I've sinned how do i get saved by jesus?

[neutralview]

Ok i'm new to this forum & i didn't know where to post this i had to get this off my chest it's quite a complexe & long story/confession but i'll try make it as brief as possible.
Yeah so last year i commited a very bad sin however it was unintentional.
Me & my parents moved from France to England last summer, we put the house for sale on many websites but we eventually decided to rent it to a young couple.
When i arrived in England we didn't have all our furniture, computer, etc until september so i couldn't check my e-mails ( i usually check everyday) so by mid september i was able to check my e-mails i didn't notice any e-mails of importance in my inbox. However 2 months later in november, i noticed an e-mail from an elderly man who had terminal cancer & who wanted to move to France to get treatement for his cancer & was interested in buying our house. He had already booked everything with the hospital, he just needed a property to stay in.
He also sent a photo of him in a hospital bed, the thing is his e-mail was sent in mid july! So the day after i saw his e-mail i decided to reply to him but there was a problem his mail adress had been deleted for one reason? It's then i knew he had passed away.
Since then i've felt devasted & so guilty that if I had replied to him earlier he would have bought our house & got treatement for his cancer & he would still be alive.
But the thing is I couldn't have replied to him in july- august because i didnt have my computer till mid september & also his e-mail wasn't sent to my inbox, it was sent to another folder where all e-mails with photos are filtrated which is why i didn't notice that e-mail as I, like most people just check the Inbox or the junk folder.
So since then everywhere i go, everything on tv is ALL about cancer. I've had serious health scares & anxieties mostly related to cancer. During a couple of weeks i went to the hospital, the doctors & the A&E no fewer than 5 times but i did have genuine symptoms of cancer.
Some might think I was mad but this was happening for a reason, it's like God was trying to punish me for letting the elderly man die without helping or saving him. Because i didn't reply to his e-mail earlier, you might think that I ignored that man but like i explained earlier the e-mail wasnt sent to my Inbox it was in another folder which i noticed in november which was too late. I know I'm to blame for him passing away although i didn't know him it's my fault, I did a horrible & bad thing for ignoring a man who had terminal cancer. I commited a very bad sin, out of the 10 commandements I know what i did was like commiting murder.
So i seeked God/Jesus for his help, i repented & had true remorse, i asked God for his forgiveness, i told him i was sorry & i apologised for what i did although killing a man is unpardonable. I prayed so many times because I want to change & turn away from my sins, I don't want to commit this sin again or any other sin but although i sinned it wasn't deliberate ( I didn't deliberatly ignore the sick man, I wouldn't ignore anyone who had a serious disease like cancer)
I've believed in God for many years however i didn't really know him until now, I've started studying the bible online, I've read many scriptures online & on god tv & i know have trust, faith & belief in Jehovah God/Jesus Christ.
After the sin I did last year, I want to be saved by Jesus & enter the kingdom of God, I've tried so many times by praying to God but I don't think I've been saved?
If I go to church & confess this to a vicar will God/Jesus forgive my sin & save me? If i get baptized by the Holy Spirit will I be saved? Even though I'm non catholic can i get absolution?
I believe in GOd, Jesus & the Bible (God's word) & im getting to know them atm by studying the Bible online.



But I think i should read the entire Bible but i need to buy it & how many books are there? And how long does it take to read it ALL? I personally think it's too long to read, it would probably take me months to read all of it.

What do you think I should do?

Thks for your help.

 

[Christ4Ever]

First welcome neutralview,
First the only absolution you get is through the blood of Christ who died on the cross for you. You already have a mediator in Christ Jesus so what do have to go to someone assigned to hear your confession? Go straight to Him, which from what you've written you've done, and on more than one occasion. Praise His Holy name! On one hand you blame yourself for what happened to man, even though you had no way of knowing (which speaks of a kind soul on your part), and on the other hand you realize this, but still feel that your intervention would have saved him. In both ways you have no way of knowing and beating yourself up over something that you have no power to correct, and from what you've written need to.
You seem to be seeking Him in earnest, and want to be saved since you feel that you are not, is a sure way of knowing that He is calling you. Hope I got that part right. Gives me feeling that you are expecting something more, something kind of on the supernatural side of things, when you asked Jesus into your heart, your life? Well, the supernatural does happen at times, but then I've talked to some others, and there were no bells or whistles at least earthly ones! The Angels in Heaven were rejoicing when you have your life to Him. Here's a link you can check out that you can read which deals with Romans road to salvation. Read it. See how it applies to you. See how you doing this will change you and might have already! How'd you find this site? God moves us as He wills, and that's not a bad thing, but a glorious one! Praying that you will know Him, if you don't already and be guided by Him for all your days. In Jesus Holy name I ask this. Amen, Amen, Amen
The Roman Road to Salvation

 

[Hekuran]

Hi, and welcome to Talk Jesus,

Honestly, I think your guilty feelings are misplaced. First, you are not responsible for what you don't know about. Second, there are a couple of things about the story that seem odd to me - why would someone with a terminal illness be thinking about buying a house, it also seems unusual that he mentions his condition in the first email.

We are likely never to find out what has happened, but there is a good chance, I think, that the email was some kind of hoax.

Everybody is invited to be a part of God's Kingdom. Being saved is a question of accepting the invitation. It means acknowledging God as lord of your life.

A suggestion, for getting to grips with the Bible. Why not read Luke's gospel keeping an eye out for all the characters that are unworthy, guilty and sinful. Notice how Jesus responds to them, what he says and what he does.

I'd be really interested to hear your observations

 

[happyharold4]

Sounds more like an internet scam to me---You seem like a very sensitive individual-----If it were a real person and really dying of cancer, do you think yours was the only house in all of France that was available for purchase----You should have absolutely no feelings of guilt whatsoever, (NONE), in this matter------Now just see God as perfect and holy and yourself as a sinner overall in light of His pureness and repent before Him of your normal sinful human state and accept His free gift of salvation through His son Jesus----Get up off your knees and thank Him and start your new eternal life by praying for guidance, reading His word and seeking out other born again believers who can help you grow in your faith----PRAISE THE LORD!

Happy

 

[PrayerWarr1or]

Dont Forget the Sun

It sounds like guilt has come upon you in a full attack. It's plain to see where it is coming from; certainly not God. You are in no way responsible for this man's possible death. You have recently come to be very close with God i see, and these feelings sound familiar to me of when I first got saved.
Just remember that trusting in Jesus' ability to save those who confess their sin, ask forgiveness, and repent away from doing it again is paramount in your relationship with Him.

I have nothing but confidence that soon the worry of whether or not you truly are saved will be replaced by His spirit overflowing in you, and I pray to the Lord that this fear you are harboring may be completely overtaken with His love.

God Bless!
Casey Vermin

 

[gospelpreacher]

Ok i'm new to this forum & i didn't know where to post this i had to get this off my chest it's quite a complexe & long story/confession but i'll try make it as brief as possible.
Yeah so last year i commited a very bad sin however it was unintentional.
Me & my parents moved from France to England last summer, we put the house for sale on many websites but we eventually decided to rent it to a young couple.
When i arrived in England we didn't have all our furniture, computer, etc until september so i couldn't check my e-mails ( i usually check everyday) so by mid september i was able to check my e-mails i didn't notice any e-mails of importance in my inbox. However 2 months later in november, i noticed an e-mail from an elderly man who had terminal cancer & who wanted to move to France to get treatement for his cancer & was interested in buying our house. He had already booked everything with the hospital, he just needed a property to stay in.
He also sent a photo of him in a hospital bed, the thing is his e-mail was sent in mid july! So the day after i saw his e-mail i decided to reply to him but there was a problem his mail adress had been deleted for one reason? It's then i knew he had passed away.
Since then i've felt devasted & so guilty that if I had replied to him earlier he would have bought our house & got treatement for his cancer & he would still be alive.
But the thing is I couldn't have replied to him in july- august because i didnt have my computer till mid september & also his e-mail wasn't sent to my inbox, it was sent to another folder where all e-mails with photos are filtrated which is why i didn't notice that e-mail as I, like most people just check the Inbox or the junk folder.
So since then everywhere i go, everything on tv is ALL about cancer. I've had serious health scares & anxieties mostly related to cancer. During a couple of weeks i went to the hospital, the doctors & the A&E no fewer than 5 times but i did have genuine symptoms of cancer.
Some might think I was mad but this was happening for a reason, it's like God was trying to punish me for letting the elderly man die without helping or saving him. Because i didn't reply to his e-mail earlier, you might think that I ignored that man but like i explained earlier the e-mail wasnt sent to my Inbox it was in another folder which i noticed in november which was too late. I know I'm to blame for him passing away although i didn't know him it's my fault, I did a horrible & bad thing for ignoring a man who had terminal cancer. I commited a very bad sin, out of the 10 commandements I know what i did was like commiting murder.
So i seeked God/Jesus for his help, i repented & had true remorse, i asked God for his forgiveness, i told him i was sorry & i apologised for what i did although killing a man is unpardonable. I prayed so many times because I want to change & turn away from my sins, I don't want to commit this sin again or any other sin but although i sinned it wasn't deliberate ( I didn't deliberatly ignore the sick man, I wouldn't ignore anyone who had a serious disease like cancer)
I've believed in God for many years however i didn't really know him until now, I've started studying the bible online, I've read many scriptures online & on god tv & i know have trust, faith & belief in Jehovah God/Jesus Christ.
After the sin I did last year, I want to be saved by Jesus & enter the kingdom of God, I've tried so many times by praying to God but I don't think I've been saved?
If I go to church & confess this to a vicar will God/Jesus forgive my sin & save me? If i get baptized by the Holy Spirit will I be saved? Even though I'm non catholic can i get absolution?
I believe in GOd, Jesus & the Bible (God's word) & im getting to know them atm by studying the Bible online.



But I think i should read the entire Bible but i need to buy it & how many books are there? And how long does it take to read it ALL? I personally think it's too long to read, it would probably take me months to read all of it.

What do you think I should do?

Thks for your help.

Don't worry about it. All Christians are sinners like everyone else on this planet. God is saving all his people from their sinful flesh as they die. Death is our judgment but only the flesh, not our created existence in God. We are with God forever so when paradise is ready for us, then we get new immortal bodies to experience our life with forever.

 

[RPAB]

Before, and after, we become Christian, saten trys anything to get us to go back to sin(thinking God can't forgive us.)/our old lives.

2 Tim 1:7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline

 

[gospelpreacher]

Before, and after, we become Christian, saten trys anything to get us to go back to sin(thinking God can't forgive us.)/our old lives.

2 Tim 1:7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline

When sinners use scriptures to justify their sin nature, then God isn't involved in the interpretations of them. When God interprets them, they become inspired once again and are used for rebuking, admonishing and teaching purposes. God doesn't use them to make you feel good about your sinful flesh which is going to die according to the laws and commandments. The only way God can use you is to make you sinless, then he will have full control of your body so he can reveal his knowledge within your heart, mind and soul. This is impossible for him to do with a sinner.

 

[RPAB]

I ment that for the giult part... God, doesn;t make us feel giulty, saten does...
How did u get taht I was useing them as his justification? Sorry...

When sinners use scriptures to justify their sin nature, then God isn't involved in the interpretations of them. When God interprets them, they become inspired once again and are used for rebuking, admonishing and teaching purposes. God doesn't use them to make you feel good about your sinful flesh which is going to die according to the laws and commandments. The only way God can use you is to make you sinless, then he will have full control of your body so he can reveal his knowledge within your heart, mind and soul. This is impossible for him to do with a sinner.