Hello Sister Esthy. I emphatize with your family. I do understand your grief...
I had lost my first pregnancy about 2 years ago... That time I almost lost my last grip on the Lord, too through a shock, denial and great sorrow. Nobody's smile and kind words could penetrate my gloomy mind and my heart. I was so weak...helpless...distressed...
Yet, it has been the Holy Spirit who has comforted me until now by ushering me here to TJ for unchoking once again the words of God until His glory has come back gradually and made me sing in the Lord once again.
From glory to glory, the Lord has changing me and now I can clearly see His will. And that is to be His true worshipper.
Later, to make my story short, my question "why me?" turned to "why not me anyway?" upon realizing back how the Lord Jesus himself suffered from much pains and sorrows caused by our sins.
Be ye comforted in the love of the Lord Jesus, my dear sister. :girl_hug:
Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Colossians 2:2
That their hearts might be comforted, being knit together in love, and unto all riches of the full assurance of understanding, to the acknowledgement of the mystery of God, and of the Father, and of Christ;
Everything will be okay as long as we keep trusting the Lord's will.
In prayer,
Sister MC