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[LittleRabbit]

I'm not brave enough to go to church yet. All of my dealings with that have been rather bad. I don't blame anyone but it was just not pleasent for me. I ask to many questions, and am not remotely close to being well versed in the bible. My father sent me a bible for my birthday this years with a book called Search for Significance by Robert S. McGee. I was a bit taken aback because I have never been further from Christ than I was at that moment. My mind was and has been a wirl of thoughts and such hate for the God that my father believes in. But as the months have passed since my birthday (I told my father I would read the book, and so I am through my misgivings) I begin to wonder if I have been nothing but hurting myself in trying to believe that there is something besides that God that he believes in.

My sister lost her baby last week, and I was really hit hard by it. No it wasn't my baby that was lost but I was so mad so angry that God could let this happen to someone as wonderful as my sister. Then I realized as if hit by a ten ton brick. I may have had a horrible childhood, things happened to me that should never happen to any child. Ever! But that doesnt mean that it is Gods fault. My anger has slowly begun melting away. I have come here to learn and hopefully find friends who will be able to point me in the right direction.

I know no human can heal the wounds that I have suffered. My hope is that over time, I will have the ability to fill that void with the only one who can mend my broken heart. Jesus Christ

 

[SpiritLedEd]

I know no human can heal the wounds that I have suffered. My hope is that over time, I will have the ability to fill that void with the only one who can mend my broken heart. Jesus Christ

Welcome to TalkJesus, LittleRabbit. I'm so sorry that you've had painful experiences with the organizned church. Unfortunately, many "believers" do not grasp what they profess, are put off by questions, and get angry when anyone presses them even slightly for answers.

I, and the other moderators and our administrator, Chad, will be glad to try to answer your questions or point you to a resource that will give you the answers you seek.

Spirit Led Ed (SLE)

 

[LittleRabbit]

Thank you SLE I appreciate it!

 

[stephen]

My father sent me a bible for my birthday this years with a book called Search for Significance by Robert S. McGee. I was a bit taken aback because I have never been further from Christ than I was at that moment.

Your dad has your eternal welfare at heart......and so do we.

None of us can help growing older....but growing up....is another matter. May you know the maturity that God gives, is my prayer

You are welcome here.

 

[Boanerges]

I'm not brave enough to go to church yet. All of my dealings with that have been rather bad. I don't blame anyone but it was just not pleasent for me. I ask to many questions, and am not remotely close to being well versed in the bible. My father sent me a bible for my birthday this years with a book called Search for Significance by Robert S. McGee. I was a bit taken aback because I have never been further from Christ than I was at that moment. My mind was and has been a wirl of thoughts and such hate for the God that my father believes in. But as the months have passed since my birthday (I told my father I would read the book, and so I am through my misgivings) I begin to wonder if I have been nothing but hurting myself in trying to believe that there is something besides that God that he believes in.

My sister lost her baby last week, and I was really hit hard by it. No it wasn't my baby that was lost but I was so mad so angry that God could let this happen to someone as wonderful as my sister. Then I realized as if hit by a ten ton brick. I may have had a horrible childhood, things happened to me that should never happen to any child. Ever! But that doesnt mean that it is Gods fault. My anger has slowly begun melting away. I have come here to learn and hopefully find friends who will be able to point me in the right direction.

I know no human can heal the wounds that I have suffered. My hope is that over time, I will have the ability to fill that void with the only one who can mend my broken heart. Jesus Christ

Hi LR and welcome. I am sorry for the loss you and your sister feel, I will be praying for your whole family.
There are a lot of things in this life we do not understand but we can rest assured God loves us. This life is only a test to see where we want to spend eternity. That little one is with Jesus now and perfectly happy, won't it be a wonderful day when you both get to see it?
I would also like to point out that the Father understands your pain for He also watched His child die.
His Son gave His life for us out of love that we may freely know the love and presence of our heavenly Father. Without this gift of love life has no meaning. With Christ in our hearts we are free to experience His healing, His restoration and His wonderful presence.
Many blessings in His Name,
your brother in Christ Larry.

 

[Chad]

Hi LR,

Welcome to the forums. I strongly believe GOD led you here to this site to be ministered to. I'm sure other members here will agree with me on this.

Its clear GOD is already working in your life to draw you closer to Him through Jesus Christ. Just keep an open heart. You have nothing to lose, except any emptiness you feel that will be replaced by GOD's love.

 

[LittleRabbit]

thank you everyone! I really appreciate the warm welcome.

Chad, I do believe that I was brought here for a reason.