have faith in HIM and thank HIM for just being there.
He is my ALL in ALL.
"Be on the guard, stand firm in faith, be men of courage, do everything in love"