Need Urgent help !!

[Cheryl lafferty]

I live 8n Bethlehem city 8n NC, right off a road named Devil's Track and old Devil's Track. I have a fatherless 14 year old daughter and two sons. One which was born on Halloween and serving in the Marines in Japan and a second son who was the only one out of them planned. I've been having night mares of hell. I saw a real demon when I was pregnant with my Halloween baby boy, Dustin 22 years now my first boy. I wasn't on drugs then ever but I guarantee it was real. I felt the heat from it's breathe as it came closer to me with big long sharp teeth that trashed together and black hollow eyes and nose with just a face no sides or body to it. It looked like a old Skelton kinda like an Aileen shaped head or facial features like an Indian. But I felt the heat and smelled the sulfar. I tried screaming for my dad at first nothing came out then finally I belted out a screammt daddy came running opened my door it turned it's face to him and vanished and I never seen it again. I was 5 months pregnant and went into labor soon after three times until they gave me a cearsearn at 8 months. Now I hear voices of things from the radio the TV or internet. I dream of hell and once I woke up and could still smell it. . Today there are those I've listened to claiming to be witches and I'm in a city with it's name being Bethlehem off and between old devil track and devil track road. I'm afraid the family I'm married into now are holding me to do some kind of demon cult rutrual with my daughter because she's still a virgin and was born from my infedeliry while married to my first husband. Things i hear have lead me to believe this. My son hates me and may be a for runner. I love him regardless if he was. I told my kids if Jesus but showed them the path of destruction. So I'm just peicing the times of my life together and maybe I'm just paranoid. Before I was pregnant before the demon I had played on a wedje board with three ppl. One called himself a warlock one a wizard and the other a witch and I was the one who didn't believe in them but Jesus and low and behold that board started moving. I'm afraid with all the circumstances and I don't believe in coisedences. Could I be the jezable that named the Antichrist. Please someone it's time for the end and this is my story. I'm begging I have noone and no where to go. They all call me crazy and hopefully I am but I'm scared for my life my daughter and my son's not to mention the w

 

[PloughBoy]

Cheryl, pick up your Bible beginning in the New Testament with Mathew are just read and. Don’t stop! No matter what , let no one know you are reading. And let that be the last thing you do before going to bed. Let no one know what you are doing! No matter what. It is going to be a battle, Tell Jesus to help you read through. Then do it again. Have a dictionary by you, when you don’t understand a word look it up. Do not skip a word you don’t understand.

 

[Hekuran]

There are two main options for understanding what is happening. The first is that all these things are the product of your own mind, and you've pieced different experiences together in a way that has you badly frightened.

The second option is that you are being oppressed by real forces of evil.

Either way, two things remain true. 1. Jesus is lord over all creation, principalities, seen and unseen. 2. You need to get some help.

From the way you describe the situation, it sounds like you are going through this alone. That's not good.

Most mainline churches have clear processes on dealing with demonic forces - for example pastors get permission from a bishop or senior body before they are permitted to conduct exorcisms. In your case I think that's a good thing.

Go to an established church and ask them to point you in the direction of someone who is licensed to deal with these issues.

I say this because I know that there are many people who are well meaning, but not wise in these areas- you want to be with someone who will keep you safe.

Ultimately, Jesus has defeated the evil one and all his works. If you are following him, you are on the winning side. Have hope.

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

Cheryl, pick up your Bible beginning in the New Testament with Mathew are just read and. Don’t stop! No matter what , let no one know you are reading. And let that be the last thing you do before going to bed. Let no one know what you are doing! No matter what. It is going to be a battle, Tell Jesus to help you read through. Then do it again. Have a dictionary by you, when you don’t understand a word look it up. Do not skip a word you don’t understand. ❤

Thank you I will and this will help to stop what's happening you believe

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

There are two main options for understanding what is happening. The first is that all these things are the product of your own mind, and you've pieced different experiences together in a way that has you badly frightened.

The second option is that you are being oppressed by real forces of evil.

Either way, two things remain true. 1. Jesus is lord over all creation, principalities, seen and unseen. 2. You need to get some help.

From the way you describe the situation, it sounds like you are going through this alone. That's not good.

Most mainline churches have clear processes on dealing with demonic forces - for example pastors get permission from a bishop or senior body before they are permitted to conduct exorcisms. In your case I think that's a good thing.

Go to an established church and ask them to point you in the direction of someone who is licensed to deal with these issues.

I say this because I know that there are many people who are well meaning, but not wise in these areas- you want to be with someone who will keep you safe.

Ultimately, Jesus has defeated the evil one and all his works. If you are following him, you are on the winning side. Have hope.

Thank you I will do my best I been trying to go to church and every time Sunday rolls around I'm in a different state of mind. I find it hard to talk to anyone about it personally and meeting people is hard for me here. I have a history of unfavorable thingsb thats allowed everyone nowadays to learn u just by looking u up on the net and I can't find the courage to face new pol. Because I'm always hearing stuff and I'm afraid who I might be dealing with here. I feel as tho everything I do I'm being watched and analazed like they put things in front of me to get the better part of my mind gone away from me feeling as tho I can try anything. Sometimes I'm so scared listening to my surroundings I can't get out of bed I'm paralized with fear literally scared to even move. I do have issues and atm I'm not hearing anything and I'm able to reach out but it changes fast. I only hope to do exactly what u say and it all be over. It's all in my mind I know but it seems so real for me and what maybe just what if it is real. The end times have to come and there are practicing witchcraft around me
In case I do ever go missing or something I'm just trying to reach out to someone. Noone would believe me here and I'm already understood as being insane. I'm grateful to you for ur advice and time

 

[Andyindauk]

Hi Cheryl, oh dear, poor you, you've been dabbling in the dark side and found it very scary, got your fingers burnt and it all seems to have messed up your mental health. Just as bad, it's messed up your relationship with your kids. BTW, whether they were planned, in or out of wedlock, they're still your kids and they need your love.

Can I please beg, urge and implore you to have nothing more to do with any of that stuff. It's pretty dangerous.

Dear Cheryl, I think you've realised that things aren't working out for you. You need some major changes in your life. You seem up to your neck in yeucky stuff and I think that only God can get you out of it.

It needs you to give everything to God, give everything to Him and ask Him to rescue you. God tells us that His most important command is to love Him with everything Luke 10:27.

When you've made that commitment to God you've become a Christian and you can then start a one2one relationship with God with regular or even constant prayer. Please ask God to heal you, you have demonic forces surrounding you and maybe even inside you. Pray for rescue from this and then protection.

God can do this very easily. He has a very powerful spirit He calls our helped AKA the Holy Spirit. He will send that to you and very quickly you'll notice the difference. So will your family, you'll be able to ease tensions and repair relationships.

Can I suggest you download an app called YouVersion on your phone or tablet? It's a Bible in loads of different versions (New International is popular, and there's loads of study plans to help you get a good understanding of the Bible.

Please also find a church to go to. I'd try and find one that's quite big and has a good level of pastoral care. Speak to the minister/pastor/vicar and ask him if there are members who live nearby who could befriend and support you.

Satan and his cohorts hate you simply because God loves you. They want to bring you down and eventually your death. God wants to make your life amazing, full of purpose and happiness, never to end. This is your choice and there's so much riding on it, you've no idea. I really really hope that you make the right decision.

============

Dear Lord God,

Can I please beg of you to rescue poor Cheryl from this dire situation that she's drifted into. Reveal some of your power to her, power to rescue and heal her. Please Lord give comfort to her stressed out mind and give her the protection from your enemies that she needs. Fill her with your Holy Spirit God to give Her your inner peace and strength that can only come from you.

Dear God, we do get ourselves into some strange pickles but thankfully because your son Jesus died to clean up our sins we can look immediately to you for our rescue.

Thank you God for such love.

Amen

 

[PloughBoy]

King James Bible
The LORD said unto my Lord, Sit thou on my right hand, till I make thine enemies thy footstool?

 

[Fragrant Grace]

Now unto Him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy,
To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.
Jude 23 & 24

Greetings @Cheryl lafferty

The verse says He is able

Thats a promise that will never fail you Cheryl.

Look to the Lord...not to the darkness and trust Him to get you through this.

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

Now unto Him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy,
To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and ever. Amen.
Jude 23 & 24

Greetings @Cheryl lafferty

The verse says He is able

Thats a promise that will never fail you Cheryl.

Look to the Lord...not to the darkness and trust Him to get you through this.

Thank you greatly for ur time

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

Hi Cheryl, oh dear, poor you, you've been dabbling in the dark side and found it very scary, got your fingers burnt and it all seems to have messed up your mental health. Just as bad, it's messed up your relationship with your kids. BTW, whether they were planned, in or out of wedlock, they're still your kids and they need your love.

Can I please beg, urge and implore you to have nothing more to do with any of that stuff. It's pretty dangerous.

Dear Cheryl, I think you've realised that things aren't working out for you. You need some major changes in your life. You seem up to your neck in yeucky stuff and I think that only God can get you out of it.

It needs you to give everything to God, give everything to Him and ask Him to rescue you. God tells us that His most important command is to love Him with everything Luke 10:27.

When you've made that commitment to God you've become a Christian and you can then start a one2one relationship with God with regular or even constant prayer. Please ask God to heal you, you have demonic forces surrounding you and maybe even inside you. Pray for rescue from this and then protection.

God can do this very easily. He has a very powerful spirit He calls our helped AKA the Holy Spirit. He will send that to you and very quickly you'll notice the difference. So will your family, you'll be able to ease tensions and repair relationships.

Can I suggest you download an app called YouVersion on your phone or tablet? It's a Bible in loads of different versions (New International is popular, and there's loads of study plans to help you get a good understanding of the Bible.

Please also find a church to go to. I'd try and find one that's quite big and has a good level of pastoral care. Speak to the minister/pastor/vicar and ask him if there are members who live nearby who could befriend and support you.

Satan and his cohorts hate you simply because God loves you. They want to bring you down and eventually your death. God wants to make your life amazing, full of purpose and happiness, never to end. This is your choice and there's so much riding on it, you've no idea. I really really hope that you make the right decision.

============

Dear Lord God,

Can I please beg of you to rescue poor Cheryl from this dire situation that she's drifted into. Reveal some of your power to her, power to rescue and heal her. Please Lord give comfort to her stressed out mind and give her the protection from your enemies that she needs. Fill her with your Holy Spirit God to give Her your inner peace and strength that can only come from you.

Dear God, we do get ourselves into some strange pickles but thankfully because your son Jesus died to clean up our sins we can look immediately to you for our rescue.

Thank you God for such love.

Amen

Thank you so much for your care and time. I read these responses and feel so encouraged . Can a person loose their salvation. Is it as simple as asking and what if you keep doubting it. I am slack on my prayers. I am so scared I'm going to be one of those people who awake in hell thinking they were saved . How can one not make it to Heaven if one believes they are saved. That has always terrified me and probably the root to all this. I don't mess with witchcraft except that one time and I'd never dare attempt something so foolishly dangerous. I just really appreciate ur time and love your prayer. Thanks again!

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

King James Bible
The LORD said unto my Lord, Sit thou on my right hand, till I make thine enemies thy footstool?

Please Jesus Amen

 

[Headcasey669]

DONT FK WITH THAT BOARD AGAIN!!! Bloody hell woman what were you thinking.... Please it is linked to forces you will never comprehend. Now that said Jesus will forgive you for this vile act but you must act on it now go and pray to him and beg his forgiveness. Next the demons may still come after you, what you must understand is you have invited them into your life as stupid as you are. But do not worry have ultimate faith in the lord, if they come for you call on the name of Jehovah, he will be your sword and your shield... but it is a double edged sword. Do not ever ask for his help in this way and ever betray him again.

I will pray for you now to the lord that these demons leave you alone.
Though jesus Christ our lord.
And all my love. X

 

[Andyindauk]

Thank you so much for your care and time. I read these responses and feel so encouraged . Can a person loose their salvation. Is it as simple as asking and what if you keep doubting it. I am slack on my prayers. I am so scared I'm going to be one of those people who awake in hell thinking they were saved . How can one not make it to Heaven if one believes they are saved. That has always terrified me and probably the root to all this. I don't mess with witchcraft except that one time and I'd never dare attempt something so foolishly dangerous. I just really appreciate ur time and love your prayer. Thanks again!

Hi Cheryl,

You raise a hotly debated topic there, theologians over the centuries have come to blows as to whether you can or cannot lose your faith. My view on this question is this, that anyone who gets so hot under the collar over a theoretical question like that has got too much time on their hands. It's a theory you'd never want to test; why would you?

From what you've described, I think that if you didn't, you came very close to swapping sides and renouncing your faith so please either commit or recommit your life to God, start again with something like the 'sinner's prayer'. The relevant Bible passage that screams out at me is my favourite in the whole Bible, Luke 15:11-24 the story of the Prodigal Son. I can so relate to that lad, sends a shiver down me every time I read it. It tells me that no one but no one is beyond God's redemption, there is literally no unforgivable sin that's greater than Jesus's victory - absolutely none. God loves you literally to death, His son's death, He wants you so badly and when you're hurting and being hurt like you are He can feel your anguish and pain; He's with you. He's calling you back, loud and clear. So please, please stop reading this now and tell God you're sorry and regret doing a disappearing act and you want to come back and Him to take over.


If you did that, brilliant! Welcome back. BTW did you know that there's a party going on in Heaven, that'll probably carry on for a few days yet Luke 15:7

Now girl, you need to build on your re-found faith. Lots of prayer thanking God for welcoming you back into his protective fold, keep telling Him what it is you love about Him, loads of praise and worship. Beg, beg, beg for His Holy Spirit to have unfettered access to your heart and head to begin the repair work of all the damage to your life. Prayer, read the Bible (preferably with a relevant study plan) and get yourself involved with a good evangelical church.

Stick to that and everything's going to be fine. You might even make a few brothers and sisters jealous and resentful of your progress Luke 15:25:31

=================================

Dear Lord God, I hate to interrupt your party but I just want to say thank you, thank you, thank you that no matter how far we wander from you, the journey back takes just a few seconds to say, sorry God, please forgive me. Never whilst we're here on Earth will you every say to us, 'That's it - I don't want to know you'. There is just no end to your wonderful love God. I know Lord that until I go upstairs to be with you, I'll never really understand just how horrific an ordeal you rescued me from. Thank you again God, I cannot say thank you enough God.

I pray for dear little Cheryl, that once she has accepted or re-accepted you back as in total control of her life, that you'll get to work in restoring her soul and spirit back to rude health and a growing and developing love, adoration and experience of you, constantly in her life. In advance, that you God, thank you for answering this prayer and being such a loving God to dear Cheryl.

Amen.

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

Hi Cheryl,

You raise a hotly debated topic there, theologians over the centuries have come to blows as to whether you can or cannot lose your faith. My view on this question is this, that anyone who gets so hot under the collar over a theoretical question like that has got too much time on their hands. It's a theory you'd never want to test; why would you?

From what you've described, I think that if you didn't, you came very close to swapping sides and renouncing your faith so please either commit or recommit your life to God, start again with something like the 'sinner's prayer'. The relevant Bible passage that screams out at me is my favourite in the whole Bible, Luke 15:11-24 the story of the Prodigal Son. I can so relate to that lad, sends a shiver down me every time I read it. It tells me that no one but no one is beyond God's redemption, there is literally no unforgivable sin that's greater than Jesus's victory - absolutely none. God loves you literally to death, His son's death, He wants you so badly and when you're hurting and being hurt like you are He can feel your anguish and pain; He's with you. He's calling you back, loud and clear. So please, please stop reading this now and tell God you're sorry and regret doing a disappearing act and you want to come back and Him to take over.


If you did that, brilliant! Welcome back. BTW did you know that there's a party going on in Heaven, that'll probably carry on for a few days yet Luke 15:7

Now girl, you need to build on your re-found faith. Lots of prayer thanking God for welcoming you back into his protective fold, keep telling Him what it is you love about Him, loads of praise and worship. Beg, beg, beg for His Holy Spirit to have unfettered access to your heart and head to begin the repair work of all the damage to your life. Prayer, read the Bible (preferably with a relevant study plan) and get yourself involved with a good evangelical church.

Stick to that and everything's going to be fine. You might even make a few brothers and sisters jealous and resentful of your progress Luke 15:25:31

=================================

Dear Lord God, I hate to interrupt your party but I just want to say thank you, thank you, thank you that no matter how far we wander from you, the journey back takes just a few seconds to say, sorry God, please forgive me. Never whilst we're here on Earth will you every say to us, 'That's it - I don't want to know you'. There is just no end to your wonderful love God. I know Lord that until I go upstairs to be with you, I'll never really understand just how horrific an ordeal you rescued me from. Thank you again God, I cannot say thank you enough God.

I pray for dear little Cheryl, that once she has accepted or re-accepted you back as in total control of her life, that you'll get to work in restoring her soul and spirit back to rude health and a growing and developing love, adoration and experience of you, constantly in her life. In advance, that you God, thank you for answering this prayer and being such a loving God to dear Cheryl.

Amen.

Thank you Andyindauk, you sound wonderful and joyful about praising the Lord and I want to have it the way I feel as tho you have it. You make me excited and hopeful to be part of Jesus again. Thanks thanks allot fo

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

Thank you Andyindauk, you sound wonderful and joyful about praising the Lord and I want to have it the way I feel as tho you have it. You make me excited and hopeful to be part of Jesus again. Thanks thanks allot for your words of encouraging power . It really hit home and I'll read 8n Luke and I hope the best from it

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

DONT FK WITH THAT BOARD AGAIN!!! Bloody hell woman what were you thinking.... Please it is linked to forces you will never comprehend. Now that said Jesus will forgive you for this vile act but you must act on it now go and pray to him and beg his forgiveness. Next the demons may still come after you, what you must understand is you have invited them into your life as stupid as you are. But do not worry have ultimate faith in the lord, if they come for you call on the name of Jehovah, he will be your sword and your shield... but it is a double edged sword. Do not ever ask for his help in this way and ever betray him again.

I will pray for you now to the lord that these demons leave you alone.
Though jesus Christ our lord.
And all my love. X

Wow,thanks and I never thought it would hurt in this way I'd never do it again. Yes it linked me to you wouldn't believe the things I'm subject to now, Exactly what words should I say to make them go when it happens again please tell me exactly. Thanks for ur honesty ur time and ur prayer.

 

[William L. P.]

I live 8n Bethlehem city 8n NC, right off a road named Devil's Track and old Devil's Track. I have a fatherless 14 year old daughter and two sons. One which was born on Halloween and serving in the Marines in Japan and a second son who was the only one out of them planned. I've been having night mares of hell. I saw a real demon when I was pregnant with my Halloween baby boy, Dustin 22 years now my first boy. I wasn't on drugs then ever but I guarantee it was real. I felt the heat from it's breathe as it came closer to me with big long sharp teeth that trashed together and black hollow eyes and nose with just a face no sides or body to it. It looked like a old Skelton kinda like an Aileen shaped head or facial features like an Indian. But I felt the heat and smelled the sulfar. I tried screaming for my dad at first nothing came out then finally I belted out a screammt daddy came running opened my door it turned it's face to him and vanished and I never seen it again. I was 5 months pregnant and went into labor soon after three times until they gave me a cearsearn at 8 months. Now I hear voices of things from the radio the TV or internet. I dream of hell and once I woke up and could still smell it. . Today there are those I've listened to claiming to be witches and I'm in a city with it's name being Bethlehem off and between old devil track and devil track road. I'm afraid the family I'm married into now are holding me to do some kind of demon cult rutrual with my daughter because she's still a virgin and was born from my infedeliry while married to my first husband. Things i hear have lead me to believe this. My son hates me and may be a for runner. I love him regardless if he was. I told my kids if Jesus but showed them the path of destruction. So I'm just peicing the times of my life together and maybe I'm just paranoid. Before I was pregnant before the demon I had played on a wedje board with three ppl. One called himself a warlock one a wizard and the other a witch and I was the one who didn't believe in them but Jesus and low and behold that board started moving. I'm afraid with all the circumstances and I don't believe in coisedences. Could I be the jezable that named the Antichrist. Please someone it's time for the end and this is my story. I'm begging I have noone and no where to go. They all call me crazy and hopefully I am but I'm scared for my life my daughter and my son's not to mention the w

I have prayed on what to say on this and this is what I feel that God would have me say:
It sounds like you have surrounded yourself with people who are evil, "I'm afraid the family I'm married into now are holding me to do some kind of demon cult rutrual" "One called himself a warlock one a wizard and the other a witch"
"Before I was pregnant before the demon I had played on a wedje board with three ppl." IF you truly love your children and yourself you will "GET OUT" run don't walk go to a church of God and get help tell them you think you maybe possessed
and even your children if you do not get help from the first one go till someone does help you Pray with all your heart and soul for God to help you in this. And if you have to leave everything behind to do it leave it! Take nothing that these people have had anything to do with demons can attach themselves to "things" as well as people. "I'm begging I have no one and no where to go." You are wrong you have God to turn to, you have the church to turn too. Faith and God are what you need more than anything else. Then turn from your past and never look back!

John 3:16-20
“For God loved the world in this way: He gave His One and Only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world that He might condemn the world,
but that the world might be saved through Him. Anyone who believes in Him is not condemned, but anyone who does not believe is already condemned, because he has not believed in the name of the One and Only Son of God.
“This, then, is the judgment: The light has come into the world, and people loved darkness rather than the light because their deeds were evil. For everyone who practices wicked things hates the light and avoids it, so that his
deeds may not be exposed. But anyone who lives by the truth comes to the light, so that his works may be shown to be accomplished by God.”

 

[Cheryl lafferty]

I have prayed on what to say on this and this is what I feel that God would have me say:
It sounds like you have surrounded yourself with people who are evil, "I'm afraid the family I'm married into now are holding me to do some kind of demon cult rutrual" "One called himself a warlock one a wizard and the other a witch"
"Before I was pregnant before the demon I had played on a wedje board with three ppl." IF you truly love your children and yourself you will "GET OUT" run don't walk go to a church of God and get help tell them you think you maybe possessed
and even your children if you do not get help from the first one go till someone does help you Pray with all your heart and soul for God to help you in this. And if you have to leave everything behind to do it leave it! Take nothing that these people have had anything to do with demons can attach themselves to "things" as well as people. "I'm begging I have no one and no where to go." You are wrong you have God to turn to, you have the church to turn too. Faith and God are what you need more than anything else. Then turn from your past and never look back!

John 3:16-20
“For God loved the world in this way: He gave His One and Only Son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world that He might condemn the world,
but that the world might be saved through Him. Anyone who believes in Him is not condemned, but anyone who does not believe is already condemned, because he has not believed in the name of the One and Only Son of God.
“This, then, is the judgment: The light has come into the world, and people loved darkness rather than the light because their deeds were evil. For everyone who practices wicked things hates the light and avoids it, so that his
deeds may not be exposed. But anyone who lives by the truth comes to the light, so that his works may be shown to be accomplished by God.”

Good advice it sounds exactly had I heard it tell someone except I'm changing my path. I BELEIVE it's just me I'm just bad to the core and I spread hate and attract sin wherever I go. I'm trying to climb above and I'm scared

 

[William L. P.]

Good advice it sounds exactly had I heard it tell someone except I'm changing my path. I BELEIVE it's just me I'm just bad to the core and I spread hate and attract sin wherever I go. I'm trying to climb above and I'm scared

If you can't believe in yourself then believe in the sacrifice Jesus Christ gave for you because that is the only path to salvation. Pray for God to help you and find a church that will help! You can't do this alone period.
Read the Bible every day, study it think on it believe it.
1 Corinthians 13:1 If I can speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but am destitute of Love, I have but become a loud-sounding trumpet or a clanging cymbal.
2 If I possess the gift of prophecy and am versed in all mysteries and all knowledge, and have such absolute faith that I can remove mountains, but am destitute of Love, I am nothing.
3 And if I distribute all my possessions to the poor, and give up my body to be burned, but am destitute of Love, it profits me nothing.
4 Love is patient and kind. Love knows neither envy nor jealousy. Love is not forward and self-assertive, nor boastful and conceited.
5 Love's ways are ever fair, it takes no thought for itself; it is not quickly made angry, it takes no account of evil;
6 Love finds no pleasure in injustice done to others, but joyfully sides with the truth.
7 Love knows how to be silent. Love is full of trust, full of hope, full of patient endurance.
8 Love never fails! But if there are prophecies, they will be done away with; if there are languages, they will cease; if there is knowledge, it will be brought to an end.
9 For our knowledge is imperfect, and so is our prophesying;
10 When the perfect state of things is come, all that is imperfect will be brought to an end.
11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, felt like a child, reasoned like a child: when I became a man, I put from me childish ways.
12 For the present we see things as if in a mirror, and are puzzled; but then we shall see them face to face. For the present the knowledge I gain is imperfect; but then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13 And so there remain Faith, Hope, Love -- these three; and of these the greatest is Love.

This is what God's Kingdom is about...LOVE. It is also said in love there is forgiveness of a multitude of sins. We are to Love God with all our heart, mind and soul. Love our neighbor as ourselves.
God so love the world he gave his only begotten son so that we might live! He does not love evil but Jesus died so WE might have the hope of salvation.
But anyone who lives by the truth comes to the light, so that his works may be shown to be accomplished by God. Abandon evil and darkness and come to the light you will know true peace, security and happiness.
I wish you well in the days to come and I truly hope you seek help with this because I feel you will need lots of help! I will keep you in my prayers. But remember this those that choose to dwell in darkness cannot be helped.
God bless and keep you