Hi..
I would like to add something here.Even though I wasn't a drug addict I was addicted to something else which has something to do with relationships.It's basically due to my loneliness and as I was a very sensitive person who was searching for the least drop of love.Even though i wanted to quit my addiction so badly I couldnt do it as I was scared that I'll lose the relationship.But I was so fed up and wanted to quit.I tried so hard and God spoke to me in so many ways asking me to stop what I was doing.When he speaks I used to commit myself but again after two three days I use to fall into the same situation.I was like this for more than two years.Here I would like to explian u some facts which I think will be usefull to u.
- Why I fell into this situation : I was never an addict by birth.U too are the same.But, then why I fell into this?? Cz I was lonely.I never had any one to love me.I knew God is there.But, I wanted someone to be with me whom I can feel and see..What abt u?? What is the reason which caused u to fall into this situation?? (U have to think.....)
- There are so many ppl in the world who do not want to quit what they are going through.But, u and I wanted to quit.We realized that we are already at fault by doing this.That's y u are asking for help so honestly and that's y u have put the effort of getting registered in Talk Jesus.Isn't it?? That means..God has a special plan for u..Holy Spirit is warning u..That means he loves u so much...I felt the same way.Now it's ur chance to get to understand that..God cares for u..
- When ever I felt that the Holy spirit is warning me I made a commitment not to fall into the same situation.I have confessed nearly thousand times and cried out my heart till my eyes got swollen.But, after two three days I forgot everything and went back as a dog returns back to it's own vommit.Feels awefull ryt?? But, this is the truth..
I hope now u are getting to understand something..
Few months back..something really changed me..I don't know what it is.But, with time I got to understand that I have changed.I really don't know how to explain it.But, I since that day onwards I'm not in touch with ny of those ppl I used to know.
I changed my job.I found a job which is very hectic where I don't get a single minute to idle.
I changed my mobile no: and now it's only my family members, my church members and my colleagues are the ones who know my mobile no:
Even though I get calls from unknown no:s I get someone else to answer.I don't answer any call after 9.00pm.
I work so hard and I like to get busy with my work.From 9 am to 6.30pm I work at a stretch.During that period even if I like I don't get any chance to call or chat with any body.By the time I finish, it's dark and I have to run to catch a bus.
By the time I go home I'm half dead.As I'm involved in so many church activities, I have to go to church every four days a week after work.I hope now u can imagine what my daily routine is like.Every week day when I go home it's nearly 8.30.Every saturday even though I work for half a day I go to church in the afternoon and go home around 7.30.As I said earlier by the time I go home I'm half dead.So, I go home so eagerly just to have a good night sleep.Bcz of that I don't get to watch TV or to do anything other than sleeping.
Every morning I wake up by 5am and pray for nearly 30 - 45 minutes.I never miss it.As I have to leave home by 7.30 I dont have time to read the bible.So once I get into the bus, i go to a corner seat and read the bible.
As I'm involved in ministries, every sunday I go to church by 8.30am and return home around 8.30pm.It's bcz there are two services which I need to attend.Morning service and evening service.
I don't know whether this is boring.But, I hope u'll get something out of this.
Once I started doing this I felt that I'm getting closer to God.I felt that I have fallen in love with him.Bcz of that I couldn't stay without praying.Even when I travel, when I'm on my bed I talk to him as to a best friend.Day by day I got closer to him in this manner.Still I'm getting closer to him.When I got closer to him every thing changed.I only wanted to please him.So I started doing every possible thing which can please him.There's so much in me which needs to be changed.So I'm praying for him to show me my weeknesses and to give me strength to change.
You know the most wonderful thing I experienced during this period?? He gave me so many promises.He spoke to me directly and through men of God..I would like to share those promises with u..all are linked to one another even though I got these in different ways.
1st promise : Isaiah 62 : 1-5 (He spoke to me directly)
2nd promise : Genesis 12 : 2 (The promise I got on the 31st December 2007 - My new year promise)
3rd promise : Deutronomy 28 : 1-2 (The promise he gave me through my pastor)
I was so excited about these and I was waiting for a change.Suddenly one month back he called me for his ministries.As a worship leader and a youth leader.
In my church it's a great priviledge to get a chance to serve as a worship leader.Only those who are so commited to lord are the ones who lead worship.I never thought that I'll get this chance as I was having a sinfull life.But, I desired so much.
But, when I fully committed..He fulfilled my desire..
What I wanted to show you is that u need to take the precautions which prevent you from going back.As I left my job and found a new job and changed my mobile no: etc...
But, u can't do this from ur own strength.So u need to ask for God's help each and every day..Don't miss it.
Once you start communicating with God, u'll get closer to him..with time you'll fall in love..Once you fall in love with him, you will start doing every thing to please him.That's natural..
This way you can quit your addiction..
Guaranteed 100%
Mihiri
