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Why? From past personal experiences and looking at the life of other Christians i have to ask why we sometimes struggle with certain sins continuously. For extended periods of time sometimes lasting for years. Despite wanting change and become better people.
I know of a certain pastor (some of you might also know the story - details are not important here). He struggled for about 16 years with a particular sin, and it wore him out to the extend that he showed symptoms of a cancer patient. Literally. Loss of hair, sleepless nights, vomiting, lethargy e.t.c He knowingly said it was cancer, he knew it was not, when in actual fact the truth was that he was too ashamed/embarrassed to admit his real sin to his family, his church and his community. People prayed for this cancer patient. Their pastor. A man with a family. Serving God. Of course we all know whatever is hidden will be brought to light. People later knew the truth. At an agonizing time. Though. (Being a popular pastor from a known church, the media had a party - you guessed right.)
He had an addiction from age 12. This man suffered wanting to change for a good 16 years. Think about that. Why that long?
This story is one of the most mind boggling stories about sin which i can totally relate to. But never have a satisfactory answer to. Does God allow us to keep suffering for that long even when we have reached a point of desperation. I believe this man reached a point of desperation well before that 16 years. He desired change. He did. But he just could not stop his addiction.
Try Understand me here.
I know of a certain pastor (some of you might also know the story - details are not important here). He struggled for about 16 years with a particular sin, and it wore him out to the extend that he showed symptoms of a cancer patient. Literally. Loss of hair, sleepless nights, vomiting, lethargy e.t.c He knowingly said it was cancer, he knew it was not, when in actual fact the truth was that he was too ashamed/embarrassed to admit his real sin to his family, his church and his community. People prayed for this cancer patient. Their pastor. A man with a family. Serving God. Of course we all know whatever is hidden will be brought to light. People later knew the truth. At an agonizing time. Though. (Being a popular pastor from a known church, the media had a party - you guessed right.)
He had an addiction from age 12. This man suffered wanting to change for a good 16 years. Think about that. Why that long?
This story is one of the most mind boggling stories about sin which i can totally relate to. But never have a satisfactory answer to. Does God allow us to keep suffering for that long even when we have reached a point of desperation. I believe this man reached a point of desperation well before that 16 years. He desired change. He did. But he just could not stop his addiction.
Try Understand me here.