lost faith

I've been on a roller coster of emotions. I think I hear from God then the opposite happens. I need to be closer to God but I'm doubtful at times. My hope has made me sick. We all go through things I understand. My battles and fights are all being lost. World so unfair and I'm blessed but evil...

A bit of back story before I begin to tell the story of all that has befallen my child, and though he still may be lost to God I love him dearly. My family consists of me, my wife Anne and my son Eli. We live way out in outback Australia and farm for a living, growing most of what we eat. It's...