God Yahweh saved me not only once from suicide but I want to specifically mention the miracle I’ve encountered near the end of last year.
I lost my job in May 2019 due to malicious gossip and an ex-colleague that tried to ruin my reputation and working relationships out of envy and jealousy. I treated her nicely but she still won’t let me off the hook. People believed in her because she disguised her ill intentions very well and made it seem like she just saw me in a negative light. But her true intention was to sow mistrust against me and force me to quit. She spread her negative view about me everywhere and made other colleagues form misconceptions about me. My working relationships were jeopardise even though I did nothing wrong. My character was called into question even by the boss because the gossip spread to him eventually. I was filled with fear and dread every day. Even though I was later found to be innocent I had to quit because this woman was hellbent on portraying me as a bad person to everyone around me. I was afraid she might set me up if I continued to stay.
I fell into depression months later after my resignation. One day I just couldn’t take it. I walked out of my house and then got myself into a hotel so I could take sleeping pills and end my life. I wept for two nights and told God I’m sorry I just don’t see any point in living anymore.
But when I went out to buy sleeping pills from a pharmacy I was told they don’t sell sleeping pills. It was odd, as though they just didn’t want to sell it to me. But I never even told them I was planning to commit suicide. Meanwhile my mom was trying to find me. My phone was off and I was out of contact. There were many hotels and I was so confident that she will not find me before I have ended my life. But she did, and she found me not long after I failed to get any sleeping pills. Miraculously she found the exact hotel I was in. My plan to commit suicide didn’t materialise.
I felt in my gut that it was God who intervened to save me. If not, how could my mom find me so quickly and why did a pharmacy claim not to have sleeping pills? If God did not intervene this way I would have been dead last year.
I’m sharing this to show you people how merciful God has been to me. He does listen to the broken-hearted, especially those who are actively seeking Him for deliverance. So many people commit suicide each day and if only they would have cried out to Him.
I lost my job in May 2019 due to malicious gossip and an ex-colleague that tried to ruin my reputation and working relationships out of envy and jealousy. I treated her nicely but she still won’t let me off the hook. People believed in her because she disguised her ill intentions very well and made it seem like she just saw me in a negative light. But her true intention was to sow mistrust against me and force me to quit. She spread her negative view about me everywhere and made other colleagues form misconceptions about me. My working relationships were jeopardise even though I did nothing wrong. My character was called into question even by the boss because the gossip spread to him eventually. I was filled with fear and dread every day. Even though I was later found to be innocent I had to quit because this woman was hellbent on portraying me as a bad person to everyone around me. I was afraid she might set me up if I continued to stay.
I fell into depression months later after my resignation. One day I just couldn’t take it. I walked out of my house and then got myself into a hotel so I could take sleeping pills and end my life. I wept for two nights and told God I’m sorry I just don’t see any point in living anymore.
But when I went out to buy sleeping pills from a pharmacy I was told they don’t sell sleeping pills. It was odd, as though they just didn’t want to sell it to me. But I never even told them I was planning to commit suicide. Meanwhile my mom was trying to find me. My phone was off and I was out of contact. There were many hotels and I was so confident that she will not find me before I have ended my life. But she did, and she found me not long after I failed to get any sleeping pills. Miraculously she found the exact hotel I was in. My plan to commit suicide didn’t materialise.
I felt in my gut that it was God who intervened to save me. If not, how could my mom find me so quickly and why did a pharmacy claim not to have sleeping pills? If God did not intervene this way I would have been dead last year.
I’m sharing this to show you people how merciful God has been to me. He does listen to the broken-hearted, especially those who are actively seeking Him for deliverance. So many people commit suicide each day and if only they would have cried out to Him.
Yes we’ve both felt the pain of slander and false accusation, and the beautiful thing about that is we are suffering in the same way Jesus suffered. To know exactly how Jesus felt when He was being slandered and falsely accused is a privilege.
