Thoughts.
rickygtz
Thanks brother, I feel sometimes depressed and bad with myself, because I dont know where or how this thoughts and voices can come out. But the enemy is certainly putting this thoughts on me, and my mind is also being attacked at the point I am loosing my memory .
God Bless you, and thanks again for your prayers.
My mother use to be bright, sharp, good looking, confident, loved God. She would listen to all the current teachers of her day. She loves the Gaithers. (Who come to Branson where I am at)
Something happened though. She was never taught the Word was final authority. Sure, she went to nice churches, but the teaching taught that in many ways, God was mysterious. You just never could look at a scripture and know for sure if that would be true in your life. The power of the word was just a faint concept. The teaching of Noah, Mosses, Jonah, where good biblical history, good stories, nothing much more.
The thoughts started when I was an older teen. Just thoughts, that's all. Somehow my mom felt she had disappointed God. Then the thought that because she had disappointed God, that most certainly would cause the death of her Children.
These thoughts worried her. My mom had the word of God in her, but it never occurred to her the Word was final authority, the power to change anything for those that believe. The power to heal any sickness, If God said by his stripes ye are healed, it's the same word that says we are saved by faith through grace. You better take it as fact, and believe only that.
My mom was never taught to think like this.
Soon, my mother started to fast. Her fear of loosing her two younger kids became stronger and stronger. She never took the word and made her stand, simply felt that God was telling her something.
The voices:
The voices started, your kids will die because of your sins. Soon, my mom was writing things down she felt God was telling her. It was gibberish, but real to her. This was the first time she made an attempt on her life.
years went by, she had been in and out of mental hospitals. The meds, that effect your mind, the crazy thinking had changed her.
The best the doctors could do is give her so many meds that she was like a zombie. functional somewhat, but still a zombie.
Today she lives in a mental home in Kentucky. I had plans to bring her home, but realized I would not even be able to take care of her. She forgets who I am even. I have visited a few times, and its a depressing place, yet her life is simple, and she no longer seems to care. All the plans for her life Gone, nothing. It's sad.
rickygtz
Don't you ever say again brother that your memory is being effected. Your youth is renewed like the Eagles. Your sharp, and bright. A strangers voice you will not follow. You have the mind of Christ, and not the spirit of fear. You write down those scriptures, you keep those in front of you. Carry them, confess them. Make your stand. The devil is defeated!!! There is no more battle, but victory. You resist the devil, stop confessing what he has done, you are the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, more than a conqueror. When you feel tired, and weak, you say I am strong.
God's word can not fail, ever.
Jesus Is Lord.