Glow
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- Apr 25, 2013
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After reading a sermon online about the glory of God, and how it should be our sole motivation in life, I am starting to feel like a burden is on my back, pulling me down. I believe I am saved, or at least, now, I only think I do; but the fact that we, as Christians, are supposed to do everything in our lives solely, and only, for the glory of God has really been bothering me.
Now let me be clear. It's not the fact that it's for God. I honestly don't have any problem with that, because I believe God is worthy of it. My problem is that we, ourselves, are supposed to completely and utterly not seem to have enjoyment in anything. If I desire to listen to music, I feel like I have to constantly think to myself, "Is it Christian enough?" or "Am I being idolatrous?" If a woman should desire to have a husband, out of the desire that God Himself put in her, she is only supposed to desire that husband IF her desire is only for God's glory. How can she enjoy her relationship with her husband if she's always thinking, "Am I loving my husband too much? Is my desire only for God's glory?"
It's just frustrating. Sometimes to the point where I can't seem to trust that God is really who He says He is. I've begged God to put His love in my heart, and to save me if I am not saved, but it seems like nothing is happening. I begged God to give me assurance of my salvation if I am truly saved, but, again, nothing is happening.
I'm just so tired. I have issues with obsessive compulsive disorder as well, so I've been wondering if that might be the cause. Either way, please pray for me.
Now let me be clear. It's not the fact that it's for God. I honestly don't have any problem with that, because I believe God is worthy of it. My problem is that we, ourselves, are supposed to completely and utterly not seem to have enjoyment in anything. If I desire to listen to music, I feel like I have to constantly think to myself, "Is it Christian enough?" or "Am I being idolatrous?" If a woman should desire to have a husband, out of the desire that God Himself put in her, she is only supposed to desire that husband IF her desire is only for God's glory. How can she enjoy her relationship with her husband if she's always thinking, "Am I loving my husband too much? Is my desire only for God's glory?"
It's just frustrating. Sometimes to the point where I can't seem to trust that God is really who He says He is. I've begged God to put His love in my heart, and to save me if I am not saved, but it seems like nothing is happening. I begged God to give me assurance of my salvation if I am truly saved, but, again, nothing is happening.
I'm just so tired. I have issues with obsessive compulsive disorder as well, so I've been wondering if that might be the cause. Either way, please pray for me.