at the end of my rope & my faith

[darkest_soul]

i don't know anymore. my faith is tested day after day. God says He never gives more than we can handle. Well i can't handle anymore and yet i keep getting more and more and i can't cope anymore. i have prayed, i have tried. Others have prayed for me. i am a lost soul with no place in this world.

i am trapped in a marriage that i don't want to be in. i just lost the only man i will ever love in this world because of my constant defiance and disobedience. i just can not seem to get past this stupid stubborn will of mine.

i can not seem to submit to God wholly and just let go just as i can not sumbit to the one man whom i love more than life itself.

i am worthless. i don't belong in this world. Wasn't wanted from the day i was conceived. And no matter how hard i try i can't fix me. i am still here because of my stubborn will, so guess that's a good thing for once. i refuse to give up but i don't want to try either. i don't know what i want. Happiness, love... those things are impossible to attain and i will never have them.

Just pray for me that i don't give up. Maybe someday God will hear my cries.

 

[MelechYisrael]

Surrender.

God hears us before we speak. He answers before we ask.

You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are wanted...very much. God brought you forth; His creation; His handiwork. He has promised to lead the blind upon a path they have not known; to make the darkness light before them. He has also promised to never leave you, nor forsake you.

It is He Who will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert. Who will make those crooked places straight, and those rough places smooth before you.

And it is your God that will uphold you with His right hand.

Keep looking directly at the Son.

 

[RJ]

darkest_soul[/COLOR];150515]i don't know anymore. my faith is tested day after day. God says He never gives more than we can handle. Well i can't handle anymore and yet i keep getting more and more and i can't cope anymore. i have prayed, i have tried. Others have prayed for me. i am a lost soul with no place in this world.

i am trapped in a marriage that i don't want to be in. i just lost the only man i will ever love in this world because of my constant defiance and disobedience. i just can not seem to get past this stupid stubborn will of mine.

i can not seem to submit to God wholly and just let go just as i can not sumbit to the one man whom i love more than life itself.

i am worthless. i don't belong in this world. Wasn't wanted from the day i was conceived. And no matter how hard i try i can't fix me. i am still here because of my stubborn will, so guess that's a good thing for once. i refuse to give up but i don't want to try either. i don't know what i want. Happiness, love... those things are impossible to attain and i will never have them.

Just pray for me that i don't give up. Maybe someday God will hear my cries.

Dear friend here are some things you said and some answers:

my faith
i can not seem to submit to God wholly
Are you born again.Have you done something similar to Romans 10: 8-13? Are you sure your saved; do you remember the moment that Jesus came into your being?
If you haven't, your faith is useless and you can't submit to God.

i am a lost soul with no place in this world.
i don't belong in this world.
Actually, whether a person is a believer or a non-believer, St. Peter says that we do not belong to this world and calls us aliens. You are born of flesh and when your flesh dies you will be either two places spirituall, you will either be alive spiritually with God and all of the saved or you be be dead spiritually and in hell. The Bible aso tells us not to fall in love with this world, to keep focused what really matters, eternal life with God or absent from God. If you are feeling absent from God right now, imagine feeling that way for all eternity! But there is hope , read on!
i am worthless.
Wasn't wanted from the day i was conceived.
Wasn't wanted by whom? You must be taiking about someone else, like your own parents maybe.
If this is true, this is a tragedy and my heart goes out to you. But this is the world and not God.
For God knew you while in the womb and loved you even before you were created. Do you know, right now, as you stand before God, He has completely forgiven you of any sin? He did that at the cross. Whether you can grasp this right now, or not, God loves you as if you were the only person in His Universe, He loves you as much as His own Son. His love is totally unconditional.

And no matter how hard i try i can't fix me.
Your right and quit trying, non of us can truly fix ourselves, we are not perfect, not just yet! So many Christians fail at being Christians. I have news for you, stop trying to be a Christian because you can't. But, what you can understand is that Jesus Christs wants to be inside you and He wants to live His life through you. Just recieve Him, acknowledge Him through faith every day and you will see a change in your life.

i refuse to give up
Good!!! God has given you a strong will, maybe it is even a Spiritual Gift, so start using it to edify His Church ( learn and tell others of His gospel), the more you practice this, the more He will increase your faith. Focus your will on what He wants you to do and your problems will lessen.

darkest_soul
I say this with all love and respect, change you name to something more positive, darkest_ soul, just won't get it done!

Always here to help. God calls us to be a slave to one another. Consider myself as your slave and helper!

 

[SpiritLedEd]

At the end of my rope and faith

Just pray for me that i don't give up. Maybe someday God will hear my cries.

I strongly suggest you buy a copy of the book "God on Mute - engaging the silence of unanswered prayer" by Pete Grieg. It can be purchased through Amazon.com and (I believe) BarnesandNoble.com for a reasonable price. I found this book to be extremely helpful in dealing with a situation I'd prayed about for several years.

Spirit Led Ed (SLE)

 

[sunshine2]

You've had some very good advice here, Praying for you.

 

[stephen]

i don't know anymore. my faith is tested day after day. God says He never gives more than we can handle. Well i can't handle anymore and yet i keep getting more and more and i can't cope anymore. i have prayed, i have tried. Others have prayed for me. i am a lost soul with no place in this world.

i am trapped in a marriage that i don't want to be in. i just lost the only man i will ever love in this world because of my constant defiance and disobedience. i just can not seem to get past this stupid stubborn will of mine.

i can not seem to submit to God wholly and just let go just as i can not sumbit to the one man whom i love more than life itself.

i am worthless. i don't belong in this world. Wasn't wanted from the day i was conceived. And no matter how hard i try i can't fix me. i am still here because of my stubborn will, so guess that's a good thing for once. i refuse to give up but i don't want to try either. i don't know what i want. Happiness, love... those things are impossible to attain and i will never have them.

Just pray for me that i don't give up. Maybe someday God will hear my cries.

Maybe someday God will hear my cries.

Dear sister in Jesus......I can assure you that God will have heard your cries unto Him. Praying for you