Dealing with Depression

[eskimosuzy]

I've been dealing with depression since i was about 11 or 12. It had subsided for a few years while i was galavanting mindlessly but has come back with a vengeance a couple of years ago. A man named Joshua had reentered into my life and we blindly started a family together. Once we started to plan our marriage destruction came into our home. I know that God doesnt want people living together when they are not married and i often am saddened by this knowledge of displeasing God. I am left with what seems to be an unanswerable question: Do i let my depressed state of mind break my family apart? Are we no longer together because that is how God wants it to be? or is our family simply being attacked by forces of evil to break us up? Does God want me to go on as a single parent? so many questions at the darkest part of my life that i cannot answer. i worry i will continue in the path of destruction and not listen to God. I worry for worrying. I am a complete mess and am in NEED of powerful prayer. i worry that my prayers go unheard for the life i live(d).I need God to take over my life as i brought nothing but unhappiness to my family.
thanks for taking the time to read my plea
God bless you

 

[spirit1st]

GOD wants us healed in the flesh and mind. But we must seek the Relationship with Him first. trying to just fit HIM into the picture some where? Is not going to do it. He did not Create us to be in the back ground just when we need Him or fell like being kind to Him . He must be front and center.
After all , we were Created for Him First and above all else. We are not to love Him though another or have others in between , That is not the relationship a good father has with HIS little child.
He is Creator , LORD and Master . King of Kings . He Created all things for HIMSELF. Not so we can put HIm in a box and open it when we feel sorry for HIM?
You get to get on your knees and tell Him ?You messed up and maybe fast if your able till you hear Him well and then talk it over with Him
and be humble about it seeking to repent and obey 100% no matter what?
Or you can keep suffering and maybe get worse and have a worse affect on all you love?
He does LOVE us and want the Best for us . But we must want to please Him ,not a church or pastor or pope or mate or anyone else on earth . It a True LOVE story , between a LOVING Father and Friend and HIS little child, if indeed we are Born of His perfect seed . If indeed we have given our heart and soul to Him?

2Ti_2:26 And that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will.

Rev_4:11 Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.
Because He wants a family , Who accepts Him as Lord and Father and Friend. or ? We can accept evil and watch it destroy all the good in our lives and our minds and bodies and our rightful place at GOD table. We decide , it our choice .

 

[eskimosuzy]

. We are not to love Him though another or have others in between , That is not the relationship a good father has with HIS little child.
He is Creator , LORD and Master . King of Kings . He Created all things for HIMSELF. Not so we can put HIm in a box and open it when we feel sorry for HIM?
You get to get on your knees and tell Him ?You messed up and maybe fast if your able till you hear Him well and then talk it over with Him
and be humble about it seeking to repent and obey 100% no matter what?
Rev_4:11 Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.
Because He wants a family , Who accepts Him as Lord and Father and Friend. or ? We can accept evil and watch it destroy all the good in our lives and our minds and bodies and our rightful place at GOD table. We decide , it our choice .

I dont quit get this part...
we are not to love him though another or have others in between: What does that make the father of my child? where does he fit into the picture? I understand that if God does not want Joshua in the picture of our family, i am willing to go forth for God. but for the sake of this child, i need to know where GOd wants to lead me. All i want is for my baby to know God and rejoice in His presence.

 

[spirit1st]

He Must have His own One on one relationship . Then He can be a worthy Dad and husband . Other wise He will not be very good.
You understand ? When this short life is over? We will be before him only. We will not have our mates or kids or Moms And Dads there to stand up for us or anyone else. It just going to be Us and our creator.
We not going to be able to say, the pastor told me too or my husband said too or my wife said too.

This is a husband and wife agreeing on lying to the Holy Ghost. Now had one of them been honest? They would not have died.

We do not agree to do evil ever. Not if we LOVE our Creator more than all else . That the question in every marriage and friendship . who do we count more? Will we serve Him always? Or just when it we can Let Him fit in?

WE All must make this same choice many times in life. Self or HIM?

Rom_14:7 For none of us liveth to himself, and no man dieth to himself.

 

[Brad Huber]

Glad to pray for you, but your marriage and your life will continue to have problems that bring you down, until you strengthen your own ties to Jesus. Everything else flows from that, fix your relationship with God first through Christ, and peace will come. I know its not the answer you are looking for, but its the real truth.

 

[amadeus2]

I am praying that God will you with this situation, that He will direct your every step.

 

[eskimosuzy]

Thank you so much for all your help! Please continue to pray for my partner and his walk with Jesus. He needs to be saved, he needs your help to pray for him.
thanks for telling me the truth, thats all i wanted to hear.
God bless you for praying for my family

 

[spirit1st]

Going to church is not it .Being baptized is not it. We must Give all we have and are too Jesus Christ . He rules over us after we give ourselves too HIM.
That the Only way we will be Born -again and have Eternal life. Eternal life is a never ending relationship with JESUS CHRIST.
He Never leaves us or forsakes us. That does not mean out of Love , He might deal hard with us . Because He loves us so much . He will not let us drift very far away? But It always out of Love He deals with us . wanting the very best for us all always.

We just accept His gospel as truth and Him from our Heart [Spirit] as Lord . We Must mean it .we cannot fool Him.

Rom 10:9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
Rom 10:10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

After that ? We Only follow HIM . We can serve in churches and groups but it Always Him we hear and obey and follow.
Our Life with Him is true LIFE. Life without Him in our heart [Spirit] as Lord is Death .
Death is No relationship with Him.

This is our LORD Gospel and the Only way unto Salvation.

1Co 15:3 For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures;
1Co 15:4 And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:


Rom_1:16 For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek.

It for anyone . He died for All mankind. Making it a Free Gift salvation.

 

[Brad Huber]

Continuing in prayer for you Eskimosuzy!!